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[shadowofanempress-deactivated20]

also sitting here wondering what my emails were to rosie and billie’s blogs what the fuck is my problem 

i low key miss dishonored rp and i definitely have the time for it but i think almost everyone’s caught the plague and is dead lmfao (ah yes right back into the thick of it)

and also my blogs? are horrendous right now because my standards have shifted entirely over the past year or so???

anyway, this is me saying that i’m definitely thinking of coming back? but for now i just -shrug emoji- 

[twiceapariah]

walk into the club like whaddup i fucking betrayed u 

[with-knives]

billie's blues

[with-knives]

Can he say it surprises him - that anything does, anymore? Both times now, with the two of them on opposite shores, it feels in some way an ironic, bittersweet inevitability. He can feel something heavy pull in his chest and without hesitation, smothers it like an infant in the cradle. Whatever misplaced sentiment that had stayed his hand the first time cannot be allowed to interfere. He knows it will anyway.

Above all else, Daud had hoped - if he was still capable of such a forlorn, weary thing as hope - that Billie would have forgotten the name Dunwall and all the wretched, broken things it housed.

The twitch of his lip is a wry thing, the spin of his blade even more so - contemplative and disarmingly casual, gracefully twined through gloved fingers like it were liquid rather than steel, an idle distraction. “Something like that,” his words are graveled as always - though the palest inflection betrays some measure of fondness - and there is no give in the curious way he eyes the contents of her quarters in a sweeping movement. 

"Impressive," Daud remarks, taking a small step forwards, fingers running idly across the edge of that threatening, purposeful blade. He regards the motion with a contemplative tilt of head, tests the give of its edge with the tip of a finger. The word itself is empty, without meaning. "You certainly seem to have made a name for yourself. Enough that people have noticed." The wrong kind of people.

Is it pride, or resentment?

The assassin’s upward glance is carefully measured beneath furrowed brows, though there is something earnest in his stare. “I thought you would have left by now.”

[twiceapariah]

She had seen him wield a weapon countless of times. She had seen him with fresh blood splattered over his face, drying on his fingers, staining his skin. But for some reason, this is the first instance where she feels an ounce of fear in his wake. Despite how leisurely he holds his blade, it is enough to freeze the blood in her veins. BIllie steels herself. The last thing she needs is to show him that she's afraid. "You sound almost upset," she remarks, the edge evident in her voice despite how hard she tries to smother it. "You think I would just leave and not try to do something better with my life?" Her only other dream aside from being as master assassin was to be a captain. If she left that behind, what else could she do but rot? If that was the case, it she would have been better off dead. "I did," she says simply, finding no need to lie to him. "But I suppose forgetting about Dunwall is more easier said than done." She licks her lips. "Business takes me back here, nothing more." If she could have it her way, she would never have to step foot on the shores of Dunwall again. However, that is much easier said than done when the same city is also the capital of the Isles. She feels obligated to justify her return, almost like an attempt to redeem herself -- though something tells her it wouldn't matter if she got down on her knees and begged. Of all people, it had to be him. It couldn't have been any of the other Whalers. It had to be Daud.  "Should I dare ask why you're here?" Billie decides to say, crossing her arms over her chest. 

[wolfsliege-deactivated20160330]

Daud stood up, almost hastily. He walked calmly towards her, and touched her shoulder with his marked hand.

"Everyone I guess, but one."

He wondered if this is how it is to be a father. He’d secretly wished he could be one, but families and loved ones are a liability in his line of business. It felt horribly burdened to think that he had to tell her to leave; after seeing her grow into the person that she is. Under these wrinkled and bark-like hands he pushed her limits, and pulled her up when she fell too hard.

And because of this unfamiliar emotion, he knew he couldn’t hate her. He was merely upset, just as any father would to a reckless daughter. Daud could never cast her aside forever. His eyes cast a longing feeling he felt throughout his lonely days since she’d left, with a soft smile.

"Your brothers and sisters might think you as a traitor. Hating you for your decisions, but as I keep telling everyone, we’re all human. Making mistakes we come to regret for life. Jessamine, for example." He glanced at her portrait on his wall. "That kind of mistake, the kind nobody would ever had in them to forgive you for. I know how it feels like to try to make things right again."

"What you did, I don’t know if I could ever forgive that, despite saying all these things. But I could try."

He pulled her into an embrace.

[twiceapariah]

She froze, the moment his hand met her shoulder. Billie was not one for physical contact so the gesture only proved to put her on edge, especially with it being from Daud of all people. 

