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@xdowonx​

bless his heart, but this guy is just not it. 

maybe she’s not strictly looking for a date to spend her hard-earned time with, just some sort of excitement to pull her out of the mire of everyday life. 

suppose this is life: going out and trying not to get drunk enough to lose your wits completely. juyeon has been too busy staring at her phone for the past 30 minutes, trying to figure out a ride home or anything better to do, to really keep up with the steady flow of drinks this guy has been downing. she figures he’s nervous, perhaps painfully aware of her disinterest. big enough to handle the alcohol well though, so he’s got that going for him at least.

"so, it’s getting pretty late..” she draws it out, dips one metaphorical toe in the lukewarm water to see what it stirs up– if anything.

“one last drink?” he suggests, apparently implying that there’s no rush. bold sentiment given the situation, but juyeon bites, always eager to see what’s next.

she obliges with a nondescript smile and nod, masking the contempt by shifting her attention away to the interior, some detail of an artwork on the wall, the vaguely familiar bartender in her periphery, and then back to her phone, when his voice suddenly snaps her back to reality.

her drink is here, it seems. and has been sitting for a while too judging by his sour expression and the condensation around the outside of the glass. 

“uh, cheers, i guess.”  this is the the price of her freedom: one disgustingly sweet-looking drink of a dubious tropical shade, with an even more off-putting smell. there’s a metaphor in there somewhere, if only she could be bothered.  

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@holyrcller​

good wine and conversation. that’s the modus operandi for tonight.

sorin isn’t a stranger, strictly speaking, but has skirted around in juyeon’s periphery undetected long enough that some apprehension still lingers between them. isn’t that the charm of a not-quite-first time though? maybe there are a few gaps to fill in here and there, but they get the gist of each other.  

some nondescript corvina and mixed snacks from her barren cupboard makes up for the early stutters in conversation, and the rest is history. they sit across from each other at the dinner table, chatting away like it’s the most natural thing in the world.

“–so yeah, nearly missed the 4:45, and then it was a total mess the whole way through.” now solely focused on trying to cleanly split the shell of a pistachio open with one hand, juyeon finishes yet another riveting work story on a characteristically anticlimactic note. the wine has a way of muddying the finer details of her anecdotes, but the point still comes across. “but i slept plenty this afternoon, so i’m not really tired.”

still sleepy, but not tired per se. another concession that makes up the new normal. 

“and you? no qualms about messing up your sleep schedule?”

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it’s cia again, finally around to properly introduce my bb girl shin juyeon! 

check out the profile and abridged timeline of her biography!  remember to press like if you want me to slide into your dms for plots :-)

shin juyeon 970611 (24 years old) incheon, south korea

likes: the velvet underground, personality quizzes, red wine, yoga, anything with rosemary in it, night drives, binaural beats sleep playlists

dislikes: black coffee, early mornings, the sixth middle floor topsy turvy, cooking

misc.

had a good time in high school so you know something is off 🤨  eternal class rep 

had a bit of a natalie portman black swan moment in university. but she doesn’t remember much of it anyway so that means she’s pretty much fine

the nice thing about aviation is that you can work pretty much anywhere. she moved to ville city shortly after graduating to begin working as a flight attendant

proud to be a woman in uniform! has no clue what she’s doing most of the time and feels like the imposter at her own job, but that’s just life, right? right.

currently in the process of coming back to work from an extended sick leave. got severely overwhelmed by sleep deprivation and migraines

her workload is at about 25% as of right now, and her parents help supplement the money needed to make rent. f in the chat please...

extremely concerned about how she’s perceived by others. the thought of someone disliking or judging her for whatever reason is very distressing to her. likes to be viewed in a favorable light, or not at all

in true gemini fashion, her inner life is not always reflected in her outward actions. can definitely be a bitch when it feels justified, but tends to tread carefully

doesn’t have a lot of truly close friends, but is on a friendly basis with most people, if that makes sense?

either complete shit at taking care of herself or she just doesn’t care to do it properly when no one’s looking. plus she loves a bit of sympathy so it’s not all bad even if someone does catch her slipping :-)

definitely the character in a horror movie who believes there’s a perfectly rational explanation for all the obviously supernatural phenomena. could literally see a ghost and she’d be like maybe i need an ibuprofen

speaking of which, she’s getting absolutely manhandled by this building and definitely thinks she’s suffering from an inner ear problem after living on the sixth middle floor for 7 months now. if you hear her taking a tumble anytime the floor begins to shift, just keep it moving okay

suffers from ehs (exploding head syndrome) which thankfully it not as exciting as it sounds, and occasional ocular migraines. so you can imagine how everything going on around her is just making the existing symptoms even worse

tends to keep to herself when things get rough, but otherwise strikes up conversations with people whenever she can. overall she’s pretty good company. chronically social 

pretty confident though, all things considered. has never really had to face any humiliating rejection or public setback so she assumes it’ll just keep on being easy breezy

[heavensickness]

“I tried to ask my parents to leave the room, but not my life. It was very hard. Because the room was the size of my life. Because my life was small.”

— Chen Chen, “Chapter VIII”

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