TW: GROOMING, CENSORED NSFW MATERIAL, MANIPULATION, MENTIONS OF 🍇
Before you read, do NOT go and harass these people. This is an explanation/response to them and I don’t want any of the individuals mentioned to be harmed in any way.
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I wanted to finally clear the air of all the things that happened in 2023 back. The user @projectanimations made an exposal on me, where I recently come to find there is a lot left out that they were not given. This post will provide those forgotten with screenshot evidence if possible.
The last time I tried to make a post about it, it was messy and mostly written by my school psychologist. I wasn’t mentally prepared at the time because a lot of things were happening too fast, plus I felt extremely uncomfortable to bring up the serious things, but now I grew a spine to compiled proper evidences to put this drama to rest.
I would also like to clarify that this was not written with ChatGPT. It’s worth mentioning as my wordings are intentionally/unintentionally repeated multiple times.
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Birth years of the individuals involved to match with the times
TMNTlover863 (Rainbow) - January 23, 2003
SheHadSeenEverything (Henry) - November 5, 2005
wtfJames05 (James] [OP] - June 27, 2005
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How Henry and I met TMNTlover863 - 2020
Back in during covid in May of 2020, I stumbled on a fanfic written by a user called TMNTlover863 on the website Wattpad. Because the fanfic was based around the characters James and Edward from TTTE, I was hyped to read it. Though, this fanfic had a lot of graphic smut written in it, but I didn’t think anything wrong with this at the time.
The fanfic was first published around March in 2020, making TMNTlover863 17 at the time it started.
Upon reading this fanfic, I discovered a user @/Shehadseeneverything who later became a close friend and would become involved in this. I gotten closer to Henry through the DMs and we later took it further on the platform Discord in late January 2021.
In February 2021, Henry came up with a suggestion to add TMNTlover863 to our group because she was the one that brought Henry and I together. I agreed, and we did just that. But we didn’t think the worst of it since we were both underage and severely immature.
Henry can confirm this with screenshot evidence since Tumblr posts only limit 10 photos.
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Evidence 1 - Emotional exploitation/abuse - 2020
Before we got close to TMNTlover863, Henry was going through a very emotional time in real life and reached out to her Wattpad followers to make her birthday fanfics for her birthday. One of the users who chipped in was TMNTlover863, from what Henry told me, TMNTlover863 asked what Henry wanted, and chose to write heated/smut material for her 15th birthday.
I do not have a screenshot for what she wanted specifically as Henry deleted all her old Wattpad announcements around three years ago. Take this however you want. I do however have screenshots of the authors notes on the fanfics.
I’ve come to find that this TMNTlover863 was 17 making these during November in 2020. Even though the legal age in her country is 16, 17 would still be considered a minor. And more to the issue is that Henry just turned 15 when this fanfic was published for her.
Screenshots of Henry confirming she was a minor when this happened.
The fanfic is still up and posted to this day, but I won’t provide screenshots of what was written specifically as again at the time, TMNTlover863 was a minor. Though, I know it will be deleted soon after this goes up, but it’s for the better.
I will also state here that TMNTlover863 (18-19) did in fact know we were minors when we brought her to another platform as confirmed in these screenshots.
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Evidence 1/2 - NSFW material/grooming - 2021-2022
Henry and I have gotten closer to TMNTlover863 on Discord for some time now. And because she wrote explicit material in her fanfic that I really liked, it gave me the mindset to produce NSFW of the two characters involved. I kept the NSFW to myself for some time, but I started showing them off to Henry and TMNTlover863.
While searching through the old chats, I came across messages during this time, TMNTlover863 was 18 while I was 16. As early as 2021 I didn’t want to show TMNTlover863 my NSFW material. I don’t remember if I was uncomfortable or not, so take it how you want.
After this incident, TMNTlover863 had encouraged me to produce/keep producing explicit drawings. At the time I used to make this content, I saw it as something funny and a way to improve my anatomy skills. But the more I showed these to TMNTlover863, her comments were strange and started to really make me feel uncomfortable.
I even had a brief period where I started to feel disgusted at myself for making this kind of content, but TMNTlover863 told me the legal age where they lived was 16 and that there was nothing wrong with it. I never took this as a red flag and just produced more of the content.
Though I started showing her these kinds of drawings less and less and even censored them. But when I did that, she would get upset and beg and complain that I always showed her and she wanted to see them uncensored. I talked with Henry in the DMs expressing how I felt about this and then to TMNTlover863 to tell her it makes me uncomfortable. But she took it like an insult and set her status to offline to manipulate me to believe I made her upset by not giving her the uncensored version.
