Ponderings of a wondering soul

She/Her, Pan, Griffindor, Drarry, Wincest, J2, Marvey (suits) , Aragolas, Cherik, mcu

[unicornhair-core]

The love they share is the stuff of fairytales…

None of these are manips or from the show. They are all J2 in their natural habitat.

Pic credits to many people around the world. Collages by moi…

[unicornhair-core]

The only good thing in my life right now, the only thing that gives me any happiness right now, is taking a shower.

At a new found personal low.

#greydays #end?

[brotherwifesammy]

Script: I didn't know what I was going to do.

Jensen Ackles: I didn't know what I would've done if I didn't have you.

Also Jensen: I got you wincesties.

DO NOT TELL ME THE CHANGE DOESN'T SOUND ROMANTIC AND THE BIBRO KING KNEW EXACTLY WHAT HE WAS DOING.

[arwenadreamer]

What`s in the 15.20 Script vs. what J2 gave us onscreen:

Script

Sam: I`m thinking about Cass, Jack … if they could be here…

Dean: I know. I think about them, too. Every day, but what happened – it`s never going to stop hurting, but if we don`t keep living, all that … their sacrifice … what was it for?

Onscreen

Dean: Yeah. Yeah, no. I think about 'em, too. You know what? That pain's not gonna go away. Right? But if we don't keep living, then all that sacrifice is gonna be for nothing.

xxx

Script

Sam looks to Dean, who leans up against the post. Breathing hard. Sam`s eyes find his brother … something`s wrong…

Sam: Dean?

Dean: The kids – they safe?

Sam nods. Dean smiles.

Dean: Good. That`s good.

And we see – BLOOD. Spreading across his shirt. Sam`s eyes go wide.

Onscreen

Sam beheads the last Vamp and puts his machete away, not realising something is wrong yet.

Sam: Let's go find those kids, get them outta here.

Dean: Sam... I don't... Mm. I don't think I'm going anywhere.

Sam: What? What are you talking about?

Dean: There's something in my...Something in my back. It feels like it's right through me.

Sam goes to Dean and very carefully reaches around his back. His hand comes back bloody.

  xxx

Script

Sam: Here, let me --

Dean: No, don`t. You move me – that thing feels like it punched pretty much all thae way  trough. I think it`s just about the only thing holding me together right now, so … You move it, I`m gone quick.

Onscreen

Sam: Alright. Um... Hold on. Okay. Uh, I got you.

Dean: No, no, no, no, no. Don't... Don't... Don't move me. Don't move me. It feels like this thing's holding me together right now. Just give me... Just give me a minute.

xxx

Script

Sam: I … I`ll call an ambulance.

Dean: Closest hospital`s forty miles. Don`t think they`re gonna make it.

Sam: Then – I`ll get the first aid kit, just –

Dean: Sam, stop. It won`t help, it – I`m sorry.

Sam: Dean --

Onscreen

Sam: Yeah. Um... alright. I'll call for help. I'll get the first-aid kit.

Dean: Sam, Sam! Sam... Stay wi- Stay with me. Can you stay with me, please?

Sam: Okay. Yeah.

  xxx

Script

Dean: You get those kids home, okay?

Sam: We`ll get them home, after we get you –

Onscreen

Dean: You get those boys and you get them someplace safe, alright?

Sam: Dean … We are gonna get them somewhere safe.

  xxx

Script

Dean: And that`s fine. That`s good. You gotta admit, I had one helluva ride.

Onscreen

Dean: It´s okay. It`s okay. It`s good. It`s good. We had one helluva ride, man.

  xxx

Scrip

Sam: No. If Cass was here…

Dean: He`s not.

Onscreen

---

  xxx

Script

Dean: I know, but … I may not have a lot of time, and – and there`s something I need you to hear: I`m proud of you.

Onscreen

Dean: I`m fading pretty … I`m fading pretty quick, so… there`s a few things that I need you to hear. Come here. Let me look at you. Yeah, there he is. I`m so proud of you, Sam.

  xxx

Script

Dean: I thought you`d say “no.” I thought you`d tell me to get lost. Get dead. And if you had… Hell, I didn`t know what I was going to do.

Onscreen

Dean: I thought you'd tell me to... to get lost or get dead. And I don't know what I would've done... if I didn't have you.

  xxx

Script

Dean: Because when it came down to it, it was always you and me. It`s always been you and me.

