she mostly makes me really sad, because her sadistic cruelty is very clearly a response to her own abuse at adora's hands and the social environment she lives in. which doesn't make it any less vile that she targets other young girls who she (correctly) interprets as less socially protected and therefore easier to get away with murdering and desecrating the corpses of, or negate any responsibility she has as the primary perpetrator in their brutal deaths. but, as adora points out, she's clearly scared and lashing out, believing that this is the best and perhaps only way for her to seize control and power over her life (as the text implies when amma tells camille how she likes to use sex to manipulate and overpower men*). the tragedy is that, with someone like adora as her primary example of how to behave and the consequences of inflicting that kind of violence on others in her formative years, amma was doomed from the start. she bears the weight of generations of rot built by repeated cycles of incestuous maternal abuse that even camille, who was distanced from it her whole life by adora's bitter resentment towards her, didn't escape untouched, and almost failed to survive at all. a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort, etc.
(*which is a commentary on gender as a structure and means of exercising power in a patriarchally dominated world rather than desire or attraction, as we see amma also attempt to seduce camille, at least partly because she sees pleasing her - by being desirable to her - as a potential means of escape from her current life)
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