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1/2 of Tweedle Talks

[tweedledumtoby]

Toby Tweedle // 23 // Custodian/Podcast Owner // Non-Magical

Character description (anxiety, drug & alcohol TW)

Toby Tweedle is a sensitive, smart and sweet guy who struggles with his anxiety. He had a rough childhood as he constantly got picked on for being nerdy and having a stutter, and watching his brother aka his best friend struggle with their family issues didn’t help. He was extremely book smart and tried to use his straight A’s to impress his parents and make them proud, but nothing seemed to work.  When his brother dropped out of high school, it was rough at first, but in a sense it was almost a blessing in disguise, as he was able to branch out and meet new friends that brought him and his brother to where they are now. Once Teddy got kicked out, it all fell into place to where he felt they belonged, at Wonderland. It wasn’t ideal of course — some of the people were sketchy, and drugs and alcohol weren’t a great influence, but he didn’t feel like an outsider anymore. He began to smoke cigarettes and weed to ease some of his anxiety, which actually helped way more than he expected, and hung out with his fellow coworker Chace, following him around on their adventures when his brother was busy. He had changed so much from who he was when he was younger, but he felt more comfortable being himself than ever. When him and his brother began their podcast Tweedle Talks, it only made their bond stronger and gave Toby another small nudge of confidence. He still has his bad days with his anxiety, but overall he has been pretty content.

Headcanons

Tweedle Talks is the best thing that happened to Toby and his brother. It brought them even closer than before and really helped Toby branch out more and find what felt like a safe space to him. He has a little notebook that he uses to write ideas for the podcast to show his brother later if he’s not already hanging out with him.

Wonderland in his eyes has changed him for the better, but it has also changed him for worse in other ways. He has become pretty dependent on smoking to feel at ease, and if he doesn’t have access to weed or cigarettes he resorts to drinking or other drugs. He doesn’t like to drink often, as he’s surrounded by drunk people at wonderland all the time, but he isn’t opposed to the idea either. He thinks his anxiety has gotten better, but in reality he has found ways to mask it with bad habits.

Toby gets the most nervous when he has a crush and is around them. His stutter will get out of control and he will fidget like crazy, losing his train of thought and unsure of how to express his feelings or make a move. It’s so embarrassing that he tries to avoid relationships  and crushes altogether, even if it isn’t ideal. But of course, sometimes love is impossible to avoid.

Toby can be super shy at first, but once he’s comfortable he’s kind of an open book. He’s a great listener and sometimes can give great advice, depending on what it’s about.

Toby sometimes wishes he had went to college after graduating high school, but he isn’t sure he would’ve done well due to his anxiety, and also isn’t sure what he would’ve even studied. He is happy where he is in life and is happy to be alongside his brother, but sometimes he wonders what his life would’ve been like if he had continued his education.

Toby is a pisces sun, libra moon & cancer rising!

[tweedledumtoby]

worldcfmyown​:

Alice honestly wanted to laugh, but she didn’t want to start a fight or make the air any more awkward than it already was. Was she doing better? She supposed in some ways yes. But in most ways she just felt like utter shit. She was tired and she hadn’t worn makeup for the longest time since she was like eighteen and she felt like she looked like she was barely hanging on. She was barely hanging on but looking how she felt was not something she was very used to, and she was not a fan of it. 

She hadn’t meant to let his comment hang in the air as long as it did but she had gotten into her head again and it took her a moment to pull herself out of it. She looked at him again, gave a real good look. He looked….like he had seen better days. But she probably shouldn’t comment on it. That wasn’t going to help either of them. And she hated that she was probably a contributing factor to the reason why.

“Thank you,” she said softly, giving a little smile. “It’s been…a journey. But I have good people in my life. I’m lucky in that way…” She let her knees fall and took a small sigh. “How have you been? What’s been going on? I don’t really use my phone much right now….except to tell people I’m alive, I guess….But I’m really out of the loop.”

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Toby hadn’t expected the awkward silence that followed his words. Did he say the wrong thing? She obviously was doing better than him — she was clean, sober, taking care of herself ... Toby surely couldn’t say the same for himself. Even if she wasn’t wearing makeup, wasn’t dressed to the nines and wasn’t all smiles like she once was, Toby could still tell this was going to be a good first step for her.

The two silently made eye contact, and Toby brought his gaze to the floor, momentarily feeling judged for his own appearance. God, maybe he shouldn’t have stopped by. It wasn’t too late to turn around and leave, was it?