Onscreen

Dean: `Cause when it all came down to it, it was always you and me. It`s always been you ---- and me.

  xxx

Script

Sam: I can`t do this without you.

Dean: Yes, you can.

Onscreen

Sam: I can`t do this alone.

Dean: Yes, you can.

Sam: Well, I don`t want to.

  xxx

Script

Dean: And I`ll always be with you. Everyday. When you`re … out there fighting, living… `Cause you … you`ll always keep fighting. And I`ll be with you. Every step.

Onscreen

Dean: Hey. I'm not leaving you. I'm gonna be with you... (Places his hand over Sam`s heart.) Right here... every day. Every day you're out there and you're li... And you're living and you're fighting. 'Cause you... You always keep fighting. You hear me? I'll be there every step.

xxx

Script

Dean: I love you, Sammy.

Onscreen

Dean: I love you so much, my baby brother.

  xxx

Script

Dean: And I need … I need you to promise me… I need you to tell me it`s okay.

ON SAM. A long, painful beat. […] Sam reaches out, taking Dean`s hand. It kills him to say this, but he does it anyway.

Sam: Dean … It`s okay. You can go.

And he leans in, embracing his brother.

Onscreen

Dean: I need you to... I need you to promise me. I need you to... To... to tell me... that it's okay. I need you to tell me that it's okay.

Sam: (crying) No.

Dean: Look at me. Look at me. I need... I need... I need you to tell me that it's okay. I need you to tell me... Tell me it's okay.

Sam places his hand over Deans.

Sam: Dean… it's okay. You can go now.

Foreheadtouch.

Dean: Goodbye, Sam. Goodbye.

Dean`s head falls onto Sam`s shoulder.

xxx

Script

[Bobby explaining the new heaven.]

ON DEAN. Getting emotional now. This is … perfect.

[More conversation about beer.]

Dean: Yeah … just one thing missing.

Bobby: He`ll be along.

Onscreen

Dean: It`s almost perfect.

Bobby: He`ll be along.

  xxx

Script

Dean staring out at a soaring vista. The whole world, perfect and beautiful. Then—

We`re BEHIND DEAN, as a BOOT drops into frame. A footstep. Dean hears it – turns – and his eyes go wide to see… SAM.

Onscreen

Dean looks out over the water. Then he smiles, the moment he feels Sam`s arrival. He know`s before he`s even turning around.

xxx

Script

Sam: Hey, Dean.

Dean: Hey, Sammy.

Onscreen

Dean: Hey, Sammy.

Sam: Dean

 

They really upped everything up a notch!

[fledgesfancies]

They really did! 💙💗 

I’m glad to see it in the script though, that bit about the hospital being too far away. There were legitimate questions about why Sam didn’t try to get help, try to save him, how he knew Dean was too far gone, and especially for audience members who live in countries where a hospital is never more than 10 minutes away, there was a bit of an ambiguity there.

[faircatch]

Words of Wisdom...

[thesparkandtheking]

[the-faultofdaedalus]

I had a dream that the king and the queen of a small country had a daughter. They needed a son, a first-born son, so in secret, without telling anyone of their child’s gender, they travelled to the nearby woods that were rumoured to house a witch.

They made a deal with that witch. They wanted a son, and they got one. A son, one made out of clay and wood, flexible enough to grow but sturdy enough to withstand its destined path, enchanted to look like a human child. The witch asked for only one thing, and that was for their daughter.

They left the girl readily.

The witch raised her as her own, and called her Thyme. The princess grew up unknowing of her heritage, grew up calling the witch Mama, and the witch did her very best to earn that title.

She was taught magic, and how to forage in the woods, how to build sturdy wooden structures and how to make the most delicious stews. The girl had a good life, and the witch was pleased.

The girl grew into a woman, and learned more and more powerful magics, grew stronger from hauling wood and stones and animals to cook, grew smarter as the witch taught her more.

She learned to deal with the people in the villages nearby, learned how to brew remedies and medicines and how to treat illness and injury, and learned how to tell when someone was lying. 

Every time the pair went into town, the people would remark at just how similar Thyme was to her mother. 

(Thyme does not know who and what she is. She does not know that she was born a princess, that she was sold. She only knows that one night after her mother read her a story about princesses and dragons, her mother had asked her if she ever wanted to be a princess.)

((Thyme only knows that she very quickly answered no. She likes being a witch, thank you very much, she likes the power that comes with it and the way that she can look at things and know their true nature.))

