Episode four fucks me up for a lot of reasons but that opening montage especially is peak cinema. Two and a half years playing out in five minutes but for once we actually get to see the passage of time occur. The clear illustration of their different social lives. Ilya going out at every opportunity, picking up women, drinking, staying detached, staying numb. Shane jogging with Hayden and staying in, reading, taking every sponsorship, never letting loose. The intercut workout scenes, the playful texting, the barely concealed longing. Checking the schedules, eagerly anticipating their next chance to meet up. That. Fucking. Smash cut. Ilya slamming him into the boards then slamming into him on the couch. Shane's back-to-back wins, Ilya's earnest pride, his played up frustration. That champagne scene. Shane being more interested in sending a cheeky text than celebrating with his teammates. Their summers spent apart, texting, their winters spent on the ice, meeting up. Them barely being able to break apart from each other long enough to actually take their clothes off or get to the bedroom. Their phones constantly kept close, constantly being checked, neither one wanting to reach out without reason but always hoping the other one has. The stark contrast between their family lives, Shane being managed by his mom, chatting with his dad, Ilya taking care of his rapidly deteriorating father. Ilya growing disinterested in finding other available partners. Svetlana clocking the change in him. My Moon My Man playing throughout all of it. Honestly, poetry in motion.
Thoughts on Shane's Episode 6 Meltdown and Ilya's response to it
So Tierney mentioned in an interview that he didn't expect Hudson Williams to go big and dramatic with Shane's freakout after the dad caught Shane and Ilya together at the cottage. Tierney expected it to be more contained. He thought it was way too much at first, and that he'd have to edit most of it out, and it was only later, in the editing room, that he decided it worked.
The thing is that Shane does have a much more quiet, contained freakout later in the episode, in front of his parents — the kind of freakout that was probably closer to what Tierney was originally expecting, where he shrinks in on himself and hides his face and goes quiet and small.
The contrast between these two freakouts is so telling.
It's says so much about Hudson Williams' understanding of Shane, and his understanding of Shane's relationship with Ilya that he chose to go big and dramatic for Shane's initial freakout when he's alone with Ilya, and chose to shrink it down in front of Shane's parents.
It tells the audience that Shane doesn't feel like he needs to contain himself in front of Ilya. Shane feels like he's allowed to have the big dramatic meltdown in front of Ilya, without being afraid of what Ilya will think of him or wondering whether it will change the way Ilya sees him. Shane lets loose in front of Ilya in a way he would never allow himself to let loose in front of any of his other friends or loved ones. He allows himself to lean on Ilya.
And I think this, more than anything is what gives Ilya the confidence to invite himself to Shane's parents place and come out with him.
This vulnerabilty Shane shows Ilya when they're alone is what gives Ilya the confidence to stand beside Shane in front of Shane's parents in a Boston t-shirt and say that he and Shane are lovers, that his name is Ilya, not Rozanov, that he would love some more pasta and some more good Russian vodka, thanks. This is the reason Ilya can sit in the Hollanders' dining room like he belongs there, like the extra seat at the table exists specifically for him to fill.
Shane gave him this big, dramatic demonstration of complete, perfect, unconditional trust, to let himself lean on Ilya, to show Ilya this panicky, dramatic, uncontained side of Shane that no one else has ever been allowed to see.
And it's easy, after that, for Ilya to give Shane his complete, perfect, unconditional support in return.
Ilya doesn't have to question whether he's wanted by Shane, whether he's needed by Shane, whether he's a burden to Shane, whether he deserves Shane, or whether he's good for Shane. He knows.
He knows because Shane told him, not just with words, but with his whole chest, his whole body, his whole everything, that Ilya is his person.
I LOVE the fact that Shane is boring and stays home to read his books while Ilya parties like your typical fuckboi and then by the end of that montage Ilya is dying of boredom in the middle of the club and blowing off a hot woman to scroll on his phone (checking on Shane).
I LOVE the fact that Ilya genuinely loses interest in his wild lifestyle because he falls in love with Shane's boring self and he loooooves it. He WILL spend his nights at home doing the dishes probably and touching toes with Shane on the couch like the world's most boring old couple instead of knocking back shots at the club with gorgeous women wrapped around him. And he's SO happy about that.