Her voice finally broke the silence, and Toby kept his hands in his pockets, awkwardly rocking back and forth on his heels. It was nice to see her smile again, Toby mentally noted to himself, nodding as she spoke. He almost wished she hadn’t asked how he was doing. Was he supposed to lie to make her feel better? Or would the truth set them both free? He sighed also, deciding to take a seat at the edge of her bed, leaving some space between the two of them. “I’m ... okay,” he decided to answer vaguely. “Uh .. I’m taking a break from Tweedle Talks? I just, haven’t been able to focus on it enough, so .. I’ve mostly been keeping busy at Wonderland.”

[tweedledumtoby]

maldonaveen​:

    “Nah,” Naveen answered as Toby offered to share with him; alcohol was more than enough of a drug to keep him entertained—for the most part, just being in an environment with music and dancing (and attractive women and men) was all he really needed. It was a generous offer, though, letting him know that the younger man really did consider him a friend; that was touching. Grinning, Naveen asked, “If you aren’t planning to work, then what kind kind of trouble are you looking for? Do you need a wing-man?”

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Toby shrugged as Naveen declined the offer, never one to pressure someone to smoke with him. Instead, he put out the cigarette he’d just been smoking and pulled out a joint to replace it, figuring he could smoke some of it before he went back inside. As he lit the joint, he gave Naveen a smile in return. “Nothing specific, honestly. Just anything that gets me through the night,” he admitted. Taking a drag from the joint, he chuckled once he exhaled the smoke. “Thanks for the offer, but .. I don’t know if I should be getting into the dating game right now.”

[tweedledumtoby]

mochaschino​:

    Mocha was already ready to shrug the whole ordeal off and forgive him for being less than the ideal date on New Years; it didn’t really matter in the grand scheme of things. She’d still managed to have a decent time that night, and she hadn’t really expected things to go anywhere with him, so him being focused on his ex girlfriend lately wasn’t a deal—though it would have been nice if he’d still dropped by as a friend during that time. Hearing that said ex was in the hospital, however, put things into perspective, and she felt nothing but sympathetic toward Toby, her smile having transformed into a frown at some point as he spoke.

     “Hey, there’s no need to apologize to me,” she said, holding her palms up and shaking her head. “I’m sorry to hear about your used-to-be, man. That must have been hard for you…Do you want a cup of java? It’s on me.”

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Toby should have known that Mocha would be chill about the whole thing, but that didn’t make him feel any less bad. Alice in the hospital or not, he knew he could have handled some of the situation better than he did. At the end of the day, Toby really did like Mocha, and didn’t wanna screw it up with her, whether it was just as friends or more. They’d kissed at the ball, but he had no idea how she was feeling about him since that night. Not only that, he wasn’t even sure thinking about dating or relationships was the best thing for him right now. Regardless, seeing how nice she was being was reassuring. “It’s alright, she’s .. She’s doing better now, I think..” He trailed off, a smile forming as she offered him some coffee. “Yeah, t-that’d be great, actually. Thanks.”

[tweedledumtoby]

Toby always loved hanging out with Nibs, enjoying his musical talents and his fun, goofy energy. Toby was obviously the more reserved one of the two, but Nibs always got Toby to come out of his shell each time they were together. It was ironic how both of them were going through heartache at the same time — though they were two completely different scenarios, they both ended with two heartbroken boys, seeking ways to feel normal again.

“I’m telling you, Wonderland always makes me feel better,” Toby reassured Nibs as they arrived to the club. Toby knew Wonderland like the back of his hand, almost like a second home to him. In fact, he typically spent more time there than at his and Teddy’s home. It felt long overdue to show Nibs what he’d been missing out on. “We can smoke before we go in, if you want? Or we can just go in and start with the drinks. You’re the guest of honor tonight, my guy, so it’s your call.” @noahnibs

[tweedledumtoby]

Toby had been hanging around Wonderland on his days off far more than usual. Though he was always caught there a few times throughout the week in his free time, now it had become more consistent. When Alice first left, Toby thought he’d never be able to be at the club without thinking about her, but drinking and drugs proved to be the easy fix to not think about her absence. Besides, he’d actually become more social now, branching out and making new friends to make him feel better about the whole situation.

