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20, she/her, med student, life in/after recovery🤍

[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

um hi ig? i haven’t been on here since september and it feels weird. i’m changing the direction of my account! i’m currently trying to figure out an identity outside of my ed and my mental illnesses.

i’ve been in recovery for a year now and it’s been quite a ride. i can’t say i’m recovered yet but at least i’m physically feeling well.

but everything has been quite lonely. irl i don’t have anyone to talk to about my struggles. my friends atm don’t know i’ve struggled so much with my mental health and i prefer to be like that. yet sometimes i just want to share what’s going on in my head.

so, from now on my account will be focused around recovery, recovery struggles and my life outside of the struggles.

here’s to new and better days🫶🏻

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[archibaldtuttle]

Throwback to when I took painkillers and woke up with Photoshop open on my computer to this image I had made

[archibaldtuttle]

Hi this currently has 37 thousand notes and I just want to ask - why?

[desperate-acts-of-capitalism]

Big Things Are Coming

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💷🥄🥔 BIG THINGS ARE COMING🥔🥄💷

✨ Abundance Spell✨ 

Wealth, weal, and plentiful spoons are coming to me 👏

✨💰🪙🥄🥔💰🌟💰🥄🥔🪙 💰✨

Like to charge Reblog to cast

[sadgi]

can I get a job as an editor but the only thing I do is correct when someone uses the word "prone" when they mean "supine"

[sadgi]

thank you wikipedia for this really good image

[sadgi]

a helpful mnemonic for everyone

[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

supination - you carry the soup😭

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I.B. Vyache, Excerpt 03.01.20

[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

honestly, growing up with chronic SI is a crazy concept. and i admit i’m still struggling with it some days.

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[kaydean]

get to know me, pick some numbers.

1. selfie 2. what would you name your future kids? 3. do you miss anyone? 4. what are you looking forward to? 5. is there anyone who can always make you smile? 6. is it hard for you to get over someone? 7. what was your life like last year? 8. have you ever cried because you were so annoyed? 9. who did you last see in person? 10. are you good at hiding your feelings? 11. are you listening to music right now? 12. what is something you want right now? 13. how do you feel right now? 14. when was the last time someone of the opposite sex hugged you? 15. personality description 16. have you ever wanted to tell someone something but you didn’t? 17. opinion on insecurities. 18. do you miss how things were a year ago? 19. have you ever been to New York? 20. what is your favourite song at the moment? 21. age and birthday? 22. description of crush. 23. fear(s) 24. height 25. role model 26. idol(s) 27. things i hate 28. i’ll love you if… 29. favourite film(s) 30. favourite tv show(s) 31. 3 random facts 32. are your friends mainly girls or guys? 33. something you want to learn 34. most embarrassing moment 35. favourite subject 36. 3 dreams you want to fulfill? 37. favourite actor/actress 38. favourite comedian(s) 39. favourite sport(s) 40. favourite memory 41. relationship status 42. favourite book(s) 43. favourite song ever 44. age you get mistaken for 45. how you found out about your idol 46. what my last text message says 47. turn ons 48. turn offs 49. where i want to be right now 50. favourite picture of your idol 51. starsign 52. something i’m talented at 53. 5 things that make me happy 54. something thats worrying me at the moment 55. tumblr friends 56. favourite food(s) 57. favourite animal(s) 58. description of my best friend 59. why i joined tumblr 60. ask me anything you want

[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

except 1, ain’t no way i’m posting a selfie😭

[hauntedestablishments-deactivat]

who up experiencing emotions they can talk to no one about

[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

from being diagnosed with major depressive disorder to studying the pathophysiology of the illness is what i call a badass move! i’m so glad to be a medical student!! 🤍

[hellish-daddi]

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[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

gotta love being a woman😍

i was on the bus blasting music in my airpods bc getting on the public transport alone is still something that’s hard for me to do. i went to the side and i was texting a friend when i can feel a man is staring into my soul to the point where i got chills all over my body. i take off one airpod and he proceeds with asking me if i had something (at this point i’m zoning out) and i muffled no and put my airpod in again. then he continued staring at me until he went away eventually. it got time for me to get off and i can see that he’s also getting off and keeps staring at me. luckily he went into another direction.

and while all this is happening the bus was freaking full. the guy didn’t talk to anyone but me. now i’ll be paranoid that someone is following me.

[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

my book is attacking me🙃

[kurtcobainbutshort]

[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

i was in the store and i was gonna buy b/p food but i put everything away and only bought 1 thing i’m craving. maybe one day i’ll recover? anyways, stay safe and make sure to drink water💕

[urlocalmentallyunstablegal]

okay i have to make some rules for myself bc without some kind of routine i feel like i’m going insane.

so for starters, ed rules:

1) min 5k steps (if anxiety is too bad to go out - just walk around the house)

2) eat only in front of people (so breakfast and dinner)

3) between breakfast and dinner - low cal drinks, fruits, vegetables

4) lots of water!!!! min 8 glasses of water

5) no eating of foods that will trigger b/p urges (like sweets) - try to find healthier options

6) no eating out (if i have to meet up with a friend - only at cafes and no eating)