As promised, here is my half of the playlist/fic trade with @reallyintouglyfos ! This is probably a lot longer than you expected, but I hope you enjoy it anyway! I certainly had fun writing on it. ^^
Title: Radiation
Fandomās Involved: Overwatch
Rating: Probably a slight T, given what Moira and Kolka do to their poor test subject, but only a slight T.
Pairing(s): Kolka/Moira
Summary: In which Kolka learns about radiation and gets a small bit of affection from Moira, which is never something to take lightly.
THIS IS INCREDIBLE?? You captured both of their characters so accurately. I can tell you know a lot about the source material and I really love how you portrayed Kolka it is DEAD ON. I think iāve read this 1000 times now. Thank you so much <33333
Aaaaaa-youāre welcome!~ :3 <33333 Iām so happy you liked it, and I canāt tell you how happy I am that I managed to get Kolkaās characterization just right. There was a moment or two there, while I was writing, that I thought, āIt seems like sheād think this, based upon these past experiences, from what I know about her, so hopefully Iāve got this right.ā, so Iām glad that I did! :3
Iām just happy that you seem to enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. :3
(Also, donāt worry about your tag. I already saw it. xD;; Plus, we both know that Moira would have no shame whatsoever about using urine in her research if she thought it would help.)
FINALLY my half of the art/fic/playlist trade with @unfurledwings is finished!! (she wrote me a really excellent fic for my overwatch self insert and Moira which you should totally check out)Ā
I donāt know how you managed to nail it, but you did. Stale Cupcakes as an opening? Perfect, A+++++, fucking fits chaos and I to a T.
And then Boats and Birds came up, and I started crying a little bit, because god fucking damnit, those are my exact feelings towards chaos regarding the end of the Xeno series, and, just..itās perfect. I donāt know what kind of psychic wizardry you used to know to put this song on here, but keep using it, because it works.
Pluto fits chaos to a goddamn T, The Moon Song sounds like a semi-duet sung by the two of us during the long search for Earth, and there are a million little perfect touches, lines that just encapsulate our relationship (whether itās supposed to be sung from chaosās POV or mine), that the whole thing just fucking works.
Thank you. This was more than worth the wait. This is exactly what I needed, too, since chaos and I had a bit of a bumpy patch a couple of days ago.
I now dub thee the Music Wizard. ALL HAIL THE MUSIC WIZARD!~ <333
hey! i saw you have writing commissions open and i checked what fandoms you write for, but i wanted to ask if you write for persona? i saw you did one with sho from arena, but just wanted to make sure!
Hey!
To be honest, it kind of depends. ><; I took on that commission from my friend because we had already talked at length about Sho enough for me to feel comfortable writing about him and her, and she also supplied me with a Sho playlist where I could watch the scenes that were most important to his growth as a character. Plus, she accepted that the piece would take a bit longer for me to write, since I would have to get up to speed with all of the Sho information (Sheās been such a fucking sweetheart about this whole thing, by the way, I canāt even begin to tell you).
So, while I can say that if you want to commission a piece from me involving Sho, I can do that, I canāt say that Iām comfortable writing pieces that involve characters from the first and fifth Persona games. However! I am familiar enough with the second, third, and fourth Persona games that I might still accept a commission for them, depending upon whom they are and what time Iād have to devote watching their scenes (if their particular story is so long that it canāt be put on a playlist and completely watched within a week, the answer is probably no).
So, in short, if youāre a wonderful Sho Fucker, feel free to commission me! If not, and you want me to write you a piece involving a different character, just message me, and we can probably talk something out before you send in your form. :3
So, awhile back, some of you may have noticed that I put up a commission post for all of you lovely people. My good friend @myrainydayloves commissioned me for a piece with her F/O, Sho, and this is the result!
So, if any of you are still interested in requesting a commission from me, I hope this helps you make a more informed decision about the whole thing! ^^ And, if you just want a good story involving Annaka and Sho, I hope you enjoy this piece too. :3
Title: Lovedrunk in The Rain
Fandomās Involved: Persona 4 Arena Ultimax
Rating: A slight T, since both characters get naked to dry off at some point, but nothing sexual ever becomes of it.
Pairing(s): Annaka/Sho.
Summary: Normally, a car throwing water all over you would lead to a bitter end for most dinner dates. Thankfully, however, neither Sho or Annaka are ordinary people.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAh, shit.ā Sho half-hissed at the rain pouring out onto the world. He and Annaka had been having so much fun during their dinner date that he hadnāt even noticed when it had started to drizzle, much less when it was coming down like it was the second Flood. For the moment, he and his lovely, dark girlfriend were protected by the little overhang outside the restaurant, but the moment they tried to leave for home, theyād be under a watery siege, and if that rain was cold, itād feel like a million daggers were stabbing into them, which might prompt Sho to start a serious fight with the rain and force Annaka to calm him down, despite her misery and exasperation. āWhen the hell did it start raining?! Itās nothing but a paining.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āCalm down.ā Annaka replied, her voice as rich and warm as her skin, as she searched around in her handbag, a smile full of ninety percent love and ten percent amusement on her face. āThereās no need to make awful puns. I brought an umbrella with me.ā As Annaka pulled out a large, blue umbrella with white polka dots and a wooden handle, Sho gave her a warm smile, his eyes glimmering like a tomcat who knows that itās up to no good.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āReally? Thanks, Annaka. I might have been a Dark Messiah, but you really are my personal savior!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āCāmon, Sho..ā Annaka sighed, opening up the umbrella and resting it between the crooks of their shoulders, though they still had to huddle together like freezing penguins to keep the rain off them.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhat?ā Sho replied, grinning from ear to ear as they started walking down the street. āItās true! I wasnāt jokinā about that. I really wouldnāt be the person I am now if it werenāt for you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAnd youāre not going to deny that āpainingā is a horrible pun?ā Annaka asked, her cheeks warming, and her radiant smile so full of love that even a sunflower would have been jealous of it.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOf course not! It was great! I really donāt know what all of you have against my excellent jokes.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āMaybe weāre against them because theyāre not that great.ā At that, Sho scowled, but Annaka just continued on. āIf you keep raining puns down on people-ā She started, indulging in a pun of her own, though she was never able to finish it. At that moment, a truck came speeding down the road like all the Shadows in the world were after it, flinging water about left, right, and center, and just as Annaka was about to finish her sentence, a wave of cold, muddy water hit her dead in the face, soiling her blue dress. As Annaka glared at the world, Sho bit his lip, trying to control himself, but he could only hold it together for a moment before he started laughing like a hyena, desperately trying to hide his mirth by covering his mouth with his hands. āWhatās so funny?ā Annaka asked, her voice even more frigid than the rain as she tried to fish around in her handbag for a tissue one-handed.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIt-isnāt it obvious?!ā Sho cackled. āYou look like a puppy that just got tricked out of a treat!ā As Sho moved onto a fresh fit of giggles, Annaka wiped her face, still looking less than amused about the whole thing.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āMore like someone just ruined my nice clothes by driving like an idiot. You see what damage your puns can do, now? I tried to use one, and look at what the universe did to me!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āThatās because you were using a pun to mock their existence! Of course thereās going to be cosmic justice for that!ā Sho replied, still chuckling as he ruffled Annakaās hair. āAnd donāt worry about your clothes. Itāll wash out. Besides, you look good in anything. Hell, itās raining so hard that no one would mind if you were out in your birthday suit!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āSho!ā Annaka yelled at him, her face as red as a cherry, as Sho burst into another fit of giggles, holding his stomach like itād fall out if he didnāt contain it. āIām not going out in public naked!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAre-oh, Jesus Christ!ā He yelled, his feet moving him out from under the umbrella, his mirth moving him about like a puppeteer. āDonāt-donāt glare at me like that! Youāre so cute that itās hilarious!ā As Annaka tried to think of something good to throw back at him, a completely different car came speeding down the road in the opposite direction of the truck, throwing its own wave of water onto Sho, and silencing his laughter as quickly and as easily as if it were fire itself.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā For a moment, nothing could be heard but the pouring rain as Sho glared at the passing car like he was considering ripping it thirteen new assholes, and Annaka tried to contain herself in turn, though she couldnāt stop herself from smirking, her cheeks full of held-in laughter. āThat son of a bitch.ā Sho growled, wiping the muddy water off with his sleeve, despite the fact that he was now being soaked by the rain, now that he was out of the umbrellaās protection. āI oughta kill him and burn his goddamn car to the ground. And why are you laughing?!ā He yelled, turning his attention back to Annaka, whoād burst out laughing the moment he started talking.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIām sorry!ā She cried, though she sounded and looked anything but. āYou just-you look like a cat that someone just forced to have a bath! Itās priceless!ā As Annaka kept giggling, Sho pouted a little. Normally, he might have liked to stay mad, but..it was nearly impossible to mope and hiss when Annaka was in a good mood and laughing, even if that laughter was at his expense. So, Sho tried to sigh out his irritation.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āPeh. Well, I guess it really is raining cats and dogs out here.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI guess so, in a way!ā Annaka replied, her laughter dying down as she took the umbrella down, which just made Sho look puzzled. Not that he couldnāt go without it, but..
