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[unbe4rably-human]

You told me you hated how out of all of your friend group you were the only one without a partner, about how uncomfortable you felt when the couple would make you feel like you were intruding, when they start touching and being intimate in front of you

And now you do it to me, and you don’t care even when I told you it was uncomfortable

We went to seeing each other nearly almost every day; you’d come into class just to see me, I come into class even when I don’t have to just to see you

Just so that all of a sudden the stupid boy of your dreams gives you what you want, and suddenly I’ve lost all purpose and worth

You don’t need me to come over to your house to do homework, you have him for that now

You don’t need to see me nearly as much, you don’t text back when you’re with him, you disregard my feelings in every sense and I fucking hate you right now

I get it, you’re infatuated, you’re in love

But you’re such a fucking hypocrite too

You said you’d never be the type of friend to ditch their friends once they got a boyfriend, and look at you now

You check up on me like you’re doing fucking homework,

You take no interest in me, you ask me no questions, you only want to talk about that stupid rat face boy you have

And I don’t even hate him, not at all actually

I detest you

Your hypocrisy and your lie

I guess it’s my fault for thinking things wouldn’t change

But I’m standing alone right now and I feel awful and you don’t know or care

I fucking hate you and I wish I could scream in your face about how bad you’ve made me feel, how abandoned I felt

How abandoned I feel to know that one day, with the flip of a switch, I lost access to you, your time, your affections, your attention

You say you still care for me but I seriously doubt it

I feel like just your stupid friend to make you laugh

Aren’t I just that to everyone? Some stupid energetic girl who talks too much and makes lots of jokes and she’ll make you laugh but when I’m crying or upset and silent nobody wants to extend the courtesy; nobody wants to speak, nobody wants to check up on me

Its in moments like these where I imagine myself going to the sixth floor of the uni building, and flinging myself off until I hit the ground below with a splat

I imagine people feeling sympathy for me,

I imagine friends stroking my hair and giving me hugs while I cry,

I imagine having to go to hospital just so I could have a reason to get their sympathy, to receive lots of love and ‘get well’ cards,

I imagine what people at my funeral would say about me, who would go? Would they regret not seeing how much I felt I was suffering?

I imagine strangers coming up to comfort me in public, I crave a pair of arms I can lean into and cry in

But nobody’s going to save you so you have to save yourself or some bullshit like that

It doesn’t matter anyway

I guess I make mountains out of molehills,

and I cry a lot about nothing

I’ve cried so much in public,

On the bus, at the park, walking downtown, walking home, during class, on the balcony, at the plaza, by the train station

Everywhwre and anywhere you can think of

I just wish I had someone to lean on, to share my burdens to

I just feel miserable

[thevulturesquadron]

text: [ “Some of you have forgotten that only three years ago you were perfectly capable of writing an essay, writing a eulogy, telling a bedtime story to a child, and it should worry you that powerful companies have convinced us we can’t do things we’ve been doing for 5000 years.” ]

[hopeless-eccentric]

humiliating to be attracted to a conventionally attractive person. I thought I was a more sensitive and refined pervert than this

[unbe4rably-human]

my half of a #WIP I was working on with my friend !

Plus the base image at the end :3

For this collab, my friend and I wanted to recreate the wolf in sheep’s clothing dynamic, and have our characters be inspired by a wolf and a sheep! The character I drew is wolf inspired, and I honestly love love love her so much

I think this is honestly one of my favorite drawings ever

Even so, this drawing isn’t finished yet :v so id love feedback!

come back later to see the finished drawing in like a month when school isn’t killing us xd

and lmk if anyone would like to see the Timelapse :3

[unbe4rably-human]

I’m realizing there are no right or wrong answers when it comes to my decisions and choices,

Don’t take this to the extreme, but it’s more so that I feel I cling to what a “good” or “bad” choice is.

I want to chase the things I want, even if it’s bad, even if it’s different, even if it hurts

But I figure now is a better time than ever

What else do I have to do? I have nothing to lose but my dignity, my soul, heart and feelings. It’s hard realizing life isn’t about avoiding pain

Then what is it? I’m screaming out for an answer and hear the echo of my own voice. Does it even matter, anyway?

Does it

Even

Matter

Anyway

I think I know what I want

I’m so tired of denying myself what I want

Why can’t I just reach out and pick it myself

Do everything in my power to make things go my way

My way

[unbe4rably-human]

I think i would’ve been more useful if I was born as a worm or a maggot

Even then I think I’d be the worst

[unbe4rably-human]

i had a huge Teena Marie phase last year and that’s so cute it makes me giggle

[unbe4rably-human]

I’m waiting for the sky to fall, again

For an asteroid to hit the earth

For the creepy man behind me, who turned around and is now following me, to actually do something to me

I get this itch, this urge every so often

To get up and run

To scream into an empty forrest

But as much as I want to give into instinct, I don’t

I hold back out of fear; I adhere to routine without even trying

And I just walk a little faster,

I walk and walk and walk until I’m too tired to be angry,

Until I get home to sleep and it all starts all over again

[unbe4rably-human]

All day every day all i think about is people

the people I love, the people I hate, the people I miss

On the train I’m terrified and nervous, which provokes odd excitement for this routine thrill

I love looking around the train, glancing past faces, avoiding looking them in the eye.

I love gazing out the window, and staring back into the reflection of the train car,

The girl next to me is asleep and has her eyes closed,

But the boy next to her is wide awake and looking around.

In my peripheral vision I can see how he tenses and stares straight into the same window I’m looking at

I wonder if he’s searching for me,

If he can feel the awful pry of an unfamiliar gaze

I live for these moments,

These tiny moments of perversion, drawing back the curtain, suddenly way too familiar with the strangers next to you

I live for these moments

Sitting on a train car packed full of people,

Arms and legs pressed together,

As everyone plays on their phone and pretend not to notice who’s around.

[unbe4rably-human]

I want to walk through the city at night

I want to slink around, unseen

I want to feel safe in the great outdoors

I want to blend into the scenery, and for once become the adventurer, the observer, instead of the observed

[unbe4rably-human]

I am so so so jealous of men

I wish I was taken as seriously as men, I wish I was as bold and brave as men

I feel like when you’re raised as a woman you’re taught to be small, to appease others, to not be disruptive; to essentially shrink yourself so small that it’s comfortable for everybody else

I try now to be more confident and think less of peoples opinions about me, but I can’t help but hold onto this bitterness of knowing I’d be treated better as a man

All my flaws and defects as a woman would be seen as my strengths as a man

I’d love to carry my head held high,

And walk around with no fear, like I own the world

Because you sort of do

Rambles

[unbe4rably-human]

I like these pictures but idk if my eyes looking hollow makes it look like analog horror lmao so

do we approve of these pictures to upload on my Instagram ?

^

Yes

No

Voting ended onMar 11

Thank u

[unbe4rably-human]

today an architecture firm followed me on Instagram and started liking my highlights and said this

Ow

[unbe4rably-human]

maybe I’m more of a concept and less of a person

[unbe4rably-human]

y’all like Napoleon dynamite?

made this top the other day :3

[evergreene-images]

Art that makes you feel something

[unbe4rably-human]

Somatic narcissism

would anyone else like to diagnose me? leave ur thoughts in the comments below ^^ !