Chay's Unspoken Pieces

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"Wika ko!"

Sabi nila lumaya na tayo sa kolonisasyon. Ilang dekada na ang lumipas nang tuluyan tayong makawala sa kadenang iginapos satin ng mga dayuhan. Tatlong lahi ang gumahasa sa ating bayan— iniwanan ng bakas ang ating kultura, tradisyon, isipan at pati na ang wika. 

Lumaya na nga, ngunit bakit tila atin pang mas niyayakap ang iniwanan nilang bakas? Hindi ba dapat na natin itong kalimutan? Hindi ba’t panahon na upang pagyabungin ang siyang tunay na atin? 

Ilang daang taon tayong ginahasa, subalit ngayong kasalukuyan ay tila walang bahid ng pagtutol at paninindigan. Kaya't nais kong pakinggan niyo ang aking panawagan— buksan ang isipan at ipaglaban ang dangal ng ating sariling wika!

Sapagkat ang Wikang Filipino ay hindi wikang pangmasa, pampalengke, jologs, showbiz o pangkalye lamang—ito ay wikang intelektwal, wika ng akademya, ng karunungan at ng puso ng bawat Pilipino.

“Sa Bawat Bigkas”

(tulang pasalita ni: Cha)

“Lumaya na tayo!” yan ang hiyaw nila,

Lumipas na ang halos apat na siglong tanikala,

Natapos na ang panahon ng kadiliman,

Ngunit bakit sa bawat pagmulat ng mata, tila banyaga pa rin ang ating iniidolo?

Bakit tila sarili nating tinig, bigkas, at salita ay kinakahiya? 

tila hindi prayoridada ang wikang tunay na atin.

Talong lahi ang gumahasa sa ating bayan—

Espanyol, Ameriakano at Hapones.

Tatlong kamay ang humubog sa ating isipan

at sa huli, iniwan tayong bitbit ang mga tanong:

“Sino ka, Pilipino?”

Lumaya nga tayo—

Pero bakit bihag pa rin ang ating dila?

Bakit kapag Ingles, pinupuri at kay talino sa ating paningin,

Kapag Filipino, normal, pambiro at minsa'y tinatabunan ng hiya.

Bakit kapag wikang banyaga tila karunungan ang hatid?

Ngunit pagsariling atin parang kababaan ng uri?

Sa paaralan, wala sa limang daliri ang mga asignaturang nasa wikang Filipino,

Sa gobyerno at pamahalaan, lahat ay wikang ingles ang gamit,

Paano ito mauunawaan ng karamihan lalo na ng taumbayan?

Ngayong simula ng bagong henerasyon,

Ilang magulang ba ang ingles na ang ginagawang unang wika ng kanilang anak?

Ngunit teka---may ilan pa ring bumabangon!

May mga kabataang bumibigkas ng tula, gumagawa ng pelikula

Sumusulat ng sanaysay sa wikang nagmula sa dugo ng kanilang ninuno.

Sa bawat tula, pahina, bawat awitin,

muling nabubuhay ang ating dangal---

Ang wikang Filipino!

Sapagkat hindi ito wikang pangmasa lamang.

Hindi ito bakya, jologs, o pangkalye.

Ito ay wikang intelektwal,  wikang ng akademya,

wikang ng isip at puso ng bawat Pilipino.

Dito isinilang ang mga kaisipang kayang baguhin ang daigdig.

Dito isinisigaw ang pag-ibig sa bayan,  ang pag-asa sa bukas,

ang karapatang mamuhay nang may dangal.

Kaya’t buksan ang isipan—

huwag hayaang mamatay ang ating pagkakakilanlan.

Pagyabungin  ang wikang itinuro ng ating ina,

ang wikang unang lumabas sa ating mga labi.

 Sapagkat sa bawat titik ng Filipino,

sa bawat bigkas mo ng pantig,

may dugong umaagos,

may pusong tumitibok,

may bansang humihinga.

Kaya pakinggan  ang aking panawagan:

Ipagmalaki ang sariling wika,

sapagkat dito tayo tunay na malaya!

ni: Charity Ysabelle N. Apin, mag-aaral sa UPD

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Unspoken #5

9-17-25

I’m a mess.