As comforting as his words were meant to be, BIllie could still not find it in herself to completely let go of her guilt. She supposed her own internal strife was the cross she had to bare in repentance for what she had done, regardless of whether or not Daud attempted to forgive her or not. 

She opened her mouth to speak before she was interrupted by Daud pulling her into his arms. Billie was frozen, still, caught off guard by the foreign feeling of being hugged. A few seconds ticked by before she spoke.

"What...?" she asked, extremely confused. "Uh..."

Billie bit her lip, debating on what to do next. She never took Daud for the hugging type, but perhaps he would have taken it the wrong way if she remained still. Either way, she slowly raised her arms to return the embrace lightly. She stayed that way for only a few moments, not wanting to get too comfortable with all of this physical contact, before pulling away - perhaps a bit quickly.

The woman cleared her throat.

"I... Thank you," Billie started, averting her eyes, "Though I'm still unsure if I even deserve an attempt at forgiveness." 

She looked to him, a somewhat melancholy look in her eyes.

"So what now?" 

[wolfsliege-deactivated20160330]

"I thought of it."

He’d always missed home. He’d seen beautiful seasides and tropical sunrises, but none could contend the comforts of the sun and heat of Serkonos. Daud had been taken against his will away from home, but for some reason he had not tried his best to return.

Not for visits, like ones he occasionally did. Coming home for good, where he was raised by his intelligent and resourceful mother. Is the house still there where he’d left it years ago? He avoided it in his little trips home. He was afraid of the pain it might inflict him should he decided to return to Gristol again.

But there’s nothing for him here anymore, is it not? Billie was right. Why not now?

"I guess," he took off his gloves and stared at the wrinkles of time and experience etched on his skin, "There are things I’m afraid of doing after all."

Finally he could look at her again, eyes softening upon resting on her sight. “Maybe I didn’t want to end up being there alone. If I die here, I’d have someone to look and hold on to, probably miss as well.”

"In Serkonos… who’d visit a mysterious old man there?"

[twiceapariah]

She pursed her lips, eyes flickering to the mark on the back of his hand. Billie could easily say that this was one of, if not the only time she could recall ever seeing it. Even after all this time, Billie still could not help but stare at the black insignia burned into Daud's hand. She had always been curious about the Outsider - that was no secret.

"Who knows," she shrugged, slowly rising from her seat, drawing her eyes away from Daud and onto the papers scattered over his desk. "I'd offer to visit, but I feel as if I you might not want to see the person who betrayed you when you're trying to get away from all of this." 

Billie eyed the man as she picked up one of the stray sheets and skimmed through it, wondering if Daud would protest to her reading his files. 

"I'm sure it wouldn't be hard to find someone to take with you. Thomas, even? You have a whole score of people who would follow you to the ends of the earth, don't you?" 

Had things been different, perhaps Billie would have been one of them. Though months had passed and the guilt had mostly subsided, there was still something about just being in the same room as him that tied her stomach in knots. 

[with-knives]

billie's blues

twiceapariah

[with-knives]

The act of staying weighed heavy on his shoulders, a rock chained to the throat of a drowning man. In a way, there’s something spiteful to it - laughing in the face (mask) of death, spitting at the feet of a leviathan, stubbornly clinging to his survival the way all life does - but in another, a sense of bitter resignation. What’s left of me does not belong in Serkonos,because those memories were pure, untarnished fragments of a life before the rust of time sullied his hands into instruments of ruin.

The contract is impassive and concise, its target little more than a small-scale merchant in a feud that will be forgotten come the rains of the fall, and Daud accepts it for this reason alone.

The crook of harbor smells of rot and stagnant water, and while the plague has lessened it’s chokehold on the city, elements of death linger in every corner (the soft edges of rotting corpses, piles of debris and moulding wood). The men who work the shoreline are largely ambivalent, moving crates and rope-tied burlap sacks back and forth between the vessel that sits at port.

He hasn’t seen the likes of a ship in this caliber since the mess with Stride’s engine coil. 

The lacquered wood beneath his boots is noiseless and noticeably firm (Dunwall, Daud thinks sometimes, is more rotting wood than city); the shipmaster’s office, quartered in the lower deck of the vessel, is refined but not gaudy. There are papers and maps scattered across desks detailing all manner of things, shipments and imports and losses and gains. Meticulously detailed, each and every one.

It’s the sound of footsteps that stirs his attention. The ones he would know anywhere.

"I had a hunch," Daud says so very carefully in his familiar gravel tone, a gloved hand spread across a rolled out map almost casually. It’s the last place he expected to see her again, and the burden of betrayal and something heavy sits thick and uncomfortable in his throat.

