[usedtobe-writingbyella]

hello! I have moved blogs for a fresh start.

If you wish to follow my writings, you can find my new blog @writingbyella

Thank you! Xxx

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snake.

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Please find my writing on the new account! :)

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Send me prompts

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what if gods are only made great by faith? perhaps the reason we live in an age without magic or miracles is because belief is fading. maybe all those small gods are still out there listening to prayers powerless to help?

And what if angels are not recognised by image alone? Perhaps the yearning for bright brilliance and glitter and wings has blinded even the very best of us. Angels never looked like the picture books - but like you, or me. And maybe our messages to god remain undelivered because instead of asking the faces that brought us love for guidance, we fell to our knees and clasped our hands and screamed into the skies?

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the lambs sent themselves

off to slaughter.

i drank bleach in the arms of

a man they nicknamed satan

as you ate macaroni cheese

by the fire,

sanitised the carpet. 
there are more macabre rituals

i guess.

i don’t think the sunset

knows your name

but if it did. if it did.

i think there’d be no language left.

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What's your favourite thing to see on here

Beautiful architecture/city streets/floral landscapes

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This ones a short one. But i cant stop thinking about you

Oh?

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they ask me the difference between “need” and “want”. i say a reflex. i say a decision. They look blank and i smile.

i say need - the way that oxygen infiltrates your lungs as you run.

i say want - the way that home is a choice.

you were somewhere between the two or maybe both at the same time. like the lining of my liver and a disney movie all at once. like the grey area between always and forever.

like, well, like love.

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“i loved you

when i should have

loved myself.”

- crux

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You are literally so stunning like a goddess wow. You are like one of them girls that is just never single and if you fuck up your chance with her you regret it for the rest of your life. I hope you are having a good weekend pretty lady

Hahhaha omg that is so sweet (and very true haha ;p)

Thank u!!!💛💛 I’ve had a few very very stressful days but I THINK things are balancing out now x

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Never change Bella. Your words and grace keep me going in these times.

💛💛

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Side blogs?

@writtenintechnicolour is my other blog :)

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saw your face for the first time in a long while today. you looked younger, somehow. maybe it’s the hair. looked like the boy in fog. i hope you’re well tonight. hope she keeps you happy. i’m sure she does and i’m glad for it. loving you how i couldn’t is a gift i’d never be able to provide, but it is an honour to get to watch it from the sidelines. write me sometime. or maybe i’ll crave the sea so much i cave and we can have a beer over reminiscing and civilities. it’s weird to love you like this. from a distance. platonically. without expectation or contact. wholesome, almost. to heal how we had to. to be whole apart. who we became is as a result of who we were, and who we were we became together, in a way. sometimes eight years feels like a blink and sometimes it feels like an eternity. now, i think you belong more where you are than i do. but we always knew it would be like that. you were always stronger, more wilful, more rebellious. i was always far too much like a feral cat, desperate to be tame.

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I hope you dont mind, but i wrote some thoughts i had today,

Feeling transparent, in the same breathe her cobalt gemstone peirce the veil of comfort

A smile like a thousand stars, drawing in celestials without warn

To wrap her in love and safety, so she can feel human is a worthy gift of a lifetime

unforgettable is the life no one does not know

This is???? I’m???? This is so beautiful omg 😭

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me 💛 and if you want to let me know who you are in dms pls do bc these are beautiful words and you should write more omg

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