In my mind, living is an unexplainable shits. Monsters hiding from within— the unknown. I’m screaming loud inside, and there’s deafening silence on every corner. Drowning from unorganized thoughts. Voices torturing my ears.

I’m nothing inside, I don’t have goals, I don’t have desires, I don’t have dreams. But if you’ll see me from the outside, you’ll see a different person. It feels like masking has clung onto my skin. It automatically activates. Burying the pain is my specialty, and lately I feel like my brain is getting back on all the burying I did. I don’t function well, I can’t think properly, it’s all empty and I can’t feel anything. It feels like my brain is clogged and foggy. I really can’t feel anything.

I need help. It's getting worse, I feel like a broken outlet of light. Switching on and off unpredictably. One moment, I’m comforted with the light, one moment, darkness will suffocate me. And it’s just a repeating process, I'm utterly exhausted from covering the wounds. I’m completely drained, all used up. I felt like a ticking bomb, a sensitive one. One wrong move and I’ll explode. One wrong click, and I’ll end it all.

It is strange. Most of them can see a brighter and hopeful picture when they think of themselves years from now. I envy them. I envy those pictures. Whenever I’m trying to see myself in the future, all I see is black— and this is not a metaphor. I can’t see myself in the future. I can’t see her dreams. I can’t see the dreams built by the year old cha. All I wanted to seek is peace, all I wanted was the comfort of my final breath. I hope it will all end soon. I don’t understand but my entirety can find peace in that so-called ‘death’. I just wanted to go home.

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Unspoken #4

9-16-25

I'm scared. The walls piling up continuously, the thread slowly thinning, the constant spinning of my thoughts. It's getting worse— the voices getting louder, the light fading. Darkness colonizing the whole room. It’s full of chaos.

Have you ever been in a situation where chaos is invading your whole mind? My finger tips’ losing its strength, gaze losing life little by little, like a head in a cloud. Everything in my mind is in chaos, and I can’t point it out. It’s dull, empty and lifeless. Where is the chaos coming from?

It feels like a wound that always bleeds, and no one sees. No one notices. Isn't it strange?

Unfair. That you always have to carry it all alone, you always have to bury it in the deepest part of your memory. Like a scene that never exists, just to cope and to forget. Always the one who’ll wipe her own tears. Always the one who’ll swallow everything down. So when the cup overflows, when the glass breaks, no one will wipe it for you. Stitching her own, concealing it, hiding every possible scar that may appear.

And when it finally got her, it’s too late.

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Gentle Reminder #4

It’s ok to take your time.

Yes, the world keeps on spinning. The world won’t stop just to wait for you, it will continue its rotation for 24 hours and its revolution for 365 days. The people in it have their own little worlds so no one will adjust for you. But this is a gentle reminder that it’s ok to have your own pace. It’s ok if you won’t follow the world, it’s definitely ok if you can’t keep up on everyone’s track. We live in a generation that romanticizes moving forward as quickly as possible when it comes to careers and our futures together with our success. The 21st century’s way of living with gadgets and social media made us feel pressured about the things that we have to achieve. We are often envious of numerous social media influencers who got their success in an instant, on our friends who live our dream life and who seems to not worry about their expenses, and on social media fantasies that’s on trend. However, there is no point in rushing quickly towards a life that will not inspire you or fulfill you. You are the author of your own story, so write what makes you at peace. Plan your own table of contents, write your chapters and build your climax because no one is rushing you. It’s ok to slow down and take the time that you need.

You are in no rush on figuring out your own soul.

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Unspoken #2

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“Bukas makalawa, sana bukas makawala”

Madilim ang araw, hindi ka makapa

Daan ay tila walang hangganan, hindi matanaw ang liwanag

May katapusan nga ba? hindi rin tanaw ang dulo

Kung walang gabay paano makakauwi?

