Twirlsie

No one I know has found this account, this is my sanctuary….

[twirlsie]

What if I’m sad longer than anyone is actually willing to wait for me?

I have absolutely nothing left in me to be there for others. I can’t be someone’s support system or rock. I’ve never felt so selfish just so I can stop myself from completely crumbling at any moment.

I’m not sad in a cute fun way where I can channel it into something, I’m just an empty shell.

[twirlsie]

Moral excellence comes about as a result of habit. We become just by doing just acts, temperate by doing temperate acts, brace by doing brave acts.

Aristotle

[twirlsie]

I have no problem helping others. But understand I am not made of money and I am not at your disposal or your beck and call. Don’t take advantage of my kindness, otherwise I won’t extend it to you anymore.

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A year ago today I would have never thought that I would be where I am right now. I have a job I love, I graduated with my bachelors degree, my best friend is home, and I have an amazing boyfriend.

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When three of your closest friends are minutes away from your house doing a wine and paint night, something you enjoy doing, and you didn’t receive an invite. You see their posts on social media and then one of them looses her phone so they call you because you have access to her location and that’s how you find out they are in your town minutes away from you. This is what heartbroken feels like. I’ve been sitting at home all night with nothing to do, and they didn’t invite me.

[twirlsie]

Those that know, do. Those that understand, teach.

Aristotle

[twirlsie]

8 tattoos and a couple piercings and I do still want more of both, I relate too much to this 😂💀

[twirlsie]

I’m 22 and this is my first time flying alone, made it through security fine, will be boarding in 20 minutes or so, and the anxiety is setting in. My whole body has been shaking for the last 4 minutes. Adulting is fun 🙃

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The guy that I have been kind of talking to for the last two months just told me this story from his weekend. And idk why he told me the story, like unless he is trying to hint to me that me and him are a thing...... my heart is racing....

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO THINK

He was hanging with the guys this weekend and he hadn’t seen one of them in a while and so the guy had asked them if they were seeing anyone. And one of the other guys started talking and then the next morning his friend was like why didn’t you say anything?

Like does that mean that there was something for you to talk about? Like are we a thing now????

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If you were an asshole to me in high school don’t think that you can message me now, 5 years later. I will be polite because I’m a nice person and I understand people can change. But do not... DO NOT continue talking to me about topics that are political and controversial when I told you I don’t like talking about them with people because someone always walks away upset. Continuing is only making me more uncomfortable. Also DONT ask me to promote you as a person when I don’t agree with your political views and DONT ask me to promote your children’s book you wrote, I don’t even know what it is about. NO I won’t market for you, NO I won’t give you free marketing advice, I got my degree in this to get paid for my work, NO I won’t network you and talk about you to my friends or family. I DO NOT enjoy talking to you in the first place. NO I won’t read or share your Facebook posts when I know I won’t agree with them or walk away happy after reading them. NO NO NO! GO AWAY!!

[twirlsie]

Am I craving Asiago bread? Yes

Do I have any? No

Did I just order a loaf from Panera for delivery as well as get a late lunch? Yes

Welcome to my ted talk on period cravings

[twirlsie]

Courage is the first of human qualities because it is the quality which guarantees the others.

Aristotle

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“The world is a book, and those who do not travel read only one page.” — Saint Augustine

[twirlsie]

So I just found out that my birth control, which I started taking about 3 years ago, could cause nausea and headaches/migraines.

The last couple years I have had a hypersensitivity to nausea and chronic migraines that are crippling and leave me in bed all day. I have gone to doctors about these and they don’t have answers and just prescribe medications to treat the symptoms.

Not once did any doctor mention to me that my birth control could be causing them. I never had these issues before I started taking birth control, only after. At no time did any of the doctors I have seen mention these potential side affects.

I’m big mad.

I’m done taking birth control.

I have gained weight since taking it.

I have crippling migraines.

I have a hyper sensitivity to nausea.

It can decrease your fertility in the future.

And the potential of cancer because of the hormones.

It’s not worth it taking this pill everyday. I’m done.

[twirlsie]

MOOD

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I got the last shot (in a series of 3) for the HPV vaccine today. Made a slight comment to my father about having gotten a shot, and he asked why did I need a shot and then made a negative comment about vaccinations in general. I looked him dead in the face and said that I got the HPV vaccination because I’d rather not get cervial cancer and die.

But now I at least know where my father stands with his opinion of vaccinations, not that I ever cared about his stance.

[twirlsie]

The roots of education are bitter, but the fruit is sweet.

Aristotle