I will also state that we did voice call a lot and she would beg me on the call to see it uncensored, and threatened to go off if I refused to show her. I would have to change the topic away from it or say I can show her when I felt comfortable. I don’t have physical evidence to back this, do with this information what you will.
I… Unfortunately caved in later on and showed her this drawing, and I really regret it because I found out she secretly downloaded these without me knowing.
When I told her to delete my smut drawings, she refused, and I don’t know if she still has them saved to this day. But I pray they were deleted because I was underage when I made those and I do not want them being posted online.
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Evidence 1/3 - Sexual roleplay - Late 2021-2022
Henry and I feel extremely uncomfortable to mention this because we actively participated in this when we were minors and thought it was funny, but it needs to be shared.
Henry and I have done roleplays with TMNTlover863. It went from harmless fun with characters from Spongebob, to TTTE. The mood then shifted to sexual roleplay, but it involved us doing things to each other. It started when TMNTlover863 was 18 when this kind of roleplay was brought up and kept going up until she was 19.
I will not provide more screenshots because the conversations are extremely graphic and I feel sick reading them back. Especially given how Henry and were still 15 when they started and kept going when we were 16.
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Evidence 1/4 - The underage minor - Early 2022
In February 2022, TMNTlover863 who was now 19, was approached online by an individual who will be called “B” to keep their real name private. TMNTlover863 said they met on the game Minecraft, but it later changed that they met on Amino Apps.
B and TMNTlover863 talked on Discord DMs for less than three days, when B started making comments that had hints they wanted a relationship with her. She reciprocated that she wanted it to stay friendly, but as the weeks progressed, she started to develop feelings for them back.
This is when I discovered that in those three days TMNTlover863 told me she did voice call with B, where they shared photos of their faces, and TMNTlover863 also told B her real name. I didn’t think much of this during the time, until she showed the romantic implied comments.
See screenshot below.
Later on when TMNTlover863 was getting real close to B, I wanted to do a voice call with TMNTlover863. I didn’t say much on the call, but I heard TMNTlover863 giggling and laughing. When I asked her what she was laughing at, she responded saying that it was what B was sending to her. I started to feel really uncomfortable, so I decided to question her about it, and I quote:
James - “You know… B is 17 and you’re 19.
TMNTlover863 - “What do you mean by that, James?”
James - “It’s just that they’re a minor and you’re an adult, and you have feelings for them. So it feels almost ped0philic?”
TMNTlover863 - “16 is the legal age in the UK, James!”
James - “Not where they’re from!”
I also started thinking this could have been a sting operation. I brought up videos I started watching at the time that involved predators on Discord who were catfished by fake underage people, and got arrested by the cops, but TMNTlover863 was still arguing with me and ended the call. She then went into the group chat and told Henry that I directly called her the “ped0phile” when I never stated she was at all, but the conversations between her and B were giving off the vibes of it.
Way after in June 2022, I found out B wasn’t entirely honest about their age. While looking through their now deactivated or deleted..? Instagram account, they just turned 17 years old. I never told TMNTlover863 about this because we weren’t on good terms, but I don’t think it would’ve mattered to her given she stated that 16 was the legal age where she lived.
TMNTlover863 only stopped talking to B when I lied saying they “manipulated” her, because she wasn’t listening to me when I said to block them. Though, I found out later on that he reached out to her on Instagram DMs where TMNTlover863 kept it secret until B moved on.
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Evidence 2 - Fake accounts - 2022
All fake accounts will be said with word of mouth because I don’t have screenshots to confirm they existed as they were deactivated, or what happened in them. Take this information however you want.
After finding out TMNTlover863 grew too close to a minor, this is where my trust towards her changed. I decided to make a fake account with the help of Henry to test her so she didn’t commit the same mistakes she did with B.
The fake person we created was 19, and at the time I thought it was a way to test if she would be open to strangers again. Though, the cover was blown because of a fallout between her and me about the fact she didn’t take accountability for trying to get with B. She became so upset that the account was fake and had her parents scold me because of this. She also kept the minor a secret from them which didn’t sit right with me during the time.
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Evidence 2/2 - Second fake account - June 2022
The second account was made just to tease. It wasn’t supposed to have any harm towards TMNTlover863. I decided to pretend to be a 19 year old fangirl about a ship in TTTE. We left comments on a lot of fanfics, including TMNTlover863’s. This is when we wanted to be closer to her through the account by asking her to add us on Discord. We went back and forth sharing images from the show and fanarts.