Tonight, he’d stumbled upon a new friend that he surprisingly hadn’t met before, despite that they were the same age and both grew up in town. It was like fate had brought them together that night, to create a new friendship that they both never knew they needed. “Yeah, sometimes this is my favorite part about Wonderland,” Toby admitted as they stood outside the club, taking a drag from the joint and passing it to Swizz. “I love it here, but sometimes it does get pretty loud and chaotic. Out here, I can smoke and clear my head, let the cold air wake me up some,” he chuckled. “You know, you didn’t even tell me what made you come here tonight. How come I’ve never seen you here before?” @swizzlesmalarkey​

[texaschainsawmascara]

exactly

[tweedledumtoby]

dinahxnash​:

Dinah liked that she could at least be honest with Toby about how she was doing, and she would get the same in return. Toby was good that way. It was one of the reasons why they got along. And Dinah really did love the boys, each in their own ways. It had been like that since the beginning, if she thought about it. Since before she knew which was Teddy and which Toby. 

She gave a nod of understanding, reaching over to grab his hand and squeeze it for a moment. She would never deny any of her friends a safe space and she knew the other girls would be understanding as well given what they’d been going through. “Of course, Toby, whatever it is that you need. We’ve got plenty of stories waiting to be read if that’s something you’d be interested in, for a distraction. You know how I love making recommendations.”

Although, to be honest, she felt remarkably off her game. She hadn’t read anything new in about a month or so, maybe, and definitely nothing more recently. Not even short poems. It was hard, trying to write and writing and writing and still not processing things. Frustrating, even. Dinah shook her head at herself. “Although to be honest I’d rather make an igloo out of the books right now just to hide away from everything, myself. I don’t think my coworkers would appreciate that though.”

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Dinah putting her hand on his was reassuring, and Toby managed to give her a small smile. Even if the world felt like it was collapsing, like the universe was against all of them, at least their friends were all there for each other. Considering Toby and Teddy didn’t have the best relationship with their parents, their friends were their family — Wonderland was a giant family to them.

“It’s tempting,” Toby answered as she suggested a good book, shrugging his shoulders. “We’ll see. I think I just need to .. just sit here and exist for a minute.” Part of him wished he could do that forever, just sit there and never have to move again, never have to think about responsibilities, or heartache, or pain. 

“That sounds really nice,” he agreed, imagining the two of them huddled up under a igloo-like fort made from books. He looked at Dinah again, noticing her sad expression and tilting his head slightly. “You need anything? Maybe some fresh air?” Fresh air was obviously code for a smoke break, too, but he did mean what he said. He knew how hard it was to be working while feeling like this, like you’re suffocating from the pressure. “Whatever you need, I’m here.”

[tweedledumtoby]

fashionfcward​:

She couldn’t even remember the last time she’d seen Toby around. Being stuck in her own little world she’d gotten used to the quiet but once she saw him she was smiling. He was one of the only people who understood her podcast and what it meant to her. Some people just didn’t get it. “Toby!” The girl hopped up to her feet, pulling him into a quick hug. “Oh, stop it, never. I am just happy to see you. Where have you been?!” She slid back into the booth. “Come, sit, sit.” The girl patted the spot next to her. “Let me show you. I was able to bring in Sharpay for this episode, we were talking about the ball and all the fashion there.”

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Despite his usual shy nature, it had been pretty obvious that Toby was keeping to himself after recent events. Either that, or he was hanging around everyone at Wonderland as a distraction — there really was no in between. His smile grew once Monique had acknowledged him, not hesitating to hug her in return. Asking where he’d been sure was a loaded question, shrugging his shoulders and shoving his hands in his pockets as she pulled away from the hug. “It’s uh.. a long story, a lot’s been going on lately ..” he trailed off, more interested in hearing what Monique was up to than talking about his problems. Sitting beside her, he glanced at what she was working on and nodded his head. “That’s awesome!” He smiled, unable to help missing working on podcasts despite choosing to take a small break from it. “I can’t wait to hear it. When do you think it’ll be finished?”

[tweedledumtoby]

worldcfmyown​:​

Of course through all of this one of the only people on Alice’s mind was Toby. She felt most of her guilt towards him; for lashing out, for being a mess, for not going to him for help. In a lot of ways, she was as scared as she was sad that she didn’t get the selfish pleasure of being able to hit him up whenever she wanted to talk. He was one of her best friends and she had treated him like garbage, so she could only blame herself. She was sure he hated her. She hated herself and would hate herself even more if she was in his shoes. 

She hadn’t texted him like she did everyone else. She wanted to but she just…couldn’t. She thought the nicest thing she could give Toby was her absence and she was trying to stick by that. Therapy was tough but she had talked about him a lot. Her eyes still lit up whenever it came to him, even in her sadness, and even though she wasn’t talking to him, it still felt nice to get everything off of her chest about him. Still, the feeling of guilt gnawed at her heart and she wished she knew what to do.