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAre you gonna be alright without the umbrella?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYeah, Iāll be fine!ā Annaka chirped, stepping next to Sho and taking his hand, sharing a bit of warmth between them. āThere isnāt any reason to keep it up now if weāre both soaked. Besides, a little rain wonāt kill us.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWell, thatās true.ā Sho replied, smiling a little as he bent down to kiss Annaka on the top of her head, before they started walking down the street again, their hearts warmer than their bodies. For a few minutes, they were both quiet as they walked, enjoying each otherās company and the warmth they shared, but, after awhile, Annaka a couple of bars that Sho didnāt recognize, though they sounded playful and happy. āWhat are you humming?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOh..itās Singing in The Rain.ā Annaka replied, pausing for a moment so that she could focus more on her beloved instead of the tune racing through her head. āItās from a musical of the same name.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWell, how does it go, then?!ā Sho asked, his face lighting up like he was a little kid whoād just tasted chocolate for the first time in his life. āCāmon, you gotta sing it now! Let me hear it, Annaka!ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAlright, alright!ā Annaka laughed, putting up her free hand to stop him. āIt goes like this.ā Annaka murmured, her voice as rich and warm as melted gold, before she started to sing the opening tunes, her body swaying and her feet tapping in time with the music playing in her head, and while Sho had never head the song before, he still tried to keep up with his adorable girlfriend, smiling even when he made a mistake, since..it was impossible to hate his lack of dancing skills when Annaka the Angel was singing in all her glory.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā As Annaka moved onto the main lyrics, singing about how she was happy again, she kissed Sho on the cheek, and for once, he flushed, though he honestly wouldnāt have cared if anyone pointed it out to him. The more Annaka kept singing, the more they danced together, and while neither of them knew how to tapdance, they still tried to keep up with the song while improvising, spinning each other close and dipping the other while sharing an indulgent look, and waving goodbye to imaginary crowds the next.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā They neither noticed or cared about how cold they were as the rain drenched them. They just splashed up puddles and danced as well as they could, never letting go of each otherās hands, the biggest grins on their faces, as Annaka kept singing, with Sho joining in during the refrain. Whenever they got too close in their spinning, bouncing, dipping dance, they would just kiss each other softly on the mouth, their love warmer than a million fireplaces, and even when Annaka finished singing, the two of them kept dancing, their feet pounding away together in the rain as they laughed, simply enjoying every single solitary second they were together, each other thinking how lucky they were that the other had managed to come into their life.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā They were enjoying themselves so much that they didnāt even notice that they were near home until they were three buildings past it, which was just another reason for them to laugh together as they went back and entered the lobby of their apartment building, ignoring anyone who gave them weird looks in the elevator. Even when the elevator spat them out onto their floor, they kept dancing, finally noticing just how cold their bodies were, now that they were indoors, but ignoring it, since their spirits were still burning bright with love. Sho even picked Annaka up and spun her around for a few minutes, despite her quiet, half-protests, and while they probably should have kept things down so that they didnāt bother the neighbors, they couldnāt help but laugh, completely drunk on each other.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āSee? I always knew you could fly like an Angel.ā Sho murmured, his voice sweeter than sugared peaches on a summer evening.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOnly because of you, my love.ā Annaka replied, her voice just as honeyed as his. As they bounced over to their front door, Annaka tried to fish her keys out of her bag with her one free hand, which wasnāt easy, especially since she was still holding onto her umbrella, but neither of them was willing to let go just yet, like some magic spell would be broken if even one of their fingers slipped out of each otherās grasp. Eventually, though, Annaka managed to pull her keys out when they were just a few steps away from their door, and while Sho felt an immediate impulse to grab them and playfully toss them down the hall, he kept himself in check, despite how much he wanted this moment to last.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Even when they unlocked the door and went inside, though, they still didnāt let go of their hands. Not as Sho closed the door behind them and Annaka put the umbrella back into itās stand, not when she set her bag on top of the kitchen counter, and not even when they went into their room to fetch new, warm, cozy clothes to wear.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYou know, I probably donāt say this as much as I should,ā Sho said, setting his clothes in the corner so that he could start to undress, ābut I love you.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI love you too.ā Annaka replied, setting her clothes on top of the toilet lid. āI love you more than all the raindrops falling right now in the world.ā Once again, Shoās face flushed as he gave his love a gentle smile, softly kissing her wet lips once again before pulling back so that they could properly undress and hang their clothes up to dry. When they were buck naked, though, they helped each other dry off, pressing kisses to each otherās skin whenever they could, and even putting the otherās clothes on for them, wanting to be as close as possible, wanting to show the other just how much they loved them. If they could have melted away into one being at that moment, they would have.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā When they were finally dressed, Sho ruffled Annakaās hair, and they both went into the kitchen for some coffee before heading into the living room, setting their cups down on the table and snuggling together on the couch, watching the cold rain fall and enjoying the peaceful warmth and love of their bodies.
As promised, here is my half of the playlist/fic trade with @reallyintouglyfos ! This is probably a lot longer than you expected, but I hope you enjoy it anyway! I certainly had fun writing on it. ^^
Title: Radiation
Fandomās Involved: Overwatch
Rating: Probably a slight T, given what Moira and Kolka do to their poor test subject, but only a slight T.