But as she got closer to this account, she started venting about me and the arguments we got into. This is when we touched on the art I produced and sent some drawings that I made at the time. I even touched into very dangerous territory by asking if I produced NSFW. TMNTlover863 admitted that I did, but wouldn’t show it because the fangirl account is a stranger. Though, after constant begging, TMNTlover863 stated she was still angry with me about the arguments and showed 4 NSFW drawings that she had saved.
I only provided one screenshot because I feel uncomfortable to show the others. But they were all sent in the same hour. I will also state that the time on the Discord account is an hour behind because of the location that was set in a different state.
She deleted the drawings a few seconds after they were shown, but at this point, I was severely disgusted at her. Henry and I decided to mess with her saying the fangirl downloaded the drawings and uploaded them to a R34 site. TMNTlover863 became scared at this and went to an individual that was involved to vent that she showed smut made by a minor to a stranger and the drawings were “uploaded” to a R34 site.
Henry and I were scared for her and we deemed that we took it too far. We admitted to being behind the account, and she regretted ever sending the drawings.
This account on itself was a mistake to create, and we all agreed to leave it behind us.
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Evidence 3 - Plagiarism - 2020-2022
My friend and I befriended TMNTlover863 through a fanfic that was written on Wattpad in 2020. Stating it again, at the time it was written, TMNTlover863 was 17. The book contained a lot of graphic smut and was based around characters from TTTE. Henry and I were 14 at the time we discovered this fanfic. We were both immature minors and didn’t know any better about how we shouldn’t be viewing explicit content online.
But later on, Henry and I were rereading TMNTlover863’s fanfic and we found out that the book was plagiarized from an existing book on the platforms FanFiction.net and AO3 called: “A life in Sodor” by MissSkulduggeryPleassant. It was published on both sites in 2015-2016.
We cut contact with her after this, but she begged another individual that was involved, who I will not name, to make a group chat to get us back together. After we found out about the stolen writing, Henry and I were pressured to say sorry to TMNTlover863 for kicking her out of the group for the plagiarism and being behind the fake accounts.
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The slurs - 2022-early 2023
During the time we found out about the stolen writing, we made public announcements on Wattpad about TMNTlover863’s books being plagiarized. When she found about this, she decided to write an exposel about us. Though, both hers, Henry, and mine’s documents were poorly put together and just had fingers pointing at one another. This gone one for weeks to the point our mental healths took a toll, so we deleted the exposals and moved on.
But I was still angry at TMNTlover863, from her trying to be with a minor, to sharing my NSFW material, to the stolen writing. I decided to make a fake account to keep an eye on her because I found out she was making posts about Henry and I when we agreed to stop talking about each other, and had people spy through our accounts for her. Henry didn’t know about this account I created at all.
This is when I asked her to go back to Discord where I don’t remember what I said, but TMNTlover863’s response didn’t satisfy me. I called her the R-slur, I told her a bomb threat, I told her to die, told her to get 🍇ed. After everything she did to my friend and I, I wasn’t having any of it.
After this, we blocked each other and I never thought the things I said would have consequences. I chose to forget about it and months later I deleted the messages saying these words.
Even though TMNTlover863 did harmful things herself, the slurs and disgusting things I said were uncalled for. She may never forgive me, but I’m deeply sorry for this. This isn’t only for the public, but towards her. I considered her a friend at one point and did bad things to hurt her in some way.
I know a lot would say a victim should never forgive those who gr00med them, but the words I said did not need to be said, and people were hurt by them.
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Evidence 5-6 - Miscellaneous
The ex - Late 2022-2023
This is all said with word of mouth as well since most of it happened in a voice call, and I don’t have access to the DMs where some was stated. This will also all be said from my perspective. I do not think they will put their side of the story in as they moved on, but please do NOT go and harass them to respond.
I don’t want to talk much about this individual because I know they don’t want to be involved in any drama and they shouldn’t be. But I will give some insight since they were brought up.
In November of 2022 if I remember correctly..? I met this individual we’ll call S in a Discord server. S DMed me asking to see some of my artworks, and we kicked it off from there. I found out they were 16 at the time and I was 17. We started doing voice calls a lot to help each other with our art, and I even got introduced to some of their friends.
It escalated further into late January, after S turned 17 in December, one of their friends questioned them if we were dating. It was messy because we didn’t think what we had was dating at all, but because we were now the same age, we thought it was a good idea to take it further. Though, everything stayed the same, we just talked more than usual, called each other nicknames, and voice called everyday.