Her days were spent in her room. Vaping, trying to forget it all without having the proper aide to forget it all and wishing she could crawl out of her own skin. Chace and Dinah visited, but even so she felt bad for them even doing that much. She missed Wonderland and she missed her friends terribly, but she was not a good enough person to be able to see them and not want to burst into tears from her shame. So, her room it was. And it was a nice room even though it was a little more barren now from Margaret redecorating it. 

Alice was happy she still had her ceiling of stars, and she had been staring at them intensely when someone knocked on her door. She begrudgingly got up, opened it, and when she saw Toby her heart stopped. He didn’t look so hot and she knew it was her fault. She didn’t know what to say or do or anything until he greeted her. Then before she knew it, she was making space for him to come in and going back to her bed, her mind racing faster than it had since she left the hospital. She brought her knees to her chest and looked at him as if she was hallucinating him, but still let out a very soft “….hi Toby.”

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Seeing Alice immediately brought up a swarm of emotions for Toby, both good and bad. It was a reminder of how much he missed being around her — they used to hang out almost every day since they were young, and it had been hard to not be able to text her a stupid riddle like he used to, or to hang out with her whenever he wanted. He knew everyone else had been visiting her, but not saying much as if to save his feelings, and he didn’t blame them. Though he had wanted to visit her sooner, he also knew they still needed space. Seeing her was also a reminder of how much he had hurt her, and that was something he could never fully forgive himself for.

Neither of them spoke for a moment, and the silence only made Toby focus on Alice’s appearance. She looked ... better, healthier,  and in a way she was doing much better than he was. He was almost embarrassed by how much of a mess he was, unsure if showing up like this was even healthy for Alice. Maybe visiting his ex was selfish — if she were to refuse to let him in, he wouldn’t blame her.

She made space for him to enter her room, though, and he forced his feet to move to go inside, immediately noticing how much emptier the room felt. His eyes wandered as it pinpointed different things that were missing, until Alice finally broke the silence. She had immediately curled up on her bed, with her knees against her chest, and Toby couldn’t help but want to hug her, to comfort her .. Instead, he kept his distance. “I ... I’m glad you’re doing okay.”

[tweedledumtoby]

mochaschino​:​

     The ball hadn’t gone exactly how Mocha had expected, but of course that was the spice of life, wasn’t it? It was unpredictable, unplannable, and…sometimes, just a little underwhelming. There were some good things that had come from going out with Toby that night; she’d gotten to dance and she’d met the second half of Tweedle Talks who’d proven to be good company, like his brother—most of the time. Then there was the fact that her date had been on edge the whole time, pulled away at some point to get into some kind of a row with his ex-girlfriend, kissed Mocha at midnight and then and hadn’t dropped by since…

     She was surprised to see Toby again at this point—wondering whether he’d cut his losses—but the only sign she showed of it was the brief widening of her eyes as he walked through the door. By the time he made his way over to her, the only expression she wore was a small smile. “Take a seat and tell me what’s on your mind,” she offered, motioning for him to make himself comfortable. “Pardon my honestly, but you don’t look too hot, daddy-o.”

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Perhaps Toby shouldn’t have been so nervous to talk to Mocha, for as soon as she spoke to him, he felt himself immediately relax. He really couldn’t help it, though — it wasn’t Mocha at all that made him nervous, but Alice. She didn’t even have to be present to get Toby on edge, anxious to fill Mocha in on everything now that he’d had awhile to process it. He could have left the brunette high and dry with no explanation, but he wasn’t that sort of guy. He knew Mocha deserved more than that.

He didn’t hesitate to take a seat as she offered, huffing a sigh as if to release some of the excess nerves that were still lingering. “Yeah, it’s been a crazy couple of weeks..” He admitted, scratching the back of his neck anxiously. “Uh.. First, I just wanted to apologize for how weird I’ve been, especially on New Years. You deserved a way better night than that, and .. I’m also sorry that I dropped from the face of the earth afterwards. I ...” He paused, mouth feeling dry as he grew closer to admitting what happened with his ex. “I found out, after the ball, that my ex was in the hospital, so it was .. a lot to process.” He shook his head as he continued, “But I know that doesn’t excuse the way I’ve been acting. I think that you’re a really cool friend, and I’d hate for that to change because of me being stupid.”