Pairing(s): Kolka/Moira
Summary: In which Kolka learns about radiation and gets a small bit of affection from Moira, which is never something to take lightly.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Sometimes, if people were caught snooping around too much by Talon and they werenāt really important to their plans and the rest of society, theyād kill them and dump the body somewhere no one would ever find or make it look like an accident. However, if those caught were particularly unlucky, theyād be handed off to Moira and Kolka for experiments. Which was what had got them here-opening a box containing an unconscious Australian man whoād seen far more than he shouldāve. For once, Moira was delighted, though Kolka didnāt see anything worth laughing or grinning about.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āFinally, a good research subject! He may prove to be the first step in proving one of my hypotheses.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI donāt see why heās so important.ā Kolka grumbled, scratching her arm for a moment. āHeās a test subject, just like all the rest of them. Thereās nothing special about him.ā Which was what Kolka honestly thought with about three handfuls of jealousy mixed in. If sheād felt comfortable enough to use percentages to know how jealous she was, she might have, but she neither completely understood them nor trusted them enough to let them into the workings of her daily life.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āSometimes, what you canāt see is far more important than what you can. Australia is a hotbed of radioactivity. The place is positively swimming in it, and this man is possibly one of many whoāve been affected. I want you,ā Moira said, putting her hand on Kolkaās shoulder, a rare moment of physical contact, āto tie him down, fill two tubes of blood for me, and use whatever little poison you have to keep him quiet. I canāt think when they start screaming and yelling at us. Nothing long-lasting, though. We need him to be as fresh as possible before we start working on him.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAlright.ā Kolka replied, unsure of whether or not itād be appropriate for her to smile because of the hand still on her shoulder, even though she still didnāt like this guy that Moira was so excited about. It probably wouldnāt be, since she chose to serve her, not the other way around. Things sometimes fell apart if you told a spirit of some kind that youād help them with something in return for something else and got too chummy with them. In their minds, serving meant you werenāt allowed to be on the same plane as them, and too much joy because of one of their kindnesses sickened them, like you were a dog who wouldnāt stop barking because they were happy.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Sheād learned that when she was younger, and she got the same sort of vibe from Moira. But that didnāt mean you couldnāt ask questions. Moira might have hated it if Kolka acted like they were on the same level, like they were friends or equal partners, but she had no patience for people who didnāt try to keep up, whether they were Kolka or anyone else. āWhat is radioactivity, though?ā She asked, savoring the warmth of Moiraās hand on her shoulder, even as she kept her emotions to herself. Probably another form of magick that Moira wanted to pretend was her ridiculous āscienceā.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āRadioactivity,ā Moira replied, almost purring like a Norwegian Forest Cat, is the plural form of radiation. Because we have quite a lot of work to get done, Iāll try to make things as simple for you as I can.ā While she didnāt interrupt, Kolka wasnāt sure whether she should feel honored because Moira was trying to be considerate towards her or patronized. āBasically, radiation is the emission or transmission of energy in the form of waves or particles through space or through a physical medium. There are two types, ionizing and non-ionizing. Right now, weāre only interested in the potential of ionizing radiation, which is radiation with enough energy to strip electrons from atoms and leave them with a positive charge.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā This whole process has the added side benefit of damaging the DNA in the affected cells, especially if you were born to a person that was stuffed with radiation or lived in a radioactive environment your entire life. I hypothesize that itās easier to edit the genes of people who are heavily affected by radiation. If Iām right, perhaps humanity will finally understand that a little bit of radiation in their system is the price theyāll have to pay if they wish to take the next step in our evolution and develop bodies that are resistant to high pressure changes or ones that can change color based on a variety of factors. Thereās endless potential for mankind, if Iām right, and if weāre all bold enough to accept the conclusions and implications of our studies.ā As she spoke, her eyes practically glimmering with passion and excitement at the potential she would unfold upon the world with Kolka, Moiraās grip on Kolkaās shoulder tightened, like she subconsciously thought that Kolka was the whole world (or, at the very least, the parts of it she herself didnāt completely understand yet), and wanted to grab it at tightly as possible.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā It hurt, especially since Moiraās long, sharpened nails dug into her skin, but even though she would have liked to complain about it, there was also a part of her that was..enthralled by Moiraās burning ambition and vision, and if that meant that her joy for the both of them bubbled up in painful ways, she was..fine with that. At least, to the point where the parts of her that wanted to complain were a minority. Normally, she might have been more tempted to point out that she could already alter peopleās bodies with her magick, radiation or not, but it was rare for Moira to be this happy, even if it was because of the jerk in the box. Theyād both be the ones to reap the rewards, not him. Together. So, she just looked up at Moira with a bright smile on her face.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI think I understand, Moira! Is that why you want me to take some of his blood, so that we can test it for radiation?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āPrecisely.ā Moira hummed, letting go of Kolkaās shoulder with one last squeeze. āAnd why I want you to use short-acting poisons. Iāll be prepping in the other room. Bring the vials to me when youāre done, alright?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI will!ā Kolka called back as Moira quickly made her way to their main testing room that was packed full of equipment. Normally, Moira would just state her requests like the orders they were instead of putting a happy spin on it, and Kolka couldnāt help but take that little kernel of affection and completely warm it within her heart as she pulled the man out of the box and dragged him onto a nearby operating table before strapping him in.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAre you sure this isnāt magick?ā Kolka asked, unsure of whether or not Moira was telling the truth, as yet another pair of tiny wings emerged from the manās legs. He was practically covered in them, and there was no need for Kolka to muffle his screams with her poison anymore-what had once been his tongue had transformed into a single, soft, blue feather, though tears of agony still poured down his cheeks.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āOf course it isnāt.ā Moira happily replied, logging all her observations into her notebook. āIf thereās any miracle here, itās the miracle of science, which we both used to do this. Isnāt it wonderful?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āAbsolutely.ā Kolka whispered, her thoughts torn between rapt horror and glorious wonder. Only one thing was certain-if Moira could do this, whether she wanted to accept that it was magic or not, she was certainly at the point where she could take on a couple of lesser Gods and win. She, Kolka, was serving a God who was happy and proud of her service, and she couldnāt help but shiver with that knowledge in her belly.
When you see someone with the same fictional other in the community but you know that their shipping doesnāt mean that the F/O loves you any less and you want to bond over how amazing your mutual F/O is!!!!
Since you asked for two F/Oās, Iāll give you a list of songs that fit the two foils on my F/O list-chaos and Wilhelm! Iāll start with chaos first, and then move onto Wilhelm. ^^
It may sound odd, but I tend to associate Red Hot Chili Peppers songs withchaos, especially those on the Stadium Arcadium album. Even when the songs donātmatch up with him, they still seem to have a chaos-y vibe, like Hump de Bump. Itās weird. ><;
As for the actual Red Hot Chili Peppers songs I associate with chaos, first,thereās Dani California, which I associate with chaos singing about Maryand his relationship with her. Not that they ever both existed in the WildWest, but I think the song still fits. ^^; Plus, I think the line āWho knew theharder side of you?ā acknowledges that chaos knew that Mary wasnāt all smilesand love. There were hard parts to her, though how far you wanna take that isup to your own personal interpretation and headcanon of things.
