a rogue!

cailen - law student - 22 - she :)

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Vegetables With Glamour From the 1958 "wonderful ways with soups...from Campbell's" Cookbook

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affirmations they will not kill me at work today. it is not in my job description to get killed. if they did kill me at work that would be weird and probably not worth it for them

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Detail of vault with flowers and birds, Archiepiscopal Palace Chapel (interior), mosaic, c. 494-519, Palazzo arcivescovile di Ravenna (Ravenna, Italy) (JSTOR)

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This may be my favourite Gerard Donelan comic :p

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tmu (t)girls: very fish, extremely unemployed, rave frequenters

uoft girls: poorly socialized, autistic, anime fans - probably in cs

mcgill girls: sort of alternative, going to be unemployed but doing a humanities phd first

york girls: ?? more information required

uottawa girls: just lovely and normal ime

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pulled in front of a car at a red light at bay/college the other day and the driver did a double take when he saw me because I was a) on a bike b) a tranny.... call that intersectionality

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happy Mother’s Day to these two queens

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THE FRENCH FUJOSHI: and you will put ze tips of your penise togezher, oui? and you will insert yourself into 'iz boyhole, oui?

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it's been such a weird week

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Aughhh. April is the cruelest month. I think I maybe have failed out of law school? Unclear - I don't think there's anything meaningful or poetic about having run out of time on exams. It's not although it's some deep trauma that, if I caused it, I only did so subconsciously - there were some issues with my studying, I got anxious and didn't perform, and so on. I guess I don't know for sure that I've done poorly and maybe that's why it hasn't set in yet. But it's also got me thinking about if this has been the right decision. I mean, I love my friends, and I find the law to be really interesting, but with respect to MG I do not want to be a HR representative for a circus company.

It feels like everything has just gone wrong. I can rationalize it all post facto but so many of the things I cared about and worked for have slipped through my fingers. When it's all of them, it's easy to start to think that it's my fault. I think maybe it is - maybe I'm just not diligent enough, or just not smart enough. If it's the latter - I guess I'm fine with that, nothing I can do, I just have to start getting used to it.

It's so obvious in retrospect but I think when I was younger I tried so hard to be quirky/exceptional/did so many different things because I couldn't really handle fully committing myself to the vulnerability of investing. That sounds so cringe and therapy speak-y, but it's true. And so this year I said I'll commit - I rejected the MSW, I stopped doing politics. I was really proud of that! But maybe this big psychological breakthrough was a mistake, and there's actually an advantage to protecting yourself, especially when you're someone like me.

I don't really know what to do now, academically and in terms of like. How to cope for the next 20 days until grades come out. And like, yeah, whatever, it's not the end of the world to get below average to average grades at the best law school in the country, and I'm not even sure how I did yet. But I feel like so much of my justification for law school and sense of self was based on maybe being good at this. It sucks that the first thing I think I really locked in fully on was such a disappointment. I still have constitutional in (exactly) 48 hours but like. bruh. Maybe the doing poorly on property would be okay but I just cannot get over how I bungled crim.

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Never mind we're so back. Had a nice dinner with K and her boyfriend last night and my husband and maybe partners are picking me up from my constitutional exam :))

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Something so thrilling about texting my husband when he's in the next room... like omg we're long-distance

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Aughhh. April is the cruelest month. I think I maybe have failed out of law school? Unclear - I don't think there's anything meaningful or poetic about having run out of time on exams. It's not although it's some deep trauma that, if I caused it, I only did so subconsciously - there were some issues with my studying, I got anxious and didn't perform, and so on. I guess I don't know for sure that I've done poorly and maybe that's why it hasn't set in yet. But it's also got me thinking about if this has been the right decision. I mean, I love my friends, and I find the law to be really interesting, but with respect to MG I do not want to be a HR representative for a circus company.

It feels like everything has just gone wrong. I can rationalize it all post facto but so many of the things I cared about and worked for have slipped through my fingers. When it's all of them, it's easy to start to think that it's my fault. I think maybe it is - maybe I'm just not diligent enough, or just not smart enough. If it's the latter - I guess I'm fine with that, nothing I can do, I just have to start getting used to it.

