rainy days

Katyiah ≛ 17 Touching me is like drinking poison. It's lethal.

[escafeism]

She’s the girl that looks so brave but cries every night. She’s the one that looks so sweet yet so bitter inside, the one that looks so happy but broken, sad, lonely, and incomplete— pieces of her were scattered after the game she played ended with grief. Her eyes are cold, but her heart is longing for the love she never had. Her lips are aching to say the things that are going inside her precious mind. Her heart is beating but she doesn’t even feel the life that she has. Her touch is undeniably warm and it can keep you calm, but her warmth can’t melt the ice that covers her heart and her soul to bring back the old her that he owned when he left for good.

She’s alive but she’s dead inside (via escafeism)

[unending-downpours]

just did a quick backread // lol was i really that hopeless romantic

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06.11.16

so. i just visited this blog now. it’s been hmmm two years? wow. i was only 15 on my bio lol. now, 17, i just don’t know what to feel.

hi past self. you’ve achieved one of your dreams! you are currently studying in your dream school (UP) and you would be entering your second year in the university on august!!!!!

[cocvino-deactivated20160219]

[aureat]

I just want someone to choose me and never stop choosing me

Please (via aureat)

[kind-hearts-deactivated20150614]

[shelter-co]

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11. 18. 14

5:14 pm;

typed this in a hurry so be ready to say hello to the errors. (kristin, here's the answer hahaha) \ i used to like this guy. i even code named him oxygen in my past journal entries back then because he's 'that' guy i always try to steal secret glances with whenever he passes by our floor's pathwalk like it's a necessity for me to look at him. i don't know. i was just attracted to him - he's so into books and movies and sugary romantic things and sports and he's good looking. plus, he's got the brains. he's friendly and nice that he tries to smile and to wave my way whenever he sees me (even though we weren't that close). that was back then, okay? i used to like him. i didn't tell my friends who he is even if they were die hard asking me (hahaha). \ so just this year, we became close. closer and closer as the months went by. it was because we both share the same interests and activities. i was actually a snob but he's so approachable so yeah. \ just this month my 4th year schoolmates went on a retreat. i wasn't one of them because there was a conflict regarding the agreement of my coming so i just decided to stay home ( don't want to give my dad more burdens to carry. don't want him to think and think of ways to pay my retreat. no more troubles.) okay. my classmates who were given the permission by their parents to attend the said retreat received their retreat letters from their friends and family etc. (i wasn't one of them so i got only a few letters from people who thought i was attending the retreat. sweet and thoughtful of them, anyway) i even wrote a few letters for my besties. \ now here's the revelation. (you've been waiting for this kristin. i know you've been reading my posts. scanning my past entries bc you want to know who oxygen is). yes. yes, it's him. the one who wrote me that sweet letter with flowery adjectives. yes, it's him. that guy who gave me the flatters. \ inaamin ko, kinilig ako nang bahagya when i read it. ofcourse, i tried hiding all those giggles and smiles that wants to escape me as soon as possible. concealing is a hidden talent of mine, y'know. man, who wouldn't feel that sensational jitters if an ideal guy says something beautiful about you? haha. \ but! i don't feel the same feeling i had when i was still attracted to him. i don't know. i just feel happy and special do'n sa mga sinabi niya. special friends lang talaga. nothing romantic. i want to be close to him too (he said he wants to be close to me) but it's just because i want to share some thoughts to him. i want to talk to him about our activities like what book is he currently reading and what could he say about this and that and this and that. i want to be friends with him and see him the way i see alvin (another guy bestfriend). okay? no romance please. stop linking me to him because it will not click. it won't just click.  \ besides, kung iniisip niyo na may crush siya sakin just because he said that my smiles are cute and that he finds me attractive and that my giggles and laughs are making him happy too, then you guys are wrong (sophia and kristin hahaha). it's just natural for him to said those kinds of things because that's his way of being vocal of his appreciation in regards to someone he wants to be friends with. no malice. hindi lang naman siguro sakin niya yon sinabi. maybe he said those kind of things to his other girl friends y'know. that's just how friendly he is and how open he is. diba gano'n din naman si alvin? he's telling cute and mushy things to me yet you don't think of him as someone who likes me? diba diba? hahaha. \ (tsaka ayokong umasa hahahahahahahahahahaha please lang.) if i will like him the way i liked Krypton, i think it would just make me feel more melancholic than the Kr happenstance. because it will be another unrequited experience for me, don't ya think? worse, is that i have less chance of him noticing me than the chance i have with Kr. he's so into girls who are the complete opposite of me. sooooo, i don't want to like him to like him to like him. and you know that assuming is one of the roots of a heartache, right? so yeah. i won't let another bullet shoot me while i'm off guard. anyway, it's better to be just friends with no one sided love kicking in. haha. \ another revelation. it's about Kr. i hate to say this, but the feelings are slightly on again. i wish i could turn it off. he's happy now with someone else. gaaah.

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:(

who's this? and why sad? :((

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i don't know what to feel.

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sometimes, I just want to talk to someone and feel light.

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[kushandwizdom]

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people stay for awhile and leave Footprints on our hearts and we are never the same.

Aaliyah

[bookporn]

Every book has a soul, the soul of the person who wrote it and the soul of those who read it and dream about it.

Carlos Ruiz Zafón, The Angel’s Game (via bookporn)

[parareflection]

[chunchaiii]

Paramore + Palette Graphic.

[aesterismos]

i feel small; but so are stars from a distance.

ten word poem, i.

[missivesfromghosts-deactivated2]

If you are a monster, stand up. If you are a monster, a trickster, a fiend, If you’ve built a steam-powered wishing machine If you have a secret, a dark past, a scheme, If you kidnap maidens or dabble in dreams Come stand by me. If you have been broken, stand up. If you have been broken, abandoned, alone If you have been starving, a creature of bone If you live in a tower, a dungeon, a throne If you weep for wanting, to be held, to be known, Come stand by me. If you are a savage, stand up. If you are a witch, a dark queen, a black knight, If you are a mummer, a pixie, a sprite, If you are a pirate, a tomcat, a wright, If you swear by the moon and you fight the hard fight, Come stand by me. If you are a devil, stand up. If you are a villain, a madman, a beast, If you are a strowler, a prowler, a priest, If you are a dragon come sit at our feast, For we all have stripes, and we all have horns, We all have scales, tails, manes, claws and thorns And here in the dark is where new worlds are born. Come stand by me.

A Monstrous Manifesto, by Catherynne M. Valente

[aninsignificantlittlespeck-blog]

I remember crying over you and I don’t mean a couple of tears and I’m blue. I’m talking about collapsing and screaming at the moon.

The Avett Brothers, Tear Down the House

[kushandwisdom]