Cold Feet and Broken Ankles [david/patrick, G, 2,192] by whoaaitsmichele
David realizes his feelings for Patrick and runs.
2019
Karaoke Dates [david/patrick, G, 404] by @vodka-rocks-and-a-piece-of-toast
Patrick expects an invite to the next karaoke night.
2020
amnesty. [david & patrick, T, 583] by @ohlafraise
What’s that saying about setting something you love free?
Spoilers for Crows Premiere.
At the End of the Day [david/patrick, T, 553] by @fraudulentzodiac
A small coda to "The Premiere."
Dad [david/patrick, G, 522] by jojogirl
Home Again. [david/patrick, G, 319] by @this-is-not-nothing
For the RosebuddWrites Prompt: Childhood Bedroom
I'm gonna try to do a few of these, but definitely not all.
Just Imagine [david/patrick, G, 339] by MoreHuman
Missing scene from s6e05 before Patrick wakes up from his anesthesia nap.
Memory of a Dream [david/patrick, G, 1,101] by Valkyrie_of_Eyre
Season 6 Episode 5 inspired mini fic where Patrick works through feelings about whether he wants children.
None of His Business [david/patrick, G, 1,181] by agreatwave
Checking in while passing by the store is a totally reasonable thing for a new business partner to do, isn’t it? It seems like a much better explanation for his presence than that he can’t seem to stay away due to the inexorable and totally unprecedented pull he feels toward the owner of said store, right?
Missing Scenes from 3x10 Sebastien Raine
Pot o' Gold [david/patrick, E, 22,936] by @ahurston
The love story of a leprechaun and the guy who bought his magic rings.
Stasis [david/patrick, G, 658] by @mostlyinthemorning
David anxiously waits for Patrick to wake up. Missing scene from S6E5.
this feeling inside [david/patrick, M, 1,803] by @landofsonlali
david gets food poisoning from the café, and patrick comforts him. but not until he's thoroughly teased david first.
Where My Love Grows [david/patrick, G, 411] by @doublel27
Patrick packs a couple of bags for a very important day.
your lips are a conversation [david/patrick, T, 1,312] by @thegrayness
David and Patrick are taking things slow, but Patrick has something that he wants.
For Rosebudd Writes smut prompt #5: blowjobs (spoiler there is no blowjob in the fic whoops).
2021
a few of my favourite things [david/patrick, T, 420] by budd
In their newly purchased cottage, David and Patrick celebrate their first Valentine's Day together post-honeymoon.
#42: "First Valentine's Day as a married couple."
aloe you very much [david/patrick, M, 735] by budd
Patrick purchases an organic lube for him and David to test out in bed after he expresses interest at a vendor show.
#25: "Person A accidentally buys Person B a gift they're allergic to."
Bosnia & Herzegovina [johnny/moira, G, 300] by Rosey_Peach
brace for the goodbye [david/patrick, T, 1,769] by @roseapothecary
David’s reaction probably seemed disproportionate — nothing new for him, if he’s being honest — but Patrick said the one word that pushed every, single one of his buttons. Difficult. He was being difficult. Fuck, how many times had he heard that fucking word in the midst of a breakup? He’s been too difficult to live with, too difficult to work with, too difficult to put up with… too difficult to love.
OR: After David and Patrick argue about a clash with one of their vendors, David has to face his insecurities head-on... and so does Patrick.
David Rose vs Canada Day [david/patrick, T, 1,507] by @mostlyinthemorning
When Alexis organizes the Schitt’s Creek Canada Day festivities, David is forced to help, very much against his will. It’s shaping up to be one of the worst days of his life until a stranger makes it better.
gaining ground [david/patrick, T, 2,964] by @jetmason
Patrick comes out. And comes out. And comes out.
I want a love that feels safe [david/patrick, G, 865] by fairmanor
David relaxes upstairs while Patrick hosts a party. Or, a little ficlet about safety and belonging.