Saan hahanap ng gabay kung dilim ang bumabalot sa mga mata

Ni hindi maihakbang ang mga paa

Ginapos ng buhay na puno ng bangungot

Ang puso at isip ay sinama sa higpit ng gapos

Di makapiglas, pakiusap dinggin ang mga tangis

Punan nawa ang espasyong patuloy na lumalawak

Punasan ang mga luhang di na alam ang dahilan

Pawiin ang uhaw sa kalinga at unawa

Bukas makalawa, sana bukas makawala sa eksenang nakabisa

Gunita ng mapait na kahapon

Mga piraso ng ala-alang paulit-ulit tumutusok

mga bubog na nagkalat sa daan

Ubos na ang luha, tuyo na 

wala ng pulang likidong humahangos

lumalalim na ang sugat

hindi pa rin makawala

Bukas makalawa, sana bukas makawala na

sa pasaning binuhat mag-isa

Bukas makalawa sana maka-ahon na

sa lalim ng pinaglibingan

Sana bukas makalawa, magmulat sa aking hinagpis

dinggin ang iyak at tangis

dahil hindi na mawari kung nanaisin pang ituloy

ang pag-abang sa pagdating ng bukas makalawa.

Bukas makalawa, sana bukas makakawala.

(inspired by munimuni - bukas makalawa)

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"What Must Be Believed In"

"What Must be believed In" or "Ang dapat Paniwalaan" in tagalog was written by Jose F. Lacaba around 1965-1969. Using the bibliography criticism theory approach and psychoanalytic approach, you can decode deeper meanings and symbolism in the poem. Jose Lacaba is well known in writing literature including journalism and creative writing.  During the Martial Law era in 1970, Lacaba openly fought against Former President Ferdinand Marcos. He also published a poem “Prometheus Unbound” in a magazine that had allied itself with the Marcos regime.

Based on the author’s background, this poem is a symbolism that tells us their story during the Martial Law period. The Grandmother represents the dictators in our government who used to tell us lies and brainwashed us from the truth. The creepy creatures such as trolls and ogres represent the lies the government used to tell and these ugly creatures bring fear in the mind of the kid. When the grandmother died, the kid seemed to be free and enlightened from the fictional dark stories his mother planted in his mind. On the other hand, it represents their situation when Ferdinand Marcos died. After his death many Filipinos became free from the nightmare the Martial law brought them. When this period is over, many become educated, empowered and awaken from the twisted truth they have heard for many years of dictatorship. This response is based on how the reader analyzed the author’s situation and how it interpreted  the poem.

On the other perspective, the poem used a lot of symbolisms, and figures of speech. By focusing on the story itself and using sociological theory to understand the poem, I can conclude different issues such as the use and influence of power. It also conveys meaning on how having education can bring a so much difference in an individuals identity. Education and sticking on the truth is a great weapon.

Symbolism: Had gone Six feet below the ground symbolizes the death of someone.

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A Fractured Nation: The ISRAELI-PALESTINE War

Tension starts to lit up again between Israel and Palestine after the continuous attacks of captives in Gaza. Numerous airstrikes and attacks are still happening between the two. 1400 Israeli and at least 2750 Palestinians with 9000 reportedly injured were suffering from the Palestine militants–known as hamas. Israel says “It’s at war” after a major attack was launched by the Hamas on Supernova Israeli Music Festival last October 7 at Negev Desert where 260 innocent people were killed including tourists and at least 199 people were abducted and held countless attacks. Hamas continued to kill hundreds of Israeli and as a revenge, the Israeli held a total blockade including a ban on admitting food and fuel on the Gaza strip.

The root of the conflict

The conflict between Israel and Palestine has raged on for three-quarters of the century. It all started when Britain took control of the area known as Palestine or a strip of land located between Egypt and Jordan after world war 1. Back then, the land was originally dominated by Arabs and less Jewish. In 1947, the United Nations adopted resolution 181 known as the Partition plan.They voted for Palestine to be split into 2 nations which are the Arab state and the Jewish State. But both the Arabs and the Jews that historical Palestine was their Land. On May 14, 1948, Israel officially became a state, sparking the first Israeli-Arab war.

A war broke out with neighboring Arab countries joining the war, particularly Jordan and Egypt. Israel won and the war ended during 1949 and it was what they call “Al Nakba” or the catastrophic event for Palestine for which 750,000 were displaced and lost their identity. Israel controlled most of the land while Palestine occupied the West Bank and Gaza strip.June 6, 1957 , the 6-day-war started where the map was once again renewed, Israel defeated the Arab armies and became the preeminent military power in the region.

Israel

Israel-the only Jewish State on Earth, is the home to one of the most holiest land for Jews, Christians and Muslims. Jerusalem-their capital, is the holiest city in Judaism and also known as the “Promised land” of the jews according to the bible. It is located beside the west bank but under full control by Israel. The country has a strong economy and natural resources especially in the agricultural field. Israel has one of the world's most powerful militaries, bolstered by more than $3.8 Billion of military aid a year from the US.