The witch starts preparing the ritual early, starts collecting the necessities in the winter so they can be ready by the fall equinox. Her daughter helps, and does not ask what this is for, just knows that it is important.

The witch looks at Thyme, both their hands raised into the air over a complicated array of plants, tended carefully to grow into a circle, and says, sorry.

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[canonicallysoulmates-deactivate]

J2′s Virtual Con Panel (March 7th, 2021)

Alright, let’s talk j2! As all of you probably know by now Jared and Jensen had a virtual con panel today (March 7th, 2021); it was the first j2 con panel of the year, and we started on a good note. I will be providing some time stamps, and as always I will be providing a link to the whole panel at the end of this post so y’all can watch it for yourself, I highly recommend doing so, it was a really good panel. 

Okay, let’s jump right into it!

- The panel started late, and the reason I am mentioning that is because I have to comment on how stressful that wait was with the grey screen saying ‘standby!’. I much rather preferred the countdown, it was less stressful 😅 

- Anyways, the panel starts off with some cute banter between the boys, they spend around 6mins just talking to each other, joking about Jensen’s hair, telling stories about each other. Honestly, answering questions was unnecessary because I would have happily seen a full hour of that, of just them talking. 

- Jensen said he missed Jared 🥺

- So…Jared addressed Jensen’s birthday and okay let’s talk about this. After Jensen says he missed Jared and that it’s been so long since they’ve seen each other, Jared fumbles on his way to comment about how he was gonna post for Jensen’s birthday. You can practically see his brain buffer cause I s2g that man was this close to saying he was with Jensen before his brain kicked in, and then he switched lanes to mention taking a trip with G for their anniversary. 

Of course I have an opinion about this, I don’t know if I’ll be able to express it coherently, but I shall try; it is so incredibly convenient he’d mention what has been a big talking point in fandom for the past couple of days. This is such a stupid thing to lie about, and it’s a lie that falls apart in seconds cause if you think about it shit don’t make sense. 

We know that Jared and G were on a trip, but we also know they were in Colorado. Thanks to D’s hairstylist, we know Jensen’s also in Colorado. 

So, I’m expected to believe that these two men who are incredibly close, who in this same panel mention how much they’ve missed each other, that Jared who says he didn’t post on his boy’s birthday (and yes he called Jensen his boy again 🥰) because he got all emotional thinking about how this was gonna be the first birthday in years he wasn’t gonna be by Jensen’s side and be able to give him a hug- I am expected to believe that Jared was in the same state and didn’t even make a pitstop by where Jensen’s at?! That they’d be in the same state and not even meet up?!  Not only that, Jared and G’s anniversary was on the 27th which fell on a Saturday, based on reports we know they took that trip from the 28th to the 1st, if this was an anniversary trip why not make it a weekend thing from Friday to Sunday? Why do it from Sunday to Monday which was a workday? And I’m also expected to believe that they went on an “anniversary trip” and little mrs. social media preferred to post an old ass pic and not post anything at all from said trip, even posting a pic as if she were in Austin on the 1st.  Bitch please, I love you but go to someone else with that tale cause I ain’t buying. 

- Continuing with the panel, the boys start answering questions and I’mma just tell y’all right now a lot of the questions in this panel are kinda shit. This is the first panel of the year, both these men have big projects going on and yet the first question is about parenting. Their answer is pretty much the same thing they always answer, that they can’t do it alone, that most of it is their wives, Jared says he helps with the kids in the morning and then goes to the guest house and leaves Gen to it, if you’ve heard once you’ve heard it a million times. 

- Next question is about dreams, and Jensen makes a joke about mushroom induced dreams that Jared finds so hilarious he has to duck out of frame. I don’t know if y’all have ever seen The Late Show with Stephen Colbert but Stephen’s wife is usually there when he’s filming and that woman laughs at even his stupidest jokes, if you see them interact they are that couple that is so obviously in love years into their marriage, they make each other laugh, and the reason why I am bringing this up in a j2 post is because that is the vibe that moment had! Actually, that’s the vibe a lot of this panel had; that mushroom joke was not that funny yet Jared reacted as if Jensen was the funniest man in the world.  And the j2 doesn’t stop there because when it’s Jared’s time to answer the question the boys say they’re in each other’s dreams. x 

- Jared said he sits in the Impala in his garage 🥺 Jensen said his Impala is safe and covered in a secure location in Austin, which I’m going to interpret as he left it with Jared.

