found out through some trial and error that tumblr wonโt let me call myself a whore for soobin in the tags or else the post wonโt show up in them ๐
ok let me share some unedited thoughts from my notes app before i get to writing
yuuup mostly hard hours
โน bsf to lovers! perv! soobin. .. i just know soobin is a freak. and he'd be so embarrassed about it. but he cant help it.ย and seeing his reactions only gets u more excited. .. telling him about all the thoughts u had about him before he knew about ur feelings. that u used to lie in ur bed at night, thinking ab sucking his dick, wanting so badly to feel him fill u up. .. and soobin literally dying as u tell him this lmao. and then finally, literally drooling as u sink down on him for the first time (fuck)
โน bruhhh i just want beomgyu to bend me over and feel the soft skin of his hips slamming against me as he grabs my ass to go even deeper,, , heโs so hot i want him to ruin me
โน no one has ever made you orgasm. yeonjun can't have that. (bffs to lovers?)
โน lying next to soobin in bed. him in a white tee, his jet black hair still slightly wet from his shower and sticking to his forehead. his cheeks tinted a pretty rosy pink. and that beautiful pearly smile, lighting up his whole face. crinkling his nose and throwing his head back against the covers as he lets laughter take over his body. your head turned to the side, grinning up at him in adoration (fuck i would fall in love with him fr)
โน gamer gyu on his computer with his headset on. u playing on ur DS n sulking bc hes not paying u any attention. bored, u throw the DS to the side, reaching out for him. bj? riding? (this is so cliche)
โน bruh i had such an intense dream where soobin was eating me out and it was so good i was almost crying omg n he looked so pretty between my legs and i was tugging at his pretty black hair and he was just so into it an it felt so real i cant do this๐
โผ warning: loss of virginity, dry humping, unprotected sex, size kink, bulge kink, breeding kink, overstimulation, dacryphilia, creampie
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โwhat? what is it?โ kai laughed, a big grin on his face as his eyes darted from side to side in a joking manner.
you were shamelessly admiring the long legs and broad shoulders of your boyfriend laying on his stomach in front of you, a plushie tucked under his chin as he tirelessly played cookie run, until he had caught you staring.
โhm? nothingโ you bluffed, smirking as you heard the click of him locking his phone.
kai threw the plush to the edge of the bed, giggling as he crawled closer to you, before starting to press feathery kisses to your lips.
it would always start like this. cute and completely innocent.
but as your fingers tangled themselves in his hair, and he let out a sigh, you both knew that this was one of those times where simply kissing just wasnโt enough.
needing to feel more of you, his hands slipped under the hem of your shirt, holding your waist. you tried to pull him even closer by wrapping your legs around him, but he flipped you over, making you straddle his lap. brushing the hair out of your face, you attempted to steady yourself by placing your hands on his chest, surprised at how he all of a sudden had tossed you around with basically no effort.
however, kai didnโt waste a second, quickly reconnecting your lips and deepened the kiss, swiping his tongue against yours and drawing whimpers from you that drove him absolutely crazy.
he had to pull away for a moment to catch his breath, and upon seeing your otherwise sparkly, innocent eyes looking up at him, now darkened and glazed over in pleasure, he couldnโt help but imagine what it would be like to finally have you under him, letting him do all the things he would think about at night when he was alone in the quiet of his room.
and as always, you could tell he was holding back.
whenever you were making out, kai would keep enough distance between the two of you to make sure you wouldnโt feel his growing boner.
as if it wasnโt obvious. he couldnโt hide it no matter how hard he tried. his unawareness was actually kind of cute.
but you were tired of waiting. you wanted him so bad. and his erection occasionally nudging your thigh didnโt make it any easier.
you thought you had given him enough hints to show him that you were ready to go further, yet he would always stop things when they started to escalate, regretfully pulling away as his eyes fluttered open, his pretty lips swollen from all your kisses.
it was like he was waiting on you to make the first step.
and with the way he was kissing you, so eager and hot, pulling you closer by the back of your neck, you couldnโt take it any longer.
so, with your mind made up, you shuffled closer to him until you sat on the bulge in his jeans. both of you moaned at the contact, kai drawing away from your lips in shock, making you look up at him, anticipating his reaction.
kaiโs head was spinning, his pupils dilated with lust, staring at you in a way youโd never seen before.
even if it was something so minor, you two had never gone this far, and he just couldnโt believe you were actually sitting on his dick.
neither of you said anything, and you slowly started to experimentally move your hips over him, keeping eye contact. his hands shot down to hold your waist again, pulling you back into the kiss and moaning desperately into your mouth.
you smiled as you felt his hands travel from your waist to roam your body, faintly grazing over your tummy to grabbing your ass, helping you grind into him, all the while his tongue continued its dance with yours.
you were dizzy, feeling so good with having him all over you.
eventually, kai started rolling his hips up in time with yours, the increased friction making you wetter by the second. he let his delicate fingers run up the sides of your ribcage, towards your breasts and over your nipples, making you pull away with a small gasp at the stimulation.
