entering the isamiposting zone…

COLOUR ME WITH YOUR POWER!

[ultramanyaoidied]

I REMADE!!!! IF NEW PEOPLE ARE FOLLOWING YOU PLEASE CHECK IF ITS ME… it’s slow as heck but i will slowly dm people ….

[ultramanyaoidied]

im remaking to nagimatsuo if u see someone new following you DONT BLOCK ME UNLESS U WANT. see u for now!!

[ultramanyaoidied]

im remaking to nagimatsuo if u see someone new following you DONT BLOCK ME UNLESS U WANT. see u for now!!

[ultramanyaoidied]

=_= ok so I might remake because Everyone knows Everyone on Tumblr. I fell out with a new mutual and do not want to risk the tumblr age old problem of zero communication online fights so I’m gonna remake with a whole new identity (not really I’m just making new carrds and everything) I will dm mutuals my new url / you can add me on discord to find out

[ultramanyaoidied]

I’m okay with people I know being annoyed by me because everybody gets annoyed by other people at times and you don’t usually think anyone’s perfect and don’t have to. I’m not okay with people secretly having serious legitimate grievances against me that are like enough to significantly impact their perception of me and not telling me about it. Like I am really sorry genuinely if I come off like someone who would blow criticism out of the water or treat it as a personal attack to throw back at you but I also can’t blame people for thinking that of me. But also I wish people would just tell me if something about me confused or bothered them so I could respond accordingly to see if I could help them understand or I needed to readjust. Like I really want to be able to resolve conflict in a productive manner.

Anyways technically if people don’t tell you their grievances sometimes you don’t know what’s going on and you shouldn’t be excessively paranoid BUT I AM. Anyways like I always say no one has to waste their energy giving me constructive criticism if they genuinely believe it’s a waste of their own energy but for your own sake and my own if you have serious grievances against me and don’t want to tell me you should just block me so we don’t bother each other.

[menlove-archive]

interesting how transmascs & transfems alike think losing weight is the answer to pass as our chosen gender.... almost as if fat people are never Truly afforded a passing gender regardless of trans status. as fat people we are never Truly seen as Men or Women. anyway fuck that notion & if u think u need to lose weight to pass that's the devil talking

[ultramanyaoidied]

how it feels to make a mistake in a social setting (i want to die violently right now)

[ultramanyaoidied]

(normal person voice) It’s not like other people are bad per say or that I’m bad but like everyone, people humans whatever, behave in a way I just can’t replicate and you know it’s very distressing. I can’t and I won’t click. I’m overly aware of how I present but also how no one cares and also that even if I put on the costume of a normal person I’d eventually be exposed for being something rotten puppeting loose skin. I go about the motions just so bizarrely out of place in hopes the sheer absurdity will free me from having to conform or that someone like me might recognise and understand but it doesn’t work! It’s just another performance

[ultramanyaoidied]

Btw when it comes to my fear of people my age it’s not like I have distorted thinking about other people (blatant lies) I just behave like an actual alien / can’t read social cues / lack a sense of normal and I get very stressed from that

[ultramanyaoidied]

Being around people my age makes me so anxious I want to die but it was a fun engagement talk and I saw a lot of cool specimens and also plants

[ntrider]

you're basically home to me dude but it's not a big deal at all. don't worry about it

[junk-thunder]

[ex-riddlecats]

im starting to think you guys dont like it when stories make you feel things

[ultramanyaoidied]

a lot of people came w their parents to this engagement event and i Forgot u could bring a plus one WHICH IS CAUSING ME SO MUCH DISTRESS BECAUDE I VOULDVE ASKED MY FRIEND WHO LOVES SCIENCR TO COME

anyways

[moonlitdiane]

C'mon don't be losers, instead of doing Watcher subscription giveaways just literally buy esims for Gaza or donate to non-profit charities like Care for Gaza, which actually help affected Palestinians and deliver food and other necessities to them. There's also a bunch for Sudan like the one set up by the ICRC. Don't give $6 just for a man to eat expensive shit on camera when that $6 can do so much for an entire nation of starving people.

[ultramanyaoidied]

I AM PARBROILING

[ultramanyaoidied]

u know the thing where u feel a bit more normal now but u dk if u are behaving normally or scaring people so youre just slightly like Ah.