(I like to think that she may have decided to work with Wilhelm and may havegiven the okay on any Recurrence plans or ones involving KOS-MOS for a lot ofreasons, but thatās just me. ^^; )
Second, thereās Snow ((Hey Oh)), and while not everything fits (chaoswouldnāt think that everything in the universe is solely for him to get highoff), there are a lot of things here that fit with chaos-while he does like hisalone time, if he sits alone, heāll usually be happy if someone else decides tosit with him, and itās highly probable that even if he doesnāt help the otherperson learn something about themselves, theyāll open up to him about somethingelse thatās bothering him, and heāll help them out (such was the case withAllen). And, while the other person might not know it, chaos usually learnsmore about himself because of the people around him and his experiences withthem. Both parties come and get a little known.
While chaos doesnāt want to leave before he gets his chance to help out, inways both big and small, heās..not against sacrificing his existence if itmeans buying his friends and the Lower Domain a little more time to rightthings. Hell, if just getting rid of him, and, by extension, the Failsafe,would fix everything, heād do it in a heartbeat. The only problem is that itwonāt. chaos is always witnessing wondrous events, whether they be because ofhim or not, and heās good at going through the years and passing throughwithout giving out much personal information about himself.
The third is Charlie, and while Iāll admit itās mostly because of thechorus and the extra part added to it in the middle and the end, there areother things that fit chaos there, even if theyāre more abstract. When chaosāshas gotten the scent of a big plot, a missing piece in the story, or a place orperson heās gotta meet and starts really acting and moving, you should probablyget out of the way. Doubly so if his friends are with him or involved, sinceheāll share the information with them, and decided to tag along for variousreasons.
Heck, the whole reason he ever got involved with Captain Matthews, Tony, andHammer, was because he was working with the Foundation to bust some of theantics the U-TIC was up to (at least, so long as memory serves me.). And ifMary was still alive, heād still want to run with her, even though heās happywith the people heās with. Getting a message off his fists is pretty literal, since,whatever message he might like to transmit, he will fight people to protect thepeople he cares about and to get through to other people, if they need it. Hemight use his powers a lot, but heās not above just using his fists to punchpeople.
Finally, on the non-Red Hot Chili Peppers side of things, thereās Nature Boy by Nat King Cole. The lyricsfit chaos to a t, along with most of his interactions with people, be theypeople he knows or not, and heād like people to connect positively to oneanother. Love is important to him, whether itās romantic or not. Plus, heādenjoy the mellow music, even if he doesnāt like being called a boy (when youāresix thousand years old, āboyā is no longer an accurate description of you.).
Not everything in All This Time byJonathan Coulton fits, but a good chunk of it covers chaosās work onboard theElsa, his dealings with his friends (I personally think that the āfriendliermachineā is KOS-MOS, if weāre looking at this song from a Xenosaga aspect), hisworries and doubts, the secrets and information heās keeping to himself, andhis desire to not take the Eternal Recurrence, even if he wants humanity todecide for itself what to do.
Also by Jonathan Coulton is SolidState! While not everything there completely fits chaos, you can still seesome of his guilt in there, and his opinion that things are better being alittle chaotic. A few lines also seem like theyāre comments to Wilhelm andadvice to his friends (āWho it hurts and how it ends, how far it goes, it alldepends on you.ā). And, finally, it shows that, even if chaos and his friendsplans and hopes come down to the wire, he thinks that said plans and hopes arebetter than a sold, recurring state of things.
And for the one Japanese song on chaosās list, we have..How Did This Happen? by Udongerge. Iāll admit, itās a weird littlesong, and the translation thatās up on Youtube for it isnāt great, but I stillthink it fits Xenosaga, and chaos. Specifically, the way chaosās past willcatch up with him someday, whether he likes it or not, how heās enigmatic, evenas things deteriorate, and his personal uncertainty. I also made a parody songabout chaos using this one, so I canāt just take it off my chaos playlist. ^^;
And with that, chaos is done, so Iāll move onto Wilhelm. Wilhelm has asimilar situation with chaos-a lot of what I hear from one artist makes methink of him, even if not everything from that artist fits. In this case, saidartist is Jonathan Coulton!
I know, two Coulton songs are on chaosās playlist already. I didnāt plan forthat. Make whatever connections you want outta that. ^^;
The first Coulton song that fits him is Nemeses, even though it seems to be sungfrom chaosās perspective about Wilhelm. While not everything fits, I stillthink it covers Wilhelmās character pretty well, since..once you start toreally dig into Wilhelmās character and understand him, I think youāll see thatnot only does he care for chaos in his own, twisted way, he probably saw therejection of the Eternal Recurrence coming, even though he kept playing the badguy, since..having an all-seeing Compass of Chaos and Order doesnāt make muchsense if it canāt even see the outcome of your supposedly evil plot. If thatmakes any sense. ><;
Second is TheWorld Belongs to You, which is another song sung from chaosās perspective,and again, while not everything fits (Angelās never spoke Wilhelmās name, andhe doesnāt put the gravity in the ground), he does have a plan for pretty mucheverything and everyone in his universe. Wilhelm dances organizations andpolitical groups around like theyāre nothing more than balls heās juggling. Andif you replace āAngelsā with āTestamentsā later in the song, I can guaranteeyou that Virgil has probably rolled his eyes at Wilhelm at least three times.
Third is NobodyLoves You Like Me, which is actually sung from Wilhelmās perspective, evenif it is directed at chaos. Again, not everything fits (Wilhelm doesnāt die forgood in canon, and certainly not from throwing himself in front of a car, orinvolving any method with a huge amount of blood), but there are a ton of linesdirected at chaos that fit him (āI wonāt sign a thing, or else if I do, Iālluse a pencil and thatāll show you, how nothing lasts, how nothing is free.ā& āMissing someone, now who could it be?ā Which is fucking sadistic, sinceWilhelm knows good goddamn well who chaos misses, but thatās how Wilhelm rolls,for better or worse. ><; )
Also, if Wilhelm were to be genuinely honest withchaos and everyone else, I believe he would say that he shouldnāt stay-atleast, not after humanity rejects his Recurrence. Itās not good for them orchaos, and itās not much better for him, either, though I donāt doubt that heādbe watching in the shadows for a few reasons. And if you think that Wilhelm hasnever had a few solo drinking sessions as he thought about the past and hisrelationship with chaos, Mary, and everyone else from Lost Jerusalem, then youāreprobably mistaken. What good is all the wine in his room if he never drinks it?
Fourth is ThereYou Are, which I view to be snippets of Wilhelmās consciousness afterhumanity rejects the Recurrence and his physical form fades away, leaving him asmaller player and more of a bystander. As far as Wilhelm songs go, thereāsactually a pretty positive line in there (at least, pretty positive forWilhelm) that I think would mostly fit Wilhelmās thoughts regarding humanityāsprogress after the Recurrence Rejection-āThe views improve several times a day.ā.