It's so obvious in retrospect but I think when I was younger I tried so hard to be quirky/exceptional/did so many different things because I couldn't really handle fully committing myself to the vulnerability of investing. That sounds so cringe and therapy speak-y, but it's true. And so this year I said I'll commit - I rejected the MSW, I stopped doing politics. I was really proud of that! But maybe this big psychological breakthrough was a mistake, and there's actually an advantage to protecting yourself, especially when you're someone like me.

I don't really know what to do now, academically and in terms of like. How to cope for the next 20 days until grades come out. And like, yeah, whatever, it's not the end of the world to get below average to average grades at the best law school in the country, and I'm not even sure how I did yet. But I feel like so much of my justification for law school and sense of self was based on maybe being good at this. It sucks that the first thing I think I really locked in fully on was such a disappointment. I still have constitutional in (exactly) 48 hours but like. bruh. Maybe the doing poorly on property would be okay but I just cannot get over how I bungled crim.

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Never mind we're so back. Had a nice dinner with K and her boyfriend last night and my husband and maybe partners are picking me up from my constitutional exam :))

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Aughhh. April is the cruelest month. I think I maybe have failed out of law school? Unclear - I don't think there's anything meaningful or poetic about having run out of time on exams. It's not although it's some deep trauma that, if I caused it, I only did so subconsciously - there were some issues with my studying, I got anxious and didn't perform, and so on. I guess I don't know for sure that I've done poorly and maybe that's why it hasn't set in yet. But it's also got me thinking about if this has been the right decision. I mean, I love my friends, and I find the law to be really interesting, but with respect to MG I do not want to be a HR representative for a circus company.

It feels like everything has just gone wrong. I can rationalize it all post facto but so many of the things I cared about and worked for have slipped through my fingers. When it's all of them, it's easy to start to think that it's my fault. I think maybe it is - maybe I'm just not diligent enough, or just not smart enough. If it's the latter - I guess I'm fine with that, nothing I can do, I just have to start getting used to it.

It's so obvious in retrospect but I think when I was younger I tried so hard to be quirky/exceptional/did so many different things because I couldn't really handle fully committing myself to the vulnerability of investing. That sounds so cringe and therapy speak-y, but it's true. And so this year I said I'll commit - I rejected the MSW, I stopped doing politics. I was really proud of that! But maybe this big psychological breakthrough was a mistake, and there's actually an advantage to protecting yourself, especially when you're someone like me.

I don't really know what to do now, academically and in terms of like. How to cope for the next 20 days until grades come out. And like, yeah, whatever, it's not the end of the world to get below average to average grades at the best law school in the country, and I'm not even sure how I did yet. But I feel like so much of my justification for law school and sense of self was based on maybe being good at this. It sucks that the first thing I think I really locked in fully on was such a disappointment. I still have constitutional in (exactly) 48 hours but like. bruh. Maybe the doing poorly on property would be okay but I just cannot get over how I bungled crim.

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property law is the worst thing to ever happen to me

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and just as soon as we were back... it was over

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I really don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I've totally lost control of myself but at the same time I don't know how many of these things are my fault? like. my best friends call me worthless/get mad at me for not being more polite to their like. asshole non-binary friends. certainly I could've handled the aftermath of these things better but also I don't know I just get so upset. Maybe it's puberty again but I feel like in a lot of cases it's also trans related. like maybe if I were a man these things would just not happen... and like what if I detransitioned

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also my fuckass zionist classmate is sitting behind me on this train for some fucking reason so I can't even tumblr-diary in peace

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and just as soon as we were back... it was over

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I really don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I've totally lost control of myself but at the same time I don't know how many of these things are my fault? like. my best friends call me worthless/get mad at me for not being more polite to their like. asshole non-binary friends. certainly I could've handled the aftermath of these things better but also I don't know I just get so upset. Maybe it's puberty again but I feel like in a lot of cases it's also trans related. like maybe if I were a man these things would just not happen... and like what if I detransitioned

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and just as soon as we were back... it was over

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guys only know two things: read about kosovo and frotting