But come sometime in March, S wanted to do a voice call to talk about something important. This is when they say to me that I never cared about them. I questioned this because I always reached out to them to do voice calls when they were available, but they brought up February 5th. On this day, I made a drawing with characters from TTTE. I remember vividly I was on voice call while drawing this and it didn’t get finished until around 5-6 AM. Following this, because Valentine’s Day was coming up, they said I didn’t have anything planned for us which wasn’t true. This is where the rumor then spiked.
Fetishization. It is what they called my art that involved the two male characters from TTTE. This wasn’t brought up just because, it was brought up because I was “straight”. I never publicly mentioned my sexuality/preferences at the time as I was still questioning myself. But they assumed I was straight and that this made them uncomfortable. It mentally messed me up in the long run because me and a lot of people never saw it as such. I didn’t have much to say to this on the call and it was ended.
This is when an individual that S grew close to DMed me with a screenshot of the definition of fetishization, and it set me off. I made a poorly done public statement saying I didn’t have a sexuality anymore, that I was being accused of fetishization, and I said I didn’t want to show support to the LGBT+ community anymore due to the supposed fetishization. This alone was a terrible way to put it because I was scared of people coming after me for that rumor. I didn’t want to be accused of bringing harm to the community unintentionally, but I didn’t properly state the rumor, rather went against the community as a whole.
I’m deeply sorry to those I hurt during that time because of this post. It was not my intent to harm others, and was stated to protect myself from being brought down. I really should have considered other people rather than my own ego.
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The server incident- Early 2023
Before the ex incident happened, I was posting art on Tumblr and minding my own business. When February 5th, 2023 came around, I uploaded a drawing of two characters from TTTE.
The user @/Shelli-gator took notice of this and because she loved the ship, she reblogged it and praised it. I felt happy to be getting this kind of praise by her so I followed her and she followed back. We talked about the ship in the Tumblr DMs from what I remember.
Though, I do not remember if I discovered @/Shelli-gator first or they did, so take the previous part with a grain of salt.
This is when I scrolled through her blog to notice the Discord server that she had linked. Because I was being praised by most of the artists, I thought it wouldn’t hurt to join a community to feel more appreciated. Though when I joined, I read the server rules and it said you had to be 18 while I was 17. I got scared and planned on leaving, but some people in there were greeting me and excited that I joined the server. I became upset because if I just left, I would make them feel upset, so I stayed for a while. I mentioned my age in one of the channels and I was confronted by Shelli that I couldn’t be in the server because I wasn’t 18. I was removed and I don’t know why I got upset over this when I should’ve known the consequence.
But nonetheless, this incident was a shitty take on my part. I should have been more mature about it, but I let the content speak louder.
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Manipulation - 2021-2023
This part is not to garner any sympathy whatsoever, this is to clarify what happened during the times.
This is worth mentioning because people were hurt by my actions. Throughout this period, I suffered depression and never had a proper support system for it. I would constantly get upset and compare myself to others. It even went to the point I would over share these to people online as a way to cope. I never thought it would have detrimental effects on anyone as I only considered myself. I usually acted on impulse and overshared and trauma dumped too often.
These people shared their discomfort over these comments and would cut contact/not want to be seen as a personal therapist. It never occurred to me that I overshared too much, but I avoided bringing it up to anymore people after it.
But after the incident in 2023 when I got out of the mental hospital, I kept a promise I would never vent to people about my SH or serious intentions. I realized then the harm I was doing and should have stopped sooner.
I’m sorry to those who were hurt and put in a bad mental state because of this, I never considered your wellbeing and prioritized mine over yours.
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Conclusion
Even though it’s been three years since the first exposal, the situation was left unsolved and one-sided. I wanted to finally address everything in a proper way after years. I just hope this cleared it up because Henry and I want to put this situation to rest.
It has been a horrid time for everyone involved. I want to state again, I’m sorry to those I have hurt in the past. My actions were disgusting and uncalled for. I looked back and realized my mistakes and how my actions affected people. I don’t want to see these as rocks in the path, but for what they are. I should have considered others feelings and the things I said that hurt them. I’ve taken accountability in private when I should’ve mentioned it publicly.
If there is anything I have forgotten to clarify or mention, please DM me and I will edit it into the post.
Thank you all for taking the time to read this document if you got this far. And I’m sorry again this didn’t come out sooner.