- A fan asked if we would see director!Jensen make an appearance on Walker and Jared revealed he was supposed to! Jensen was slated to direct episode 5 of Walker but due to commitments to The Boys he sadly wasn’t able to but both boys say that it will happen and it’s something they’re looking forward to. So are we boys, so are we ❤

- When talking about how Jensen was supposed to direct episode 5 of Walker, Jensen commented that Jared was looking forward to having someone who knew him so well and could help him creatively on the set. Now, I will for no particular reason remind y’all that G works on the show. 

I love Jensen ☕ 

-  Moving on! Jensen talked about his production company. He said it is currently developing 5 different projects including one that they will be delivering to the network this week and that they have a project he’s excited about with an spn alumn. He said working on these projects and his company is what he’s been spending his time on in Colorado.

- Jensen put on a beanie and y’all are not ready for what happened. Not only did he look cute af, not only did Jared like how Jensen looked and compliment him but he called Jensen babe 😍 Now listen you don’t have to take my word for it, listen to the audio a couple times, form your own opinion about what you hear but I have listened to multiple versions of that clip with headphones multiples times at different volumes…and imo Jared calls Jensen babe, you can try to take that from me over my dead body. x  

- They were talking about a fight outtake they did on the finale in slow motion, and did an example and when I tell y’all those two somehow managed to do an in perfectly in sync slowmo fight virtually! 

- They showed their matching tattoos! 

- Jensen sends Jared shirtless selfies and gives him beard updates. I swear I am not making this up. 

- And in the line of things I swear I am not making up is that Jared grabbed the pic Jensen send him, and edited it to make it seem as if Jensen was singing the clean version of WAP, that is one of the funniest things I’ve ever seen 😂

- Jensen said him and Jared like to watch the early season gag reels 🤗

- At one point Jensen tried to tell one of Jared’s jokes and not even three words in this man was already in tears laughing so hard, he says it’s something that makes him laugh every time he thinks about it, he could barely get through the joke and to be fair it is hilarious; the joke goes: Did you hear there was an explosion at a cheese factory in France? The brie was everywhere. That cracked me tf up and it left them in tears 😂

- Jensen called Jared a freaking ox 😂

- Jensen says that if the roles were reversed and Sam had died, Dean would have wasted away at the back of a pool hall 😭

- The panel ends with j2 saying I love you to each other 😭❤

It was a really good panel, I had missed these men so so so so much, they have brightened my spirits and I’ve been in a good mood since I watched it, they just make me so happy 🥰. If you haven’t seen it yet I highly recommend doing so, the boys were looking cute, it was funny, they kept making each other laugh and there was even heart eyes! Jared kept getting the cutest little smile when Jensen was speaking, it was adorable! 

J2 Virtual Panel 

[not-a-perfect-metaphor]

Jared: “I’ll go with Dean. He’s so cute.”

Jensen: “Sam’s the heartthrob.”

Jared: “Jensen’s the sexy part.”

Jensen: “Sweet? Well, that would be Jared!”

Jared: “He’s a lot better looking.”

Jensen: “This guy is smokin’ hot!”

Jared (to Jensen): “When you did that scene that one time when you were so handsome, how did you handsome so much?”

Jared: “I’m not feeling so hot.”

Jensen: “I think you look amazing.”

Jared: “He’s handsome, isn’t he?”

Find someone who tells you that you’re beautiful and amazing as often as Jared and Jensen tell each other.

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

Or...like...even just a fraction as often lol.

Because, um...Jared and Jensen might be more obsessed with each other than any two humans ever have been in the history of all existence.

For real if I had infinite space in this post you would still be reading it in your next life....

[not-a-perfect-metaphor]

Things husbands do-

(part 1)

1. Frequently combine themselves into one person when speaking.

Jared: “When I say ‘me,’ I mean ‘us.’”

2. Refer to their spouse’s parents as ‘mom’ and ‘dad.’

Jared: “Shhh, my mom is talking.”

Jensen: “Thank you, mom, nice of you to come!”

(UMMM and Jared calling Jensen’s dad ‘papa Ackles’ 🥰)

3. Frequently wake up and turn in at the same time.

(because...duh...they’re sharing a bed 😊, at least as often as possible in Jared and Jensen’s case)

Jared: “We stayed up until midnight.”

Jensen: “Yeah, because we’re awesome.”

Jared: “We’re going to sleep.”

4. Do not social distance from each other during pandemics.

Or, for Jared and Jensen, sort of pretend to, but then forget very frequently that they’re pretending to...

