lit dump po

This is where I throw my shits, without any remorse or filter.

[urtrashbin]

I long for the option to shutdown, breakdown, and disconnect from the world.

Even just for a short amount of time

However, that is a luxury I cannot seem to afford as of now.

Maybe in another lifetime

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Maybe in another lifetime

We'll be able to feel that ray of sunshine

We always craved

Maybe it's not yet

The decisions we won't regret

But roads are already paved

Maybe we'll get there

At shore with feet bear

The breeze strong and brave

[urtrashbin]

I don't usually look up to a lot of people within my family

I don't usually connect this much

But when one of those few people pass

It's hard hearing news like that

The world lost one good soldier today

[thoughtkick]

“There’s nothing more intimate in life than simply being understood.”

— Brad Meltzer

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Never back down never what

Never give up 😭👍

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Salient points I want to use for when I become a univ prof

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Where do you pick up the courage and energy to keep going when everything feels like draining out

[urtrashbin]

Maybe I was not meant to be given a flower

Not because I was not worthy

But because it's only gonna be a clutter

A memory

Of a glass shatter

[urtrashbin]

Iwan natin Silang lahat

Tayo muna hanggang sa pagdilat

Saglit lang

Tayo munang dalawa

[urtrashbin]

Oblivion is peace until it bites you on the ass

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Hi mom

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I am not ready for a relationship. For something serious. I cannot embrace the idea of vulnerability to the point where I could get hurt again. Not that much. Not again. Plus, how I coped with a heartbreak was messy. Yes, I do not ever want to be in that kind of lump again. I do not want this to be a loop. I am scared. Of the possibility of going through those. And. I feel disgusting. I feel unlovable. After all I have been through, I feel that maybe my role for this world is just to be a temporary fix to everyone I meet. I scratch for an itch. A disposable patch for holes that are yet to be filled. Silk. A suture material to be removed after a few days or weeks.

Maybe I am destined to be alone. And its fine, I guess. I just have to sit with the familiarity and warmth of it.

[urtrashbin]

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Sana mahalin mo pa rin ako sa mga oras na hindi ako buo

At tuwing ako ay Hindi mo tanaw

Sa Umaga at tanghaling hubo

Tulad ng buwang sa gabi lamang lumilitaw

[urtrashbin]

I have this again

To cut the veins connecting my heart and my palms

And I don't know who to run to

[urtrashbin]

No what is this misery