A little rant as I sip my tea. Maybe it's because I'm sick, maybe it's because I'm just tired of peoples BS or maybe it's just because I'm crabby that I'm up at 5am and haven't had any coffee. I usually don't go on personal tirades and maybe I'll delete this but I feel the need to blow off some steam and say my two cents just once for everyone. Kind of just tired of everyone's skewed perception of entitlement when it comes to love and relationships. Particularly when talking to me about mine. People say to me " you could have anyone you want" well you could not be more WRONG... My biggest issue with this remark is that to say you can "have" someone is a ridiculous idea. Love is a two way street. Even if you find that special someone, that diamond in the rough that makes your heart skip a beat and feel at peace all at once... You cannot MAKE them love you, and you can not HAVE them. We are separate entities with two hearts and two minds . Sometimes we just so happen to get lucky and those things are on the same plane and we fall in love. People are not defined by their relationships. Relationships are like the icing on the cake, without the cake there first there's no desert. Relationships wether friendship, physical, romantic should be a positive asset to your life, not your entire life. Two if this remark refers to physical "having" well I just find that degrading. People are not belongings like toys to be played with. To have infers that the thing you refer to is just that, a thing. And not a human being who is willingly opening them self up to you. I also hear the commentary " you deserve so much better" well.... Who is playing god here to decide what I do and don't deserve? What says that I'm entitled to be treated like a queen? And who says that I even want that? I don't want someone pining and groveling over me, I want someone who compliments me as a whole and is their own self sufficient unit who happens to choose to spend their time with me and I with them. Treating someone well is one thing our loved ones are always treated with a level of respect. But treating someone like a god or goddess of some sort is an archaic idea. I'm not saying I deserve to be treated like shit or anything. But I am aware that we are all human, we all work on different timelines, we all fuck up, we all have bad days, we all say things we don't mean, forget to call, get busy, forget a date, do the wrong thing. All we can do is our best, writing someone off or giving them the benefit of the doubt does not mean that I am short changing myself... It means I am a patient and understanding human being. On paper things may look one way, but you can't reduce people down to pen and ink like that, it doesn't work that way. Lastly, it's MY love life. Which means it's none of your business. I appreciate people's concern (however misdirected ) but when it comes down to it I will make my own decisions, my own mistakes, come to my own conclusions . Most of you really don't know me well enough to comment on anything at all in my life so I'd appreciate a little privacy aka butt the fuck out. Not really sure why anyone outside of a situation feels entitled to an opinion of it. It's really no ones business who I am dating, seeing, fucking, or have feelings for. I know how I feel and what is going on with me and my heart and my mind. I'm fine. I never lie to my lovers, I am an open book both emotionally and sexually, I don't play games. My conscience is clear on any current or past matters. I am more than content being by myself until the time/person is right. I haven't been someone's " girlfriend" in 5 years and I have only had two serious relationships, both which lasted years. I don't waste my time in dead end paths and never have. Yes, I have been used, yes I have cared for people and been hurt. But that is just part of being a human, it sucks, but because of all of that my heart and who I am as a person has grown immensely. Life is what you make it , you can roll with the punches or let it beat you down.