And also say things like this-

Mike: “You and Jared can’t make out.”

Jensen: “No, no, no. We’re hanging out hat on that. That’s happening regardless. Corona or no corona, we’re making out.”

5. Share each other’s food and drinks.

6. Pose in photos together like THIS.

Excuse me, sirs, but that is some major husbanding...

[unicornhair-core]

A letter to one half of my favourite idol...

Dear Jensen,

I have watched you grow from heart throb to lover to husband and father.

I have watched you grow from Smallville, 15 years of Supernatural and now Soldier boy.

I've been a fan since before I was a teen, since before I knew what a fan was. And I'm proud of how far you've come.

Happy Birthday Jensen!

My goals wouldn't complete until I meet you and Jared one day.

[let-me-be-your-home]

Jensen Ackles Birthday Week 

Jensen is an incredibly talented man, but he’s also a wonderful person and friend. He is loyal to a fault and his friendships are everlasting. His friendship with Jared is extremely special and warms my heart. 

[unicornhair-core]

If this was a guy and a girl would we call all this just Friendship though? 🤔

Thank you op for the lovely gif combo.. 🙏🏼

[nothingidputbeforeyou]

J2 waltzing and Jensen dipping Jared to the song Africa by Toto at PittCon. 

posted on a FB group and confirmed by my friend Lysa who was in the op room at the time

[kamidiox]

That means that’s another fullfiled prophecy! I made this art on November 17, 2011.

[novembersecond]

Also to add on to this perfection, Lysa on Twitter also said: “Jensen started the whole thing and motioned for Jared to come over. They had this whole circle thing going on. Jensen was totally in charge.

Jensen was leaning on the table and just started dancing as soon as the song came on. He did a hand motion for people to come and specifically was getting Jared. First it was like the circle dance with volunteers then togetherness. Definitely [Arms on arms like ballroom dancing]”

[unicornhair-core]

I want to rant. I need a place to do it and I can't do it on my other sm so I'm gonna do it here.

I'm getting married in a month and I've been crazy busy. You think weddings are super fun but there's a whole lot of stuff that goes in to it. From the chair cover to the cutlery, settee back, photography, not to forget all the bridal things like beautician for the day and the dress designing is a lot of work.

This is all so much easier if you have family and friends who could take some load off you. But I don't (my family tries but they have their own work and I don't really have many cousins who's willing to help) and I've been super stressed.

I wish there was someone to ask me if I'm OK, if my things are in order, if I need to do any shopping for the honeymoon or even if I need help with anything...

I've cried myself to sleep a lot and I've stopped eating regularly and I've withdrawing to myself a lot again recently. It scares me that I feel like I'm going to go back to my depression and anxiety again.

I know you'd think what about your partner. Well he's been busy with his new business mostly and stuff and even if he wants to help he doesn't really understand the stuff I want help with...

I honestly wish I could get a hug. I just need a hug and someone to rub my back and sooth me and tell me everything will be alright.

Because I feel like I'm plunging deep in to a mess that I might not be able to climb again. It took us 5yrs to have enough so that we could finance our own ceremony and we are best friends as well as lovers but I'm so sad and lonely right now.

I know I sound very entitled, and I'm probably expecting too much. I'm pretty sure I'm gonna delete this later.

Screaming in to the void hoping someone would hear me, I thought would make me feel better for a bit...

[not-a-perfect-metaphor]

Obsessed with each other ❤️❤️ -

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[not-a-perfect-metaphor]

Jensen: “All we can do is make the best show we can.”

“-and get Jared naked.”

Jared (while answering a question about working with Sandy): “-I’m obviously very close to Jen, too.”

“But I don’t kiss Jensen...”

“-in public...”

Jared: “He prepared a scene for the season finale.”

“It’s a sex scene.”

“-with me.”

These two were at it early!

And often...😉😏

[not-a-perfect-metaphor]

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Jared: “Daddy! Daddy! Daddy!”

Jensen: “That’s-...yeah. That’s just....I’m not gonna go there...”

Jared:

“That’s why we don’t have nice things, Jensen.”

————————

Jensen: “I had to reprimand him a few times...”

“-and yeah, he’s gotten a spanking.”

————————

Jensen: “I brought him in [to set] in handcuffs.”

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Jared (to Jensen): “Will you be my Christian Grey?”

Jensen:

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(and our favorite, of course)

Hehe 🔥😉🌈

[nevospitanniy]

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