full grown disaster

19 ☆ he/they ☆ north las vegas

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hi, you can call me Jay, I'm 19 and use he/they pronouns :P

I have autism and anxiety, moderate depression, and suspected adhd and quiet bpd

I'm a lifestyle landmine/jirai and a neet, so I'll be posting w those tags.

tw/cw: drugs (dxm, gab, weed, etc) and alcohol, disordered eating, sh, and general venting

I don't intend to encourage or promote any of my behaviors! if any of this will be triggering to you, PLEASE block, but don't report! curate your experience, and let me have mine :3

I have a website to save some of the stuff I post, I'll be trying to do better w saving stuff now, as this last termination just completely blindsided me 🥲 aanyways, here's a song I like lol

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I switched the colors to fit my og design, what are we thinking?

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Remaining time: 21 hours 51 minutes

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after messing around w it for a bit, I DO like gl2, but why does this feel like a whole new character 😭😭 the vibes are different and I don't get why 😭😭😭

EDIT: IT WAS THE HAIR I GOT IT

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after messing around w it for a bit, I DO like gl2, but why does this feel like a whole new character 😭😭 the vibes are different and I don't get why 😭😭😭

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i start every day saying i won't eat and end with 3k+ cals

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Dex and Val!!! Different vibes but they are besties, trust 🙏

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spending all night on tiktok is making me realize how limited gacha club is in terms of customization bc they look so basic after seeing a bunch of ppl using gl2... gl2 is scary though 😭😭

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I wanna make an mv with Dex but between the concept, the song, and the fact it'd have to be in gacha makes me worried that I'll be either bullied off the internet or sent those fuckin "someone's worried about you!" things 😭😭

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encountered a smoking checkpoint on tiktok and got too excited playjng along Nd I forgot how ass my nic tolerance is rn. like it's always been bad, I almost collapsed in public once off 2mg gum, but holly funck dude

I tKe back that I said abotu not being able to get high off nic bc genuisely this si stronger and more immedite thanthe dispo actualy

I'll orob take that back later ut fir now nic buzz goes crazy lowk

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Dex and Val!!! Different vibes but they are besties, trust 🙏

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OMFG WAIT I CAN MAKE DEX AND VALESKA NOWWWW

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watching gachageektok bc it feels like my favorite corner of jiraiblr combined with nostalgia, and lowk I see ppl in the comments like "you're larping, vapes can't get you high" and it's lowk wild to me like THE PNG TIED TO THE CHARACTERS HAND IS CLEARLY A DISPO WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT 😭😭😭

and seeing those comments on ones w regular vapes is still like be so fr. pov vaping after NOT having one for a long time, literally two minutes of trying to do tricks and the buzz was strong enough I had to sit down and I almost fell on my face when I tried to get up 💀 it's not a high obviously, but I feel like saying they must be lying bc said they got lightheaded is stupid af 😭

also gacha may become my personality for a few days, apologies in advance 😭🙏

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posted this bs on the tiktok acc that's tied to my main but has my parents blocked bc I don't wanna post fking gacha on instagram 😭😭

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LMAO ALREADY GOT 1K VIEWS AND TWO PPL TELLING ME VAPING IS BAD LIKE THIS IS A HOT TAKE 😭💀

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posted this bs on the tiktok acc that's tied to my main but has my parents blocked bc I don't wanna post fking gacha on instagram 😭😭

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Back in my gacha era bc of my tiktok fyp and uhhh huh. Here I am ig?? I have a more regular one based on how I present on main, but like LOOK at this and tell me it's not me