โoh, s-sorry, iโm sorryโ he stuttered, immediately withdrawing himself.
โno! itโs okayโ you rushed to reassure him, timidly taking his hands in yours and putting them back on you. โi- i liked itโ you continued, taking a deep breath as you mustered up all your courage, cheeks growing warm as you looked down at your hands fiddling with his shirt. โplease, hyuka... i want you to touch me,โ you whispered, โi want you.โ
his eyes met yours, giving you a shy smile. he felt all warm and fuzzy inside at hearing that you needed him as bad as he needed you. still, he was so nervous. it would be both of your first times. the fear of not being good enough, of hurting you or making you feel like you had to do this for him was all making him worry.
โare you sure you want to? we donโt have to if youโre not ready, y/n, we could just-โ
โyes!โ you exclaimed a bit too eagerly, making you both burst out in laughter. kai felt more at ease at your excitement, laying down on his back and pulling you with him. you caressed his face in your hands, softly rubbing your thumb against his cheek before asking, โare you?โ
โam i what?โ
โare you sure you want to?โ
kai paused for a second, confused by your question. โare you kidding?โ he chuckled. you were worrying about him?
he flipped you over once more, making you yelp in surprise. you laughed at him, taking this as his answer, as he leaned down to capture your lips in a tender kiss. โyou donโt know how long iโve wanted thisโ he admitted, letting out a shaky breath. you stared into his eyes, almost tearing up, overwhelmed by all your emotions.
โi love youโ you said, kissing him again.
โi love you, too. so muchโ he sighed against your lips.
his fingers slipped back under the hem of your shirt, slightly tugging it before looking into your eyes, silently asking for permission. you gave him a small nod and he slowly pulled it over your head.
although kai had seen you in only your underwear before, this felt different, and you swallowed nervously, trying to calm your heartbeat. he gingerly placed his hands on your chest, awkwardly feeling your breasts through your bra.
โwait,โ you said, sitting up slightly to reach around and unhook the strap.
you slipped it off before unsurely laying back down, feeling vulnerable under his gaze.
kai soothingly ran his hands along the sides of your waist, taking in the sight of your half-naked body. he admired how small you looked underneath him. so pretty, all laid out and trusting yourself to him. it made his heart ache.
you were more beautiful than he couldโve ever imagined, and he hadnโt even seen all of you yet.
โiโm so luckyโ he whispered to himself, making you cover your face with your hands. he pulled them away, leaning down to kiss you while taking your breasts in his hands, kneading them and softly pinching your nipples between his fingers, making you moan quietly.
despite his bold actions, kai was blushing madly. the feeling of your naked skin was overwhelming, to say the least, and your sounds were sending blood rushing straight down to his dick. looking to relieve some of the tension, he began rolling his hips into you, the remaining fabric between you starting to frustrate the both of you.
you quickly decided to reach for his belt, fumbling with the buckle while he took the opportunity to take his shirt off. after you succeeded with the fastenings he stood up to get out of his boxers while you slipped your sweats off.
you were about to take off your panties as well until you were met with the sight of kai kneeling back on the bed, his cock standing impossibly hard against his stomach.
โfuck,โ you whined just from looking at him, โyouโre so big, hyuka.โ
you had no idea a dick could be that pretty. it made your mouth water.
even though he felt shy and exposed, kai chuckled faintly at seeing the effect he had on you, gaining confidence from it. shifting the attention to you, he ran his thumb over your clit, rubbing it through your soaked cotton panties. you bit your lip, excited to feel him touch you where you had always wanted him.
he hooked his fingers under the hem of your panties and you helped him pull them down your legs. your arousal glistened between your thighs as if asking him to slip inside, making him groan.
you closed your legs slightly, embarrassed from all the staring.
he was taking too long.