[tweedledumtoby]

dinahxnash​:​

Ever since Toby and Alice had broken up, Dinah had developed a softer spot for Toby. Alice was her best friend, and she was of course there for her after the split, whatever she needed, but she could tell Toby had taken it extra hard and could use a hand some days to get on. Dinah liked being the shoulder her friends could cry on, she liked feeling needed and giving her friends as much kindness and advice as she could whenever they were down. It made her feel useful. With Alice having only just gotten back home recently, Dinah was waiting for Margaret to give her the okay to visit. Until then, she was trying her best to keep on keeping on, for Teddy and Toby’s sake’s if not for her own. Still, it was immensely difficult to keep focused on work and studies when her head felt this muddled. She just kept going back to that night, to seeing her best friend incapacitated, to all the fear and the worry… She was distracted, putting books back in the wrong places, when she heard someone enter the shop. She couldn’t even muster up her usual cheery greeting. But when Dinah looked over and saw that it was Toby who’d walked in, she breathed a sigh of relief. Making her way over to him, she plopped down in a chair at his side with an even larger sigh. “Hey,” she greeted, looking at him and trying to assess how he was feeling today without asking. “Um, well, I’m pretty sure I haven’t done a single thing right here in two weeks and I’ve already begun to fall behind in my classes a little. So, you know… okay.” Tilting her head, she started tapping her foot on the ground. She was going to need a smoke break soon. “What about you?”

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It wasn’t easy, feeling like everyone was lightly treading around Toby and looking at him with pity. Although, he knew it was worse for Alice than himself, as she was the one who ended up in the hospital. Even from just the break up, though, everyone treated Toby more gently, like a fragile child that needed comfort. He still didn’t know if he hated it or appreciated it more.

Toby had tried to stay strong at first, as he was the one who ended things with Alice. How could the person doing the dumping be heartbroken? That wasn’t usually how the stories went — but breaking Alice’s heart was the most painful thing Toby ever did, so painful that he was still feeling the effects from the decision. It wasn’t until after New Years that Toby finally cracked, unable to hide how much he was hurting. He didn’t even know where to go from here, thinking that he would be okay with the distance between him and Alice, but now completely unsure of what he wanted or needed.

Toby nodded his head as Dinah admitted how she was doing, none of it sounding too good. It had been the same for Toby, though. He couldn’t do anything right at Wonderland, he had no inspiration for Tweedle Talks... Everything good in his life was starting to crumble in his hands. A small sigh escaped his lips. “Can’t say I’m doing much better,” he admitted truthfully, struggling to keep eye contact. He always avoided eye contact when he was anxious or upset. “I figured coming here would be a good distraction, ‘cause ... Being alone right now isn’t exactly ideal.” Not that Toby would do anything stupid, but sometimes he struggled to get his thoughts to shut up when he was alone. As long as he had someone close by to talk to, he could manage to keep his head above water. He had Teddy beside him most of the time, but he couldn’t keep his brother away from working and living his own life. “Mind if I hang out for awhile? I won’t get in the way or anything.”

[tweedledumtoby]

maldonaveen​:

    Naveen hummed at Toby’s non-answer, figuring that there was probably more going on in the young man’s life than he was letting on, but that if he really wanted to talk about it, he would have. It wasn’t his place to pry, after all, so he took the cue to move the conversation along and shrugged as he sat down next to his friend. “What do you think? The same reason as always, my man.” Fill the void in his life with partying and drinking so that he didn’t start to regret how empty he was inside. “Have fun!” It seemed there were some things both he and Toby kept to themselves.

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Toby wasn’t sure what Chace had or hadn’t told Naveen about Alice, so it was safe to assume that their friend was oblivious to all the drama that had recently gone down. He turned his head to face Naveen as he sat beside him, a small smile forming. “That’s what I like to hear! I could probably use a night of fun, myself,” he admitted with a chuckle, continuing to smoke the cigarette in his hand. “Well, I’ve got some good shit with me, if you wanna kick the night up a notch. I wasn’t planning on actually getting work done tonight, anyway.”

[tweedledumtoby]

fashionfcward​:

Monique was deep into editing her next podcast in a booth at the Bueno Nacho. She reached out to find her cup, taking a sip of her iced tea as her other hand continued to move across the keyboard. In her focus she almost didn’t see that someone was standing beside her table. The girl pulled the headphones from her head onto her neck and looked up from the screen. “Sorry about that, they weren’t kidding when they said noise cancelling.” Mo released a gentle laugh. “What was it you said?”