[twiceapariah]

This is not the first time she’s seen crimson. Sometimes it’s in her dreams, accompanied by the cackle of a witch and the hum of a music box – but sometimes it haunts her in the waking hours; a bloodied face in the crowd or a flash of a coat. This time, it’s just as fleeting – a figure descending into her quarters. But something tells her this is more than just a trick of the mind.

A pit opens up in her stomach, as empty as the Void itself.

Billie excuses herself from her current conversation, making small talk with a local dock worker in order to appear more amiable to the general public. The man nods without question and returns to his duties, not knowing the magnitude of the situation. “Oh, yes, the man I betrayed and tried to kill is on my ship right now and I need to go say hello,” would probably not work as a decent explanation.

She slowly ducks into her office, heart beating so loud she could have sworn it was going to beat right out of her chest. It doesn’t take a natural philosopher to figure out why he’s here. He’s a killer. He’s just doing his job. However, that does not make it any easier to swallow. She bites her tongue watching as he observes the room. Deep inside, she wonders if he’s impressed – and even deeper so, she hopes he is.

He had spared her once; though his reasoning was beyond her. She had betrayed him and furthermore attempted to kill him. She had left her comrades for dead and walked away more or less unscathed. That was long ago, when she was still his second in command – his scout, his shadow. Billie doubted he would have the same mercy for her now that she was nothing more than another name on a list.

“What gave it away?” she inquires, trying her best to steady her tone. The last thing she needs is for him to sense her fear, though there is a high chance he is already well aware of it. She laughs mirthlessly. “I hope it was my handwriting.”

[frommemetoyou]

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[twiceapariah]

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[twiceapariah]

{ bye } 

[pepsiprophecy]

okay let me explain this real quick

so my brother, a friend and i went to hamburg today and we were talking about this corvo and baby emily doodle and squishing baby faces. and i was like ‘yeah, i kinda drew billie with a baby’ and my brother cut my sentence asking ‘daud’s baby?’ and i aww’d so bad at this. and then there was this image floating around of daud grumping around with his baby on this things were you carry them on your chest? and then we were like ‘two assassins and a baby’ ‘dude that sounds like a sitcom’ and just imagine them being so horrible but kinda cute parents…

[pepsiprophecy]

banshee screech

[pepsiprophecy]

i haven’t drawn the whaler family in a while uwu

[whalerii-deactivated20160406]

    “If I ask for your real name, will you tell me then?”

          but he had a strong feeling that she would refuse to give that particular piece of information away. This was Billie he was talking about. She was very reticent about herself, as he was, though Billie probably knew more about him now that he liked her to.

                  “It couldn’t be too bad.” and with many thanks to Billie, the mystery of her real name will be one that Thomas cannot decipher. Perfect—another thing to be depressed about. He disliked not knowing things.

    “To be quite frank I didn’t think I’d see you so soon.” it’s been a few months, but he was expecting to never see Billie again. What a small world.

[twiceapariah]

"Of course not. My real name is horrendous and that is all I'm willing to say," she said simply, almost laughing at the idea. "Also I'm led to believe that if I tell you my real name, I'll never hear the end of it."

"Maybe one day, though," Billie finally added quickly. 

No one knew her real name - not even Daud. There was no way that she would tell Thomas. Though, she supposed things were different now. In reality, she was technically under his employ. Life after the Whalers was a strange thing indeed. 

Her eyes flickered to him again, for a moment.

"I could say the same for you. To be honest, I didn't expect to be back in Dunwall... Well, ever, really. But there are only so many cities full of nobles looking for protection," she admitted. 

Billie chuckled.

"Now I'm beginning to believe you didn't miss me," she teased, feigning hurt. 

[wanderedtowonderland]

The saddest thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies.

Anonymous  (via jdvlla)

[twiceapariah]

|| Billie Lurk & Lizzy Stride ► Welcome to the Jungle ||

[piranhaprincess-deactivated2015]

Her own grin sticks. “Really? It looked like it for a while, there. I was getting worried.” 

[twiceapariah]

Billie's hand flies to her heart as she looks at the woman with a fake shocked expression.

"Ugh, you wound me, truly," Billie says, feigning hurt. "Being a Whaler isn't all fun and games but I never found it to be a boot camp either."

She thinks for a moment.

"Well, maybe that's just me..." 

[princessstabbity]

[twiceapariah]

MOST USEFUL WEAPON IN YOUR INVENTORY? MOST FAVORITE?

I can't say, really. I'd probably say that a sword is the most useful and also my favourite - boring I know. There's nothing quite like stabbing someone in the back with a sword. Gratifying? Maybe.