Israel also ranked 4th as the most successful economy among developed countries last 2022. The country has a technologically advanced market economy and their military has been supported by the U.S government with 3.3 billion dollars in congressionally mandated annual funding, plus another $500 million toward missile defense technology. They also have Patriot’s missiles, advanced American F-35 fighter jets for their air force, 170,000 troops, and the Iron Dome missile defense system that is made and developed by Rafael Advanced Defense Systems and Israel Aerospace Industries.

Who are Hamas

Hamas is a terrorist organization. It has an Arabic Acronym for Harakat al-Muqawama al-Islamiya which translates to “Islamic Resistance Movement”. Is one of the largest  political parties in Palestine. Palestine is divided into two parts- the West bank and the Gaza strip. The West bank has been controlled by the Palestinian Liberation Organization (PLO) while the Gaza Strip is controlled by Hamas since 2007. Hamas was led by Ismail Haniyeh, the designated chairman of Hamas who operates with Qatar.

On the other hand, only 22% of the palestinian supports the Hamas, 73% don't support them because they believe that Gaza widespread corruption by the institution who lives Hamas. Turkey has also repeatedly send funds to Hamas IAccording to report by the US Government department, Iran was their number 1 supporter and  also Hamas’ primary backup and main donor of weapons. They provide military training, funds and weapons making them an Ali to Palestine.  

Despite Israel's extensive missile defense network, Hamas has built up a large stock of locally manufactured missiles with the intention of firing multiple salvos to break through. According to the Israeli military, over 5,000 missiles have been fired at the country since the war began. They also have assault rifles, heavy machine guns, rocket-propelled grenades and anti-tank weapons, as well as longer-range sniper rifles and 20,000 soldiers.

Many believed that Palestine had the right to own Bigger part of Israel because During the Iron Age, two related Israelite kingdoms, Israel and Judah, controlled much of Palestine, while the Philistines occupied its southern coast.

The attacked that triggered the war

October 7, 2023 Hamas attacked the Israeli Supernova Festival where atleast 260 Israelis and tourists died. The attacks came from both land and air, fighters arrived in trucks and on motorcycles wearing body armour and brandishing AK-47 assault rifles. Gunmens arrived descending in paragliders at the gathering, firing people on the ground who just wanted to dance for peace and unity. The survivors hid from bushes and ran for their lives in order to save themselves. Israel stated that because Hamas started it “They are determined to finish it”. Hundreds of Captives are also taken and being hid in Gaza, one of the reasons why Israel is not stopping to attack the Gaza strip.

Who is the most Affected?

As the war continues, only the innocent citizens of both Israel and Palestine are affected. Thousands of people lost their homes and lives. Many infrastructures including hospitals and schools are destroyed. More than 1000 children were also killed during the bombing and attacks. 

Three Filipino died so far identified as Loreta Alacre, a caregiver from Negros Oriental, Angeline Aguirre, a nurse, and Paul Vincent Castelvi, a 42-year-old caregiver.

Citations:

-Palki,Sharma. “Gaza Plunges into Darkness as Israeli Strikes Continue”. Vantage, First Post, October 12,2023

-Palki,Sharma. “How Hamas Was Formed and Which Nations Support the Terror Group?”.. Vantage, First Post, October 8,2023

-Cupin, Bea. “2 Filipinos dead in Israel-Hamas war”.Rappler.com, October 11,2023

-Hams, Mahmud.”Israeli-Palestine Conflict”. Center for Preventive Action, Global Conflict Tracker, October 16, 2023

-Staff, Al Jazeera. “What’s the Israel-Palestine conflict about? A simple guide”.Aljazeera.com, OOctober 9,2023

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-Bain,Kate.”Israeli Festival Organizers Release First Statement After Event Massacre: ‘Unspeakable Tragedy’”. Music news, Billboard.com, October 14,2023

-Miller, Daniel. “The history of ‘Israel’ and ‘Palestine’: Alternative names, competing claims”. The conversation.com, July 6,2021

-Gambrell,John.”As Israel ground war looms in Gaza, what weapons may be wielded?”. The Associated Press, CY4ISRNET.com, October 14,2023

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