โpleaseโ you begged, taking his hand in yours and guiding it towards your heat.
kai got the idea, grabbing one of your thighs and spreading you open for him.
your heart was beating so fast. you couldnโt believe your sweet, pure boyfriend was about to eat you out. the same, precious hyuka who would insist on cuddling you together with his plushies, who loved grape juice and blushed if you so much as kissed his cheek in front of others, was now leaning down to finally taste you.
whiny moans and mumbles of his name filled the room as kai licked up your slit, rhythmically thrusting his tongue into you every so often. you threaded your fingers through his hair and gently tugged him closer, throwing your head back in bliss. he moaned into you, his breathing getting heavier as he started humping the bed, your mewls combined with the taste of you making him more and more impatient.
pulling his mouth away, his left thumb began rubbing circles on your clit while he wet his middle and ring finger. you had to be properly prepped and stretched out for him.
you groaned as he slipped his two fingers into you. they were much thicker and longer than yours, able to reach much farther than you were used to. yet despite the tight fit, he moved them with ease thanks to how wet you were, all because of him.
if his fingers felt this good, then you couldnโt wait for the real thing.
it didnโt take long before you felt your climax approaching. it was all too hot. the way kai couldnโt take his eyes off of you, staring at his fingers going in and out of your dripping hole, to how your face twisted in pleasure.
he watched as you switched between grabbing the sheets, his arms, and covering your mouth when your moans got too loud, not knowing what to do with yourself as he brought you closer and closer to the edge.
kai leaned down, taking one of your breasts in his mouth, sucking on it before switching to the other one.
โfuck, hyukaโ you whined even louder, grasping at his hair and bringing him up to meet your lips. you were completely out of it, lost in the feeling, drunk on him, and it was about to make him lose control. all he wanted was to be inside you, to see you like this as you fell apart on his cock instead.
his thumb started rubbing your clit while he added a third finger, continuing to thrust into you.
your walls clenched even tighter around him, the burning sensation in your stomach intensifying, and you reached down to push his hand away.
โwait, waitโ you panted, pulling away from his lips. kaiโs eyes widened slightly, immediately stopping his movements and carefully slipping his fingers out of you. you felt bad seeing his expression, not meaning to make him worry.
โshit, are you okay? did i hurt you?โ
he looked like he was about to cry.
โyes, no- iโm okay! it felt amazing, kaiโ you assured him, cupping his face in your hands. โitโs justโฆ i want the first time to beโฆ i- i want you insideโฆ togetherโ you blabbered, feeling your cheeks grow hot. it wasnโt easy telling your boyfriend you wanted him to absolutely wreck you and make you cum on his cock for the first time, but this would have to do for now.
kai chuckled, kissing your forehead. โokay.โ
he leaned back, running his hands down along your tummy, letting out a shaky breath.
you could tell he was nervous. you were too. all the nerves and the excitement were making your bodies tremble. you just wanted to make him feel good. to give him everything. to show him how much you loved him.
kai licked his lips, adjusting himself between your thighs, grabbing the back of them in his large hands, lifting them slightly upwards and pressing them against you.
he adored your thighs, and had always fantasised about what it would be like to be in between them this way. they were so soft and squishy. so easy for him to pry open. it was all making him go crazy. how they perfectly framed the warm and wet place he so desperately wanted to bury himself in. he couldnโt wait until he was squeezing them and feeling the smooth skin softly slap against his sides from the force of his hips rutting into you.
while these thoughts ran through your boyfriendโs head as he got comfortable, you took the time to admire his features. the pretty mole on his perfectly shaped nose. his blonde, almost white hair that only seemed to enhance his beauty, contrasting with his deep brown eyes, his eyes that were looking down at you with so much love.
he truly was an angel. so careful and gentle. so thoughtful, the way he had repeatedly asked if you were okay.
you ran your hands over his shoulders, feeling the soft skin under your fingers.
kai moved his knees closer to you so your thighs were resting over the top of his. he gripped the base of his cock, rubbing the tip up and down your slit, coating it in your juices.
โare you ready?โ he asked, his voice strained in pleasure. you whimpered, nodding โyesโ.
he finally sank into you, and you grabbed his biceps, gasping inaudibly. even with only the head inside, your eyes squeezed shut, wincing from the stretch.
โyou okay?โ kai couldnโt help but worry.
you opened your eyes, taking a deep breath. โyeah, just go slowly.โ
kai pulled out a bit before carefully pushing in further. you moaned, the small thrust stimulating your walls, causing more of your arousal to drip down his length, making it easier for him to slip inside. he was throbbing now, fighting the urge to just start pounding you already, but he knew he was too big for you to take him without properly building up to it.
he leaned down to kiss your neck, continuing to push into you, occasionally repeating the movement of slowly pulling out and pushing in again.
the pleasure started to overtake the pain. a little more than half of him was now inside you, and you felt full in a way youโd never felt before.
he stretched you so good, your walls clenching and starting to pulsate around him.
kai whimpered at the feeling, and you gently pulled him away from your neck. his elbows were on either side of you, holding himself up, and you giggled slightly upon being met with the lustful expression on his face. though you guessed you mustโve looked just as fucked out already.