Fifth isā¦StillAlive. Look, I know it sounds like Iām joking, and there are lines andparts that donāt completely fit, but I think it captures Wilhelmās joy at thefact that humanity rejected his Recurrence, some of his thoughts regardingtheir long journeys, and the fact that Wilhelm is still alive at the end of thegame, even if he no longer has a physical body. Thereās also some advice fromhim. Plus, I used this song for a parody song about Wilhelm, so itās not comingoff my Wilhelm playlist anytime soon. ><;;
Sixth is WantYou Gone, and while thereās even more here that doesnāt fit Wilhelm, Istill think of him whenever I hear this song, since he is counting on humanitytaking their freedom and going out on their own, for better or worse. Plus, theline āShe was a lot like youā could be directed at Nephilim about Mary, eventhough heād never make a fat joke about either one of them. This is anothersong that I used for a parody song regarding Wilhelm, so itās not leaving hisplaylist anytime soon either. ><;
And with that, weāre finally done with the Coultonsongs! But that doesnāt mean those are the only songs that I think fit withWilhelm.
I think History Repeating by Shirley Bassey fitsWilhelm for obvious reasons. But those are pretty much all the songs Iassociate with both Wilhem and chaos! :3
I honestly donāt have much in the way of songs for Ryoga, since I havenāt been really into Ranma Ā½ for awhile. ><; But, heās there, since, if I absolutely loved him when I was really into it, and if I ever get into it again, I know that wonāt change. ^^;
That said, though, thereās a song called Disoriented Girl which is sung by Hatsune Miku that I think fits Ryoga, since..the song is about being lost, and being able to find your destination, despite all the difficulties. Sound familiar? xD;
On the more romantic side of things, while we donāt live in a pastoral setting, and while Ryoga probably wouldnāt leave me for years without trying to send me a message, and while I would neither stop him from trying to go out on his own or not go with him, if he was heading out to someplace or going to do something I was interested in, I think Ripen, Fruitless Flower by Furu is a good song for our relationship. ^^; Whenever Iām at home, and heās out, I know heāll come back someday, and traces of him will always remain with me.
Oh, man. xD; I apologize in advance, because this is gonna be a long, long list. Iāll list the ones in English first before I start throwing the ones in Japanese at you. ^^;
First, I associate Carry That Weight by The Beatles with him, since, not only does he always carry the weight of his emotional pains, doubt, and guilt (so much guilt), but, because of his immortality, itās hard for him to emotionally cope with being in a romantic relationship with mortals. However, it does sound like the song mentions a wedding (at least, to me) at some point, which highlights the fact that, even though emotional relationships with mortals are painful for him, he cannot close his heart off. This man is a Golden Retriever in human form, as much as it hurts him.
Even though Iām not as fond of it as I once was, The Cave by Mumford and Sons fits him too. Most of the lyrics sound like theyāre either talking about him or like they could be sung by him, regarding his long search for the Grigori and his fights with them after (and his sympathy towards them, because this man fucking empathizes with everything and everyone.).
One of my friends who brilliantly RPās Enoch pointed out that Feel by Robbie Williams fits Enoch perfectly, and Iād have to agree with her. Itās pretty much full-blast Enoch-the conflict with his immortality, since, while it might be necessary for him to have it so that he can find the Tower, he was never told heād been gifted it, and to an emotional, empathetic man like Enoch who needs connections, Human or not, that hurts. The negative feelings he has toward God and Heaven (even if he never wants to acknowledge them or talk about them, theyāre there. Never doubt that he doesnāt feel some anger about the way he was treated.).
And even the way his āhead speaks a language he doesnāt understandā, that he ādoesnāt want to die, but isnāt keen on living eitherā. Enochās definitely suffering from some form of trauma, and that kind of manifests towards..a form of self-destruction? He wonāt actively poison or harm himself, but itās gotten to the point where he will corrupt himself in order to save a sheep without thinking about it. Part of that is the empathy, but..thereās no denying that everything heās done and dealt with has affected him.
Others may think this is weird, but I always associate O Do Not Forsake Me by They Might Be Giants with Enoch. Not that Enochās a thousand years old (heās three hundred years old), but..I think this really links up with his desolation really well. And he did first have misbegotten notions about Heaven when he first arrived, if you want to stretch it even further. But to me, this is an Enoch song.
On the flip side, it might be a bit too cliche that I associate Run Boy Run by Woodkid with Enoch, but I canāt help it. Itās another song talking about the frenzy of Enochās search (and Azazel and his minions were after him while he searched), so itās on my Enoch playlist.
And then thereās Tainted Love by Soft Cell, which I partially associate with Enochās relationship with Lucifel. Not that the lyrics all fit (Enoch didnāt like Lucifel in the beginning, but absolutely depends upon him at the end of the game), but I think the lyrics ādonāt touch me please, I cannot stand the way you tease! I love you, though you hurt me so.ā fit, since..Lucifel is a massive troll, and for much of the series, heās a huge asshole because of various character reasons. But that doesnāt change the fact that he was kind of a dick to Enoch in the beginning, and Enoch didnāt exactly take to him immediately either, so, this song is for him.
Walkinā on The Sun by Smash Mouth probably seems like a joke song that doesnāt fit, and I will admit that the association first came because of an RP where Enoch was one of the leaders of a rebellion, but Enoch is the type who wants the world to sing in perfect harmony and peace, toke or not, and I think the chorus fits too, with or without the RP. Act with peace, and good things may come, but if the offerās shunned..
What may be even weirder is She Came in Through The Bathroom Window by The Beatles. Itās half a Nanna song, but there are parts that sound like theyāre being sung by Enoch regarding Nanna and his encounters with her (āand though she thought I knew the answer, well I knew, but I could not sayā & āand though she tried her best to help me, she could steal, but she could not robā). So Iām putting it down here too.And now for all the Japanese songs! ^^; If you havenāt already run away by this point.
There are parts of Antichlorobenzene by Owata that donāt fit (Enoch isnāt the type to drown himself in self-satisfaction, he doesnāt think heās always right, and heād like to heal corruption more than heād like to crush it), but this song fits Enochās feelings before Lucifel shatters him-his hatred that this canāt be changed, even though he wants to change it more than anything else in the world, some of his feelings about the fact that Lucifel Fell, and his tendency to just..let go and give up when heās on the brink of death, especially when heās fighting someone he especially cares about. Heād let himself die rather than kill the other person himself. Iām not sure heād ever recover from that. So this is on his playlist.
Arachnoid by psycho can be seen as a song half-sung by Enoch and half-sung by Lucifel as he tries to help him and cheer him on. Itās another traveling song (THREE HUNDRED YEARS IS A LOT, OKAY? THEREāS PLENTY OF TIME TO GET SONGS IN THERE THAT FIT THE SEARCH), but it hits Enochās loneliness, his despair, and his doubt (āIf you refuse to give up, and keep on going,Will you someday be rewarded? I ask myself..ā). No negative emotions towards Heaven, indeed.
This is kind of more Lucifelās song, since his heart literally does leave him during his battle with Enoch, but there are still lyrics in Bad Apple by Shadow Play and nomico that fit his exhaustion, his wondering about the future, and more of his mental issues. You can probably see some doubt in there too, if you squint.
