WHOLE WORLD TO HEAR ME ROAR IT ALL OUT!
By this time I was supposed to already have few blog entries and at least few followers. Not out of vanity, but despair. But it was so hard to gather thoughts and express them each time I planned to make an entry. Then, as I do with procrastinated papers when there is little time left, I decided to just start writing what first comes to mind.
In 8 days I will be turning 25. And I am freaking out. Age is just number, I always tell others. However, is it just a number when you have not achieved what you hoped you would by that age? Are our underachieved goals and dreams what makes us sad when we get older?
By the age 25, I was hoping to have a successful career in acting, enough money on bank account to travel whenever I would like. I would have starred in couple of franchises and already been nominated for an Oscar, if not win. I would have a loving relationship and close to getting married. I started thinking about it since early teenage years, so getting a nomination or Oscar win was not overambitious. Guess where I am?
At my 9-5 6 office job, where the chief would not raise my salary, even though I have worked for almost 4 years and received recognition from our vital international partners several times.I live in a country that I would love to leave and my personal life is far from a starting relationship.
My emotions start to control me. I have become so irritated and stressed, and I do not know what happened to me yesterday, but I had to take a day off because I felt a tight knot in my chest at the work desk. Since I am a secluded person, I do not share these emotions in details with anyone. My parents do not even know my real passion in life. This is why I hoped I would have some followers who would become my support system. I know, I know, we should find strength within, but when you are exhausted it is healthy to look out for people like you to support each other.
But, whether anyone will read or not, I will continue to share my sacred thoughts for the pleasure of spying agencies, because I want the
WHOLE WORLD TO HEAR ME ROAR IT ALL OUT!