โyou can move nowโ you whispered, tracing his lower lip with your thumb.
you felt him twitch inside you from your words alone. poor baby, patiently waiting all that time to finally fuck you.
he kissed you before starting to thrust at a slow pace. you arched your back almost immediately, his width and length massaging all the right spots.
you moaned his name, furrowing your eyebrows and pulling him back into the kiss.
โfuckโ he cursed lowly against your lips. one of his hands moved back down to your thigh to lift up and press against you, his other hand firmly holding your waist. his hips sped up as both of your moans got louder, thrusting into you with more force.
he leaned back up to see more of you. head thrown back and pulling at the sheets. his eyes trailed down to where his cock was disappearing inside you. he watched, entranced by how your tiny pussy sucked him in so well. your stomach bulged every time he pushed into you, and he pressed his lips together, trying to contain his whimpers.
kai had always secretly loved how tiny you were compared to him. he loved holding your smaller hands in his, giving you backhugs and kissing the top of your head. now, pounding into you, he found that he loved how you helplessly clung onto him, fluttering around his big cock, making you feel so good that tears welled up in your eyes.
you felt so emotional, euphoric to be having your first time with the boy you loved so dearly. breathless by how he made your body shudder with pleasure.
sweat running down his temples, strands of hair sticking to his forehead.
suddenly he placed a hand on your lower tummy, pressing on the bulge while thrusting deeper, trying to be as close to you as possible. almost all of his length now deliciously sheathed inside you each time he bottomed out.
you werenโt gonna last much longer.
you grabbed one of his hands, and the way you gazed up at him made kai melt. he never wanted this to end.
โโm close...โ
kai answered by speeding up his hips, the sound of wet skin slapping and your moans rising in pitch filling the room. his nose nuzzled against yours, his mouth open in a gasp, letting out the most heavenly sounds. they were soft and drawn out. occasionally getting stuck in his throat and coming out as a groan, ending in a pretty whimper.
you couldnโt help but clench tighter around him as he lost control of holding back his voice, and he buried his face in the crook of your neck, feeling himself teetering on the edge.
โcum with meโ he whined against your ear, so quiet you almost didnโt catch it.
his fingers slipped down to rub your clit, making you arch your back as you finally tipped over.
you panted his name over and over again, almost screaming as he fucked you through your orgasm. his grip on your hips tightened, furrowing his eyebrows. eyes scanning over your face that contorted in bliss, his breath hitching as he let his own climax wash over him.
his hips slowed but continued to roll into you as he whimpered your name. you brushed his hair back from covering his face, kissing his cheek and the corner of his lips to comfort him through the intensity.
kai looked down between your legs, seeing his cum dripping out of you, messily running down his cock. the sight sparked something within him. he had never felt closer to you than in that moment. the thrill of having the ability to get you pregnant sent shivers up his spine. although you two definitely didnโt wish to have kids for a long, long time, his heart ached at the thought of starting a family with you someday.
the contrast was so hot to him. that something so loving and beautiful could come out of something that seemed so forbidden in the moment- fucking you full of his cum.
practically fully hard again, his hips started moving faster in excitement, and he watched as you leaned your head back, whining loudly from the overstimulation. he started kissing your neck and up your jaw, grabbing your hands and pinning them above your head.
โh-hyukaโฆโ
โi know, i-iโm sorry, it feels too good, so goodโ he blabbered, lacing your fingers with his while sloppily pounding into your pussy.
you were so sensitive. yet the feeling was addictive. almost drooling at how good his cock driving into you felt. you loved how he took control of you. how he was taking care of you. he caressed every part of your body, from running up your sides to cupping your face in his hands, holding onto you as if he was afraid you would slip away.
your lips chased his, sighing as you felt his tongue touch yours.
you were drowning. enchanted.
suddenly kai sat up, grabbing onto your hips, pulling them back to meet with his hard thrusts. the new angle had you gasping, repeatedly hitting just the right spot.
you tensed up, grabbing onto his shoulders, a few tears rolling down your cheeks.