Black Board by by Chouchou has chunks that both donāt match up withEnoch and fit Lucifel more, since I view it as more a song about theirrelationship, but there are still lyrics that fit with Enochās desires andissues-his desire to embrace Lucifel, the way heās so touchstarved that thesensation of Lucifelās fingers on his cheeks wonāt go away (and he probablydoesnāt want them to), and the fact that his feelings, positive and negative,are unwavering
ā¦Putting Black Rock Shooter by Ryo here is probablya bit cringey, especially since itās been ages since Iāve actually listened tothe song, and while Enochās feelings upon meeting Armaros are more strained andregretful than anything else, I imagine that he did want to meet him and changehis mind, despite his long, painful search.
There are large chunks of A Born Coward by 164 thatdonāt match up with Enochās feelings or story, but I still associate it withhim. Half because I was really into writing parody lyrics awhile ago and wroteone based on this song revolving around Enochās and Armarosās relationship, andhalf because there are parts that fit with him-the way he initially denies thatheās Armarosās friend when heās getting close to facing him, and the way heādprobably like to toss his love of him away, given what he has to do to him,but..just canāt. Armaros is his friend, to the point where they used to spartogether for fun in Heaven.
Eastern Observation Log by Kotsuban also hasfeelings and lyrics that donāt match up with Enoch, but I kind of associate itwith a traveling song, so, by extension, itās another song about the search.But there are still things one can tie back to Enoch-his love of learning, thefact that his legs will carry him to his destination, despite everything, and,if you want to be technical, he is walking to the ends of our world.
Once again, From Y to Y by JimmyThumb has parts thatdonāt match up with Enoch (heād never pretend that he hated being too happy),but I still think the song matches up with his and Armarosās relationship.Armaros Fell without warning him that he was thinking about doing so, Enochāsvision for his future has been forever altered, and probably for the worst,given everything he does and goes through, the time does stretch on far toolong for Enochās tastes, he does have regrets, even though theyāre not aboutgetting close towards Armaros, and they canāt turn back from their choices,even though Enoch wishes they could be on the same side again.
Iām Only Just Getting Started by Nashimoto isanother song thatās more Lucifelās, but there are some lyrics that can match upwith Enoch too-parts of it seem to be sung at those who disbelieve Enochās taleabout the Tower and try to kill him when he claims to be immortal, and āIāll gooutā¦ Iāll walk through townā¦ Itās so very painfulā¦ But Iāll go, to meetyouā¦ā fits with part of his emotions during the search perfectly.
While thereās a line or two that doesnāt quite fit(Enoch would always try to pick up fallen petals, heād never think it wasuseless), Just Be Friends by Dixie Flatline seem to fit Enochās feelingstowards Lucifel during their battle perfectly. He hates it, it makes him screamand cry in vain, and he still loves Lucifel, but thereās no changing things.
Unless I can find some way to stop it, but Iālladmit that that just might lead to a different kind of tragedy. xD;;
While there are parts of Left Behind City by 40meterthat donāt completely match up either (Enoch would always want the truth whenand wherever possible, and heās always up for love, even if love from mortalsis harder for and on him than love from immortals), I think this song can stillbe considered an Enoch one. It hits the fact that Enoch feels like heās beingleft behind by mortals, the fact that he has to lie about his identity duringthe search to protect himself and others, that time is slipping away from him,and that heās so lonely. He just wants Lucifel by his side, and if there wereother immortals accompanying him, he wouldnāt want them to leave him either.
While Love and Destroy by MI8K fits Lucifel more, Ithink it can be equally applied to Enoch, even if there are some lyrics andemotions in there that donāt match up (There were a lot of things that madeEnoch falter, even if they didnāt stop him). He hated the gift of immortalitythat Heaven granted him, once the Grigori Fell, it was pretty much a guaranteethat Enoch would go after them, given the alternative, Enoch yearns for loveand hates himself for what he does in the Tower, even if it is necessary, andboth Enoch and Lucifel hated it when they had to fight each other. Thereās nodoubt that Enoch blames himself for a lot that happened in his story, whetherit was his fault or not, whether he could do anything about it or not.
Mad Head Love by Hachi fits Enochās and Lucifelāsrelationship and, in my mind, seems to be sung from a point where theyāre bothon the run from God together. Not that itās just about that, of course-thereāsregret and pain concerning the day Lucifel Fell and Enoch had to leave Ishtarand the fact that Enoch, as long-lived as he is, really canāt remember much, ifanything, of his life before he met Lucifel.
Once again, while there are some lyrics that donātquite fit Enoch in Night Walker by Ramune and Murabito, most of it still seemsto fit his emotions during the search, and it touches on something I havenāttalked about yet! Enoch is as stubborn as a mule. He wonāt even listen toLucifel sometimes if heās determined to try things his way for a betteroutcome, or for whatever reason, and Lucifel is one of the dearest people inhis heart.
While Pane Dhiria by Shinjou isnāt quite accurate inthe fact that Enoch didnāt play any music or sing to appease God, I think itstill fits Enochās climb up to Heaven, his quest to save the world, and the(temporary) outcomes of that.
While Enoch isnāt A Person Who Makes Stars (whetheritās by Mazo or not), the song still covers some of Enochās feelings during thesearch-the need for his rests, even though they took more time, the fact thatheād keep going, despite his own pain and guilt, and the cry āI once existedhereā fits him perfectly. Heād hope beyond hope that people remembered him,even if they left him, and even if their memories were bittersweet.
Good chunks of Ready, Steady, Go! by L`Arc En Ciel donātfit Enoch, but there are a few chunks of lyrics that connect with his feelingsduring the search. For example:
āAlthough I may clutch countless scars
I wonāt allow my spirit to be taken so easily
If I were to run into you on the other side of thathill
The only thing I can think about is āWhat would Isay first?āā. Itās a small reason to, but I still count it as an Enoch song.
Not only does Rolling Girl by wowaka fit Enoch andhis feelings during the search, it also partially includes his catchphrase inthe lyrics! Said catchphrase being āNo problem, everythingās fine.ā. Which heuses both when heās being sincere and when heās trying to fool others that heāsfine or-I imagine-get through some negative emotions. Fun fact, thereās anotherpart of that catchphrase that was never officially translated, which is, āAllwill be as God commands..ā, which not only deals with his piety, but..some ofhis baggage with God? I think? Since the line reads in my head as a dullmonotone as one whoās resigned to the situation.
While not everything fits, I think Strangers byHeavenz fits Enochās time in Heaven-the expectations that were upon him, hisfeelings of being a confused outsider, his negative experiences with Lucifeland the other Angels-and the way he bonded with Armaros, who was a much-neededfriend for him in Heaven.
Iāll admit, Ten-Faced by YM is only on my Enochplaylist because of all the multiple, fake identities he went under during hissearch. Thatās it. ><;
Threadnation by EZFG, however, fits with Enoch evenmore. It covers his doubt, his mental issues, his negative feelings towardsGod, and his determination, for better or worse. Also, the line āWhile I doubt,I still believeā fits Enoch perfectly.
