July 4 2023
Having a hard time adjusting to my new roles in the clinic.
One, because of my insecurities. When I delegate tasks, i feel inadequate and incompetent. But i have to accept the fact that i cannot do everything. Also, in order to train people, i have to let them do things. My colleagues are very competent and they are not my competition, they are my team. There are tasks that are not mine for me to do anymore and is time to let go of them. As there are new tasks that I need to take on now. If they do better than me when I was in their position, then I should be happy and proud of them.
2nd, i'm also afraid of being a burden to others, but to the point of treating them like a baby. Our team is tough - i have to keep that in mind. There is so much things to do, and it is my job to help them see that they are more than capable of doing everything what needs to be done, even more.
3rd, being assertive is a chore for me. But even if it is not natural to me, i have to force it and embrace that i need to be assertive.
Today, i learned that if i give up on this, there are people who rely on me who will also give up. I was moved by the courage to acknowledge to someone that she is needed. That it is a "packaged deal".