โg-gonna cum again, kai, please, donโt stopโ you sobbed.
his cock twitched inside you, moaning brokenly at the sight of fucking you to the point of tears. your arms wrapped around him, pulling him back down to ground yourself, and before you knew it, you were both tumbling over the edge once again.
kai sloppily thrust a few more times, allowing your tightness to milk the last of him before slowly and carefully pulling out.
he looked down at you, fighting the urge to bury his face between your legs to soothe the swelling he had caused, but he knew you were tired, and sensitive.
it would have to wait for another time.
he threw himself down beside you. you were both panting heavily, bodies completely spent and lingering in the afterglow.
kai turned his head to face you. you had your eyes closed, but you felt his gaze on you and as you met his, you both burst out in giggles.
warm cheeks. red, puffy lips.
suddenly feeling shy, his face fell into your neck, making you smile, fingers tangling in his hair.
he lazily rolled over so you were on top of him. you looked up, and he held you against his chest, pressing kisses all over your face.
please send requests ! preferably something kinda different from my previous fics ๐
iโm sorry i canโt find motivation to write any of the reqs i have rn bc theyโre so similar to what iโve already written. i appreciate them so much but i have ADHD + bunch of schoolwork so creative writing requires a lot of energy, but not if iโm hyperfocused on a new trope :b
[ 6:52 PM ] beomgyu closes the door to his room with his foot, holding the steaming cup of ramen by the tips of his fingers while running over to his desk, careful not to let the hot water spill over.
you look up from the video playing on your phone, deciding that the famished boy in front of you was much more interesting to observe.
he sits down on the swivel chair, stirring his food before taking a big bite. you watch how he closes his eyes, finally getting his first proper meal of the day.
bringing the cup up to his mouth he takes a sip, and you giggle at the way he tilts his head back and groans in satisfaction.
โgood soup?โ
he only nods sarcastically before diving back in, too hungry to care about your joke.
but the grin doesnโt leave your face.
your eyes focus on beomgyuโs cheeks puffing up as he chews, his lips forming the cutest pout.
a comfortable silence falls over the both of you until beomgyu lets out yet another sound of contentment before setting the cup down, making you look up from your phone once again.
smiling seeing that heโs done, you get up, wrapping your arms around him and kissing him on the cheek.
โdo you want me to make you some more?โ you coo at him, stroking his hair.
beomgyu shakes his head no, suddenly standing up and gently pushing you back down on the bed.
โi want cuddles nowโ he murmurs, nuzzling his face into the crook of your neck.
idk if you're still taking requests but could I request a drabble/one shot of hyuka and reader doing it for the first time without a condom? birth control involved obv
i am still taking requests! sorry ive been really busy with work but ive quit my job and started studying at university (literally 5 months ago). first semester has been really difficult but i think im getting the hang of it nooow
so i really appreciate all the requests ive gotten but almost all of them are reeally similar to the few works i have up. so i wont do them, im sorry <3 in the future i feel like it could work to revisit old tropes thoo
maybe i could write like soobin and reader doing it for the first time without a condom? ๐ค idk i jus feel like soobin in particular would be so cute and flustered and go crazy uhhhm ..
HUGEEEE fan of ur work u literally shook the world by posting "first time" (the hyuka smut) and I'm here asking you to do it again please go crazy with it!!
thank u!! itโs actually illegal that i havent posted in 3 months lol but ye ive just been reading a lot instead of writing yk ๐ and i knew i would get lots of inspiration from the new comeback
buut the question is should the next thing i write be for SOOBIN or YEONJUN ?? ๐ค
can't stop crying over the hyuka first time fanfic. And I'm not just saying that, I've literally been sobbing for the last two hours. thank you so much for writing that. really
um thank u โค๏ธโค๏ธ all the love i received on this im so happy ur all so sweet srsly
hii it says that requests are open, but i prefer to double check before sending anything in :) so are you taking requests on atm ?
hey! my requests will always be open! even though i love writing fics, i want them to be perfect so its v easy for me to lose motivation. and then i end up working on them for weeks lol. but ye idk is there anyone who actually completes all the requests they recieve? personally i want to keep them open always bc i get inspired by the ideas and like to take bits and pieces and put them together, but obviously the requests i really resonate with i will write!
so please pls dont be discouraged if u request something and i dont post it right away, bc like u prob noticed im super slow lol. but ye since most ppl request similar things i end up combining them in some way. i hope thats okay ๐ฅฐ
hey i just came by to say I've read the Hyuka smut... four times now sldjaldjsld it's so good the breeding part ๐ฅต really your writing is amazing! love u for this
ummm thank u so much!! thats the biggest compliment lol thank u ๐ฅฐ and i was about to not include that part good thing i did