If you were to make The Transient Apple Salesgirl byyukkedoluce into a tale of an immortal living in a mortalās world, instead ofthe other way around, this would fit Enoch a bit more. This is another song Iused to make parody lyrics out of, so itās still on my Enoch playlist, even ifEnoch never once went around selling apples. (Fun fact! The reason we all associateapples with sin and the fruit from the garden of Eden is because, in Latin, theword for apple and the word for sin are either similar or the same, so paintersused the apple in their paintings as a metaphor for sin and to show that Adamand Eve were doing something terrible. If you actually look at the Bible, thefruit isnāt actually described, and if you look at the actual Book of Enoch, itāsdescribed as being like clusters of grapes, which amuses me to no end.)
While some of Unhappy Refrain by wowaka doesnāt fit,it does seem to be that Lucifel could be singing some of the lyrics, and othersare Enoch singing right back at him. It covers Enochās mental issues, hisexhaustion, his hatred of violence, even if he has to fight, his feelings ofwasted time at the beginning of his search, and how he doesnāt really findmuch, if anything, about his quest worth celebrating or being happy about.
While Waltz Of Anomalies by Hoehoe looks like itwouldnāt fit at first glance, I donāt doubt that Enoch would be pissed atLucifel once he learned how Lucifel betrayed Armaros, and while not everythingin the song matches up, it does touch on Enochās almost reverent love ofLucifel, his self-worth, the fact that heās a people-pleaser, and, yet again,his exhaustion.
Not everything fits in Worldās End Dance Hall bywowaka either, but I still view it as a song about Enochās relationship withLucifel, his unhappy feelings towards the whole situation heās in, and, ofcourse, the long march to the Tower. This is yet another song I used for parodylyrics, so I just canāt remove it from my Enoch playlist. ><;
While not everything in 1925 by T-POCKET fits Enoch,I still think it fits wonderfully with Enochās feelings during the search,other peopleās reactions to him, his possible feelings towards the Grigori, anda few comments from Lucifel. Because Lucifel can never keep his fucking fingersout of anything. ><;
And, finally, thereās 3331 by Hoehoe. Once again, itdoesnāt quite fit, but I still think itās another song that captures Enochāsfeelings about the search, the fact that he truly has no idea what to do withhimself once his quest is over and done with, and his loneliness (āPlease, anyonewill do, just be gentle, Try not to misunderstand meā are lyrics thatdefinitely fit Enoch.).
Send me a ā« and Iāll tell you what songs I associate with one of my F/Oās! If you want a specific F/O or all of them (I canāt control what you all want to do), just mention it in the ask, and youāll get them!
Iām absolutely terrible at drawing, but as I was wandering around tonight, watching the fireworks with Light Lag by DECO*27 stuck in my head, singing along to it, I just felt compelled to draw a picture of chaos and I watching the fireworks together. And this is what came of it.
There are a lot of things that donāt look right and didnāt work out here (our hands, the color testing corner in the left, the fact that I completely forgot to color in my feet, chaosās gloves and crop top, the fact that my bald head looks off, and the bits of white light mixed in with the red), but..oddly enough, Iām happy with how this came out. I think itās just like Light Lag-once that big ball explodes in the sky, nothing else matters, because we come together even more.
Plus, it feels good to have drawn something. Itās been awhile, and itās been literal years since Iāve put a drawing up online. So this is nice. Tonight had itās bumps, but..things came through and worked out.
ā *nervous* - Claire "Lightning" Farron from Final Fantasy XIII, if it isn't too difficult. I love her so much...
My Dear,
Iām not very good at writing in general, nevermind love letters. But I heard through the grapevine that you wanted one, so Iāll try to convey my feelings for you as best I can. I think Iāve had enough lessons on the negative consequences of being towards the people you care about, accidental or not.
My situation being what it was, I was never very good at opening up to people or making connections with them, even after I graduated high school and joined the Guardian Corps. I lost sight of a lot of things then, which just made things worse. And, if you want me to be honest with you, I truly couldnāt have cared less about you when you first decided to join our ridiculous party. Not that I had any huge positive feelings towards anyone else in the group either, if that makes you feel any better.
I had no idea who you were or what your fighting experience was, so, in my mind, you were no better than Hope-a little kid following me around and forcing me to play babysitter as he slows me down from my objective. But, since you never slept very well, and it took me awhile to actually feel tired enough to sleep at night, youād bug me for answers regarding our current predicament, Hopeās past and mine, and the reason I hated Snow so much, since you didnāt seem to think he was annoying, reckless, and unreliable.
At the time, I hated telling my tale to you. I didnāt want to be a babysitter who also had to give you, a grown man, a bedtime story (I think I made a snide joke about that once or twice while we were heading to Eden). I didnāt think there was any reason to tell dead weight stuff that didnāt really concern them either. But..Iāve been meaning to thank you for being so stubborn about getting all the details of my past.
I donāt think I was quite ready for it at the time, but I donāt doubt that you forcing me to go over my own life and the emotional states and thoughts of mind I was in back then helped me understand my feelings of anger, sorrow, and betrayal towards the FalāCie. And for that, I canāt thank you enough, even though you were kind enough to just shrug off your part in the matter the first time I thanked you by saying it came about just because of your own curiosity instead of pure kindness, though you were happy to help.
So..once again, thank you. Iām always happy to bug you in return about your life story, and Serah seems to like you, which is always a good mark in my book these days. Youāre the only one besides her whoās allowed to call me by my real name (but not in public).
So, Iāve been writing a lot of love letters for a lot of people now. So, I thought Iād start taking writing commissions for people who want longer self-shipping pieces, or just good fanfiction in general. If you want examples of my work, they can be found all along my blog. If youāre having trouble finding anything, just let me know, and Iāll link you to a couple of pieces. @shiros-cute-kitten since she wanted to know about this when it went up.
The Rules:
I reserve the right to refuse to write a story for whatever reason.
While I am open to writing NSFW stories, Iām not interested in writing stories that involve watersports, heavy amounts of gore/blood, bestiality, gangbangs, or pedophilia. While Iām open to writing a large variety of kinks, I will not write for those or for any others that make me feel uncomfortable.
The rate is $10.00 per every 1000 words. If youāre interested in commissioning something, please fill out the form below and send it to my email, [email protected]. Once I accept it, please send your payment through Paypal to [email protected]. Iāll send you a message estimating how long your commission will take once I accept it. However, if some major emergency crops up (ex: going to the hospital), I will let you know about it ASAP and give you a new time estimate. Also, if youāre fine with me posting your commissions online so that others can see them, please let me know!
If you have any questions or comments, please send me an ask, and Iāll try to get back to you as quick as I can.
The Form:
Story type: (Original/Fanfiction, since I will write for people who ship themselves with their original characters.)
Length: (How many words you want.)
Fandom(s): (This is N/A if youāre commissioning an original story. If you want me to write a crossover with f/oās from multiple fandoms, please list all the fandoms you want me to include here. If you want me to write an alternate universe story, please list that here too!)
Characters: (If you want me to write about your original character(s), please send me enough info about them to write a decent story. It would be terrible if I got something about their backstory wrong or wrote them out of character.)
Genre: (What kind of story you want. For example, if you want a fantasy story, this is where you put that information.)
Plot: (If you have some idea of what the plot should be about for your story, please put it here! A few lines are better than nothing.)