Reboot 313 [david/patrick, T, 7,941] by @lilythesilly
“Hi, um, Ronnie right? You don’t know us, but we need your help. I’m David and this is my—that’s Patrick. This is gonna sound crazy, um, but we thought that we were in The Good Place and it actually turns out—”
“Yeah, I know.” Ronnie cuts them off impatiently with an eyeroll. “You’ve been here seventy five times.”
A ‘The Good Place’ AU of sorts
Sometimes it storms [david/patrick, G, 381] by @orangesnlavender
Patrick struggles with life in quarantine.(I apologize for writing a quarantine fic but it just happened lol)
Stepping down as madonna [david/patrick, G, 441] by para_bellum
Vignette about David's and Patrick's future after the series finale, in their attempts to regain equal footing.
2022
Lost in Your Current like a Priceless Wine [david/patrick, G, 988] by @brokenchairwrites
Day 3: Character A gets drunk and accidentally throws up/collapses on B (bonus points if that’s how they meet)
today at lunch [patrick/rachel, G, poem] by elifisher96
today at lunch matthew touched my armand i felt warm—
Use Your Words [david & stevie, T, 366] by @tyfinn
David is cheating at Scrabble.
Stevie catches him.
You Kept me Like a Secret, But I Kept You Like an Oath [david/patrick, E, 13,921] by @brokenchairwrites
A sad story about two dumb boys, who before reaching their happy ending need to grow up and accept themselves for who they are.
You Look Like My Next Mistake [david/patrick, E, 5,203] by @nontoxic-writes
Patrick pulls up to the motel and sees the man sitting in the chair outside Room 5, and his mouth goes dry.
Top-tier indeed.
Whatever Trish is charging, she could easily double it.
He swallows hard, and wills himself not to think about the fact that in a few minutes, he will be naked with this guy. If he keeps picturing it, he's either gonna chicken out, or he's gonna get hard and that's just too embarrassing, even for this situation.
Patrick counts to ten, taking slow, even breaths, and steps out of the car.
"Hi," he greets awkwardly as he walks up to the man.
"Can I help you?"
He sounds prickly, distrusting. It makes sense. "Yeah, I'm Patrick. Trish sent me." He realizes too late that he probably shouldn't have given his real name.
"Who the fuck is Trish?"
--a Rooms by the Hour AU where Patrick attends the Greater Elms Accountants Conference, and is given Trish's card in case he's "looking for some fun."
2023
[Podfic] Alive to 25 [david/patrick, T, podfic] by @trueillusion82
Audio recording of blackandwhiteandrose's "Alive to 25"
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Marcy hands David a stack of loose photos. “Sift through these, will you?”
Taking the photos from her, he glances at the one on top. It must have only been taken a few years ago -- Patrick looks essentially the same, the only hint of another time is the slight unruliness of his curls. Patrick and another man have their arms around each other’s shoulders, both of them caught mid-laugh, standing behind a giant sheet cake that reads, “Alive to 25!” in comically large red letters. He holds it up for Marcy to see. “What’s this about?”
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On a trip to visit the Brewers, David learns more about Patrick's childhood best friend.
one-of-a-kind [david/patrick, T, 1,850] by @chanyelle
Patrick has been stretching himself thin during tax season, and David insists he takes a day off to de-stress now that the taxes have been filed. Unfortunately, the day is anything but stress-free.
An expanded version of my lamp drabble
Stats:
No fanworks for 2017 or 2024
2018: 1 fic/2,192 words
2019: 1 fic/404 words
2020: 12 fics/31,718 words
2021: 10 fics/17,323 words
2022: 5 fanworks (4 fics, 1 poem)/20,657 words
2023: 2 fanworks (1 fic, 1 podfic)/1,850 words
Total: 31 fanworks (29 fics, 1 podfic, 1 poem)/74,149 words
So thanks to @stereopticons , I realized today is my 4 year ficaversary! I've learned so much in four years, worked through some very personal stuff through my writing, and have made some wonderful friends along the way.
dailybridgerton
areudirty
vaporwave
kaledo-art
yousharknotpass
dededos
janainaart
blakekathryn
snowghoul
annaxmalina