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Toby couldn’t help but recognize Monique as he was leaving Bueno Nacho, who was clearly very focused on whatever she was working on for her podcast. Toby loved being friends with others who did podcasts like he and Teddy did; it felt like its own niche community. Although Tweedle Talks was the last thing on Toby’s mind recently, he still wanted to say hi to his friend and see what was up. He had said, “Hey Monique,” but her headphones were blocking the sound of his voice, and she had yet to look up from her computer. He almost decided to leave her in her element until she had finally pulled the headphones off her head. “It’s fine, I was just saying hi,” Toby answered with a chuckle. “Sorry if I broke you from your focus. What are you working on?”

[tweedledumtoby]

Toby had never been more nervous to see Alice than this moment. His hair was disheveled, eyes red from a mix of exhaustion and too much smoking, and part of him wondered if he was making a mistake by disturbing Alice’s peace. Margaret was trying to help Alice, and what help was Toby going to be? He had been the one to break Alice — he hurt her so much, she wanted to hurt herself as a result.

When he’d first heard the news, he literally got sick to his stomach — whatever he ate that day didn’t stand a chance, and once his stomach was emptied, a panic attack quickly followed. He doesn’t remember much of the rest, besides his brother calming him down and reminding him to breathe. He’d woken back up in his room later on, and all that seemed to linger since then was an empty, numb feeling.

Seeing Alice in the hospital was hard, but he knew he would have hated himself if he didn’t visit her at least once. That one visit was all he could manage. The rest of the days since then had been a blur. He was trudging by, grasping for things to make him feel whole again. And despite that he was terrified to face Alice, he knew he couldn’t avoid her forever. She was his best friend first, and he had to know she was okay.

Facing Margaret had been a challenge on its own, the heavy guilt deep within his stomach feeling like a rock as she let him in the house. He had no idea what he was going to say, no idea what Alice would say to him, but he forced himself to knock on her bedroom door. As soon as the door was open and she was standing in front of him, he practically froze, breath caught in his throat as he forced a simple, “.... hi.” @worldcfmyown​

[tweedledumtoby]

Despite how lonely Toby had been feeling recently, it was still good to know he had so many people close to him to keep him from falling apart. Between Teddy, Dinah and Chace, he hardly had a moment to be alone and wallow in his sadness. There was a perk to all of this, of course. Teddy really couldn’t complain if Chace came over right now, not with Toby so down in the dumps — so he could invite them over without any guilt, not worrying about one annoying or irritating the other. He had been really looking forward to having Chace stay over, knowing they were both trying to find ways to smile again after all the heartache.

He’d been expecting Chace to appear in his room, a genuine smile forming as soon as they were there. “Hey! You made it,” Toby said happily, standing up to pull them into a hug. It wasn’t unusual for the best friends to hug, always very affectionate toward each other, but Toby couldn’t help but hug Chace a little tighter tonight, the hug lingering for a moment. 

“I’m so glad you’re here,” he admitted with a small sigh, pulling away from the hug but resting his hand on their shoulder. As he looked at Chace, he couldn’t help but be reminded of something he’d thought about recently — how easily the roles could have been reversed. If not Alice, then who instead in their friend group? Teddy. Dinah. Chace. Even himself .. almost losing Alice entirely was really eye opening to Toby. Though, some would think that it would result in Toby wanting to stay away from drugs, it unfortunately did the opposite. It was always a small habit of his before, but the past few weeks had been a never ending haze for the younger Tweedle. “How are you holding up? You want anything?” @cheshirechace​

[tweedledumtoby]

Toby wouldn’t know what to do with himself if it weren’t for Teddy. He hated feeling like this, like he was a fragile child that needed to be coddled. Although part of him wished his brother would give him his space, he also appreciated that Teddy was there anytime he needed him, no questions asked. Between being by his side during the break up, checking in on him at the ball, and never leaving his side since Alice was in the hospital, Toby was more grateful for Teddy than ever before.

It was early, and Toby couldn’t sleep. The sun hadn’t even come up yet, and he was already on the couch rolling himself a joint. He was enjoying the peace and quiet, only focusing on transferring the weed from the grinder to the rolling papers, but his thoughts were broken as he heard footsteps. Bringing his head up, he saw a tired looking Teddy standing a few feet away. Toby smiled at him with a similar tired expression. “Morning,” he greeted him casually, as if it were normal to be up this early. “Want some?” @tweedledeeteddy​