Just a Gay Ice Derg ❄️🌈✨The Loneliest of All

All art is by the awesome @amelia-yap! I use this Tumblr mainly for IRL pics, future fics and RWBY WR (Whiterose) content. Strict DNI: (same as my main) 🔞 Minors, NSFW, MAPs, TERFs, Zoos, etc.

[fillmargarin]

Music gfs 🎧

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

Now- this would be a dream come true... Sharing music with someone you love. It's funny how you even drew the same in-