What Iāll Write For:
The list for what Iāll write for is down below! If you have trouble accessing it for any reason, please let me know.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/17VQgb08dTXgLNZWsIlmtJUDpkpOcnwiD-DmgWoCKtow/edit
Addendum: If a canon that you want me to write for is not on the list, feel free to message me about it. If itās a short canon, or if the character you want me to write for has scenes or a route that could easily be fit onto a short playlist and watched, Iāll probably still accept your commission, so long as you accept a longer time deadline than I might normally give. However, this is not always a guarantee: please refer to rule one,
And thatās it! Iād appreciate any and all offers going my way, and even if you canāt commission me, I hope you have a good day!
""ā if that's okay!! My f/o is Keith from voltron (the new season destroyed me hh) and it'd be really nice to get a letter from him! Tysm!!! (my name is Michael btw, the "Micholas" on my blog is a joke)""
(Sorry about the silence! My writing drive just died on me for awhile there. ><; But here, at long last, is your love letter from Keith.)Michael,We probably look the long way around, but I guess we both finally got where we needed to be, didnāt we? I donāt know about you, but Iām pretty sure that I couldnāt have done any of this without your support. Itās honestly surprising that you decided to stick with me for this long. I know I was pretty cold and distant with you sometimes, even if we agreed on the same things sometimes, and even if you did kick ass in battle.
But, I gotta admit, you made me laugh more than I ever thought you could. And when I learned that I was part Galra, you just smiled like Iād told you a restaurant was closed and said,
āThatās fine. Thereās nothing wrong with that. Youāre still you, Keith. Being part Galra doesnāt make you any less awesome in my book.ā I hope you know that there were few people who actually thought like you at the time (myself included), and how much it meant to me that you honestly didnāt mind. And when I had to take off and do my own thing, you gave me the biggest hug with that goofy smile of yours and wished me good luck.
āWhenever you come back, Iāll be here, waiting for you.ā I wanted to make a crappy joke about one of us dying, but I couldnāt really handle the idea of you dying on top of everything else, and I didnāt want to make you sad before I left. So, I just told you that you didnāt have to wait. Wherever you go, Iāll find you, remember?
And now..here we are. It looks like youāve managed to calm down a little bit. You seem a bit more chipper than you were when I first met you. And I feel like I can deal with the universe on my shoulders without losing myself in the battles or distrusting people automatically. And I have you to thank for that. Your goofy jokes and grins, along with your earnest kindness helped me more than youāll ever know. At the very least, if I didnāt butt heads with you back then and try to work with you, Iām sure Iād be scrambling now.
Okay then, Can I request a letter from the Warrior of Light from Final fantasy Dissidia? ( If it's no bother)
(Iām sorry about the late response! My writing drive just tanked on me, but here, at long last, is your love letter from the Warrior of Light.)
My love,
I first have to admit that Iām not completely used to writing letters. There usually isnāt a need for me to write much of anything down. While writing and archiving are noble pursuits, we both know that Iām neither of those. Iām a warrior for Kosmos. Nevertheless, I shall do my best to convey my feelings for you.When you first arrived here, I was impressed by how calm you were, like you had always suspected that, someday, you would be pulled from your own world to fight somebody elseās battle, even if said battle is important to all of us who cherish peace and order.
Your cool head not only managed to help you and others in the heat of battle, but everyone else was less likely to panic and worry whenever you were around. I both admired you and felt grateful towards you for that, since, as you may have noticed, I donāt have the best people skills. I donāt often deal with people popping in and out of my world.
I honestly donāt know why you were interested to hear of my history, since itās not that important to me, but Iāll never forget what you said after I told you that were couldnāt focus on it at the moment, since there were more pressing matters to attend to (Kosmos was about to flicker out forever there, remember?).
āThen Iāll just wait until all this fighting is over with. Iām not leaving until I learn every single thing about you!ā You said that with a smile, as if you truly didnāt care about going home and seeing your family and loved ones, like you would have been engulfed with rage if you were accidentally sent back at the end. At that moment, I think I became as curious about you as you were of me. What kind of person would be happy to do such a thing? A kind, wonderful person, of course, but I donāt believe ordinary kindness would have pushed most people that far.
And that, coupled with your wonderful laugh, your ridiculous jokes,and your warm personality (I think one can have a cool head and a warm personality) made me feel like I would genuinely grieve for ten years if you were to perish in this conflict, as unlikely as that outcome logically seemed. So, after that, I became a Warrior of Kosmos and yourself. I refuse to let you die in this battle. And I know that, in one way or another, I care about you. I love you.Sincerely,
āļø My tag is #my f/os on my blog, could you choose anyone from there please?? (You may need to scroll a bit!) I hope Iām doing this right!! (Thank you so so much ahhh) -@saturngoat
Dearest Cass,I must admit that Iām at a bit of a loss as to how to properly convey the feelings I wish to share with you. If you were to ask me to show you how much I cared for you, I could easily do that. Chilled glasses of plum wine for us both to drink as we lay in the grass and admired the stars glimmering alongside the full moon, both trying to compete with the other. A colorful sea of fireworks during a hot, humid, and yet, still wonderful summer night as we held each otherās sweaty hands. A chain of letters, with all but the first one hidden, in wonderful, secret places guaranteed to full up your memories, all with little gifts inside, leading you to me, where I would confess that, yes, I was your secret admirer, the one whoās heart you so skillfully stole!I could think of a thousand gestures that showed my feelings for you. But..you wanted a love letter so that you could always remember what my feelings were for you at this particular moment, in my own words. And so..I shall try to tell you what my feelings are for you (though I have to apologize in advance for my blunt way of describing and phrasing my emotions. Much as I loathe to admit it, Genji is far better at these things than I am).
I love you, my dear. Youāre headstrong and kind..like an Oracle born from the ocean to tame the sea serpents that lurk beneath the waves. You certainly have the strength of the sea, to keep fighting alongside us and not complain. I donāt understand what it was that drew you to me, but, whatever it was, Iām glad that you decided to stay by my side, come hell or high water.
You didnāt put up with my cold manners, my aloofness towards other people. While McCree might have been warm and kind, hoping to coax me out of my shell and bad habits, you sought to draw me out of there, shooting and screaming if you had to. I think I did threaten you a couple of times (which seems ridiculous now, looking back on it), and each time, you refused to back down, to leave me to my solitude, since you said you were curious about me. For some reason, you said that you wanted to be my friend, and that..that always stayed my hand, no matter how enraged I was before.The mere fact that there was someone else out there who stubbornly wanted to connect with me and did not care if they got shot in their ass was enough to make me pause, even if I could not fully digest that knowledge and all that it meant until later.When I got drunk in front of you and bemoaned some of my decisions, my guilt and regrets, you were warm and kind, and yet, firm with me. You held me and said that there was still hope for me, that there was still a future and time for me to redeem myself and fend off my guilt, but you did not say that I had not done anything wrong. You didnāt try to pretend that my conscious was clean, and I respected you for it, both when I was drunk and when I was sober.And before I knew it (and much to the amusement of Genji and Zenyatta, Iām sure), that respect that become a foundation for the love I hold for you now. Somewhere, in between all of your wonderful, dry jokes, your excellent marksmanship and sparring abilities, and the way you try to recite poetry whenever a certain feeling strikes you, all with a warm, otherworldly look on your face, I fell in love with you, my Oracle. My little wave.Love,Hanzo.
