I am reviving a part of me
A part of me that was so sad and so honest. So angsty and angry. Frustrated I was and continue to be but i just ended up getting so much better at it.
hardened a part of myself. i let the calluses build up to the point of numbness. but i no longer want to be numb. i need to reassess and re-access that ... that far gone part of myself
this self confidence was warranted. i worked hard for this shit but i need to work hard for myself in another sense. in one that makes me feel somewhat accountable and also...
creative and alive. i will slowly be building myself up while looking back at my past, my past self/selves to where i am now.
what do i anticipate for myself? i don't fucking know. but i do know?
ugh.
this is just night 1 of my notes to myself.
xoxo
12/17/2024
