I’m thinking about taking responsibility
1. Mindset shifts
I hate responsibility, but I also am okay with it. I like that it empowers. I just need to harness that. So I'm grateful for the ability for me to change my mind so easily and be so flexible. Just a moment ago I was down in the dumps. So I need to always remember that mood is changeable, so changeable. It just takes a mindset shift. And im the one to do it.
2. Internet Articles
What would I do without them? I may go on a rabbit hole journey, but in the end, knowledge is power? People sharing their knowledge with me, I can't imagine what I would do without that. Talk to people?
Anyway, it’s kind of a small joy to stumble upon someone’s blog and see how they think and what their life is like.
3. Forgiveness
See: Ethan. I'm gonna be so grateful to him so often, lol. I know he hasn't forgiven me yet, but just giving me the possibility for that, for that, I'm so grateful. Even if he did break up with me, I need to adopt the Ariana mindset ("Thank u, next") and think about how it's helped me to learn more about myself, and how I can grow.
4. Ethan
Uhhh...can I put him down twice in the same entry? I don’t know the rules of gratitude, but if it were proportional, he'd be 99% of the entry. Maybe more. His eternal patience with me. He claims I'm patient with him, but I just wish I knew of all the times he's endured, thought about things to bring up, and if he's held back. He's actually so precious to me. He' so strong, and he teaches me a lot. I was thinking at first that all the inspirational stuff was surface deep, but it really comes from a wellspring. I wonder if you get to know anyone deeply enough, they'll blossom into something so complex and fascinating. I do think that's true. I'm grateful I've gotten the chance, even if it is just with one person.
5. Wherever you go, there you are.
It shouldn’t be negative. Before I was thinking, I've even abandoned myself. I'm completely alone. But you can't do that. I'll always be with myself. I'll always have me.