The Road Less Travelled

Far away from winning the race.

[aribcofer]

ari b. cofer, Unfold: Poetry + Prose

[unwelcomechanges]

So, I'm still oversharing.

Oversharing information to wellmeaning curious people about my life, that somehow will help them, but doesn't do shit for me anymore.

When will I learn to say "no" and "I don't feel like sharing that information"?

It's like, when people ask me something, I immediately get into a mission to prove to myself and the whole world that I have nothing to hide and that my entire life can survive being layed out.

It can't though. And definately not to everyone.

It's a bit like giving the enemy all the information about where you stash your ammunition.

[unwelcomechanges]

Different location.

Same evil.

[resqectable]

“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”

— Sylvia Plath

[remanence-of-love]

[emivipers]

“I lied and said I was busy.

I was busy;

but not in a way most people understand.

I was busy taking deeper breaths.

I was busy silencing irrational thoughts.

I was busy calming a racing heart.

I was busy telling myself I am okay.

Sometimes, this is my busy -

and I will not apologize for it.”

- Brittin Oakman

- Artwork : Sivan.ka

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I am not very good at staying in the now.

Cause every day, the thought of tomorrow makes me cry.

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If the process is more important than the goal, the road more significant than the destination, then, it must follow, that the end can NOT justify the means.

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What you call freedom, is my prison.

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Every little effort matters.

As long as you know where you're going.

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I eat because I love to cook.

I love to present the food. I love the smells and the colours and the artwork that it is, when you prepare and serve it with love, creativity and inspiration. I feel good when I open the wine to go with it and taste that first sip. I love the ritual around sitting down to enjoy a well prepared meal. Alone or with others.

But, apart from all that, I have come to realize, that I am rarely ever really hungry. Physically.

Everything around my love for food is primarily an emotional need. A social need. A need to create. A need to feel inspired. Or sometimes to comfort or remove boredom.

I am not actually that hungry.

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[unwelcomechanges]

Please, try and not feel sorry for them.

They did this to you.

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If a tree falls and no one hears, did it make a sound?

If you did something good and kind but no one understood to appreciate it, did it then matter?

.

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It's not very conducive to justice to insist on playing by the book, if the justice system, you live under, doesn't.

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So now, mom and dad, we have come full circle again.

And full circle always means you getting off the hook and me getting all the blame.

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When in doubt,

chicken out.

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I really can't keep forgiving people who won't apologise.