Sometimes a Slick Potion

Streams of consciousness left out to gather dust.

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Never reinvent yourself To fit into someone else’s World, Reinvent the world So that it fits you.

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She didn’t even remember which country we were in

What do you do when you feel the ground shift beneath your feet?  What if you can’t handle the weight of the world?  How are you supposed to live with purpose when you are staring head-on into the face of death?  What are you supposed to do when the ones you love begin to grow distant?  How many sleepless nights will be filled with thoughts of pending death and last breaths?  Are you supposed to walk differently once your chest swells with the realization that that was then and this is now? What is life like on the other side of the line?    How can you squeeze life into the moment when there are so many more yesterday’s and tomorrows?  How do you make it easier to breathe?

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Have you ever wanted to die? The feeling comes with a special unfolding of peace,  Of serenity; Like the distant calling of roaring ocean tides, The silence beckons like an itch. Abandoning all attachment  To the expectations of Society and succumbing  Fully to the desire lifts a burden you never knew was there. Playing freely with the idea, Toying gently with its sharp, protruding edges Hiding in your mind... Is this what peace feels like?

3.7.2016 Entry

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Dead people are laughing in my head She’s having an easter egg hunt in her lungs And telling twenty year-old secrets Is this what nightmares feel like?

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The less sleep I get The more deluded I become The clearer things become.

The less sleep I get The more I see that I am  Both the victim and the villain, Equally held at gunpoint as I am Pulling the trigger.

Always asking, Why?

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I wish your camera could Pick up on the slight illuminations, As my lens can, In these dark rooms we share. Then, maybe then, We will see eye-to-eye.

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"SHH!"

The anger in the voice Of the world is too much To bear right now. The screams of past thought's Present events tumbling Into tomorrow's maybe is Making the knot in my stomach More than I can bear. Please, Just make it quiet again

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There are lurches In the Universe And quakes in the Fabric of reality That make me feel Like we’re being watched.

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Inspirational Quotes From My Invisible Heroes:

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She is a good listener, But for the wrong reasons. Her thoughts are calculated, Carefully weighing each pause and Annunciation. Every word spoken to her is As important as the last, And no gesture goes unnoticed. Without intention, and perhaps without Even knowing still, She analyzes and catalogues everyone's Weaknesses, And that is how she loves.

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Upon Saying Goodbye

This is not a sad moment. This is you getting a fresh start, A chance to get away from All of the dark shadows in your mind. Maybe getting rid of the love seat And downsizing on the amount of Mugs you can fill and empty of black coffee Before having to do dishes in water slightly too cold Will give you the chance to see From behind the smoke That the stars really do come out at night. That the earth rotates, an eternally falling Ball of life, That you can turn around and run, an eternally falling Body of life.

This is not a sad moment. This is you becoming the person You were always meant to be.

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I saw a future

Our future

And all I end up doing is  Breaking your heart.

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It’s Okay to Be Sad

I felt tiny near The river, but through The eyes of the sky, I Saw the pain and Suffering of all Diminishing As I grew smaller.

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Petal-pulling

My head hurts From trying to Understand your Heart.

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I don’t

Always do it 

Right the first time,

But that’s

Okay,

I don’t have to.

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I saw a man that I thought was you So I crossed the street to say hello I almost got hit by a bicyclist That I thought was you And then I Realized That You aren't here Anymore.

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