So here I am, a woman in her twenties. Somehow I found myself here, inhabiting this life, this existence. And this is my job, and these people are my friends, and there's the guys I see that I can't call men yet, and all the lack of love and the realizations my peers and I share about these guys. And there's sex and hope, illusions and nervousness, mourning and yearning and evolving. Somehow, I grew up, I made it into adulthood. But the shy little awkward girl I was is still living inside. And everyday, I have to hold her hand and tell her to have faith, to keep jumping with me into the exciting and threatening possibilities of living a life that we chose, rather than endure. A life in which we humbly and continously move into, deeper, higher and further. With dignity, despite of the losses, despite the way our pain is distorting us. The future that still holds some promises in which we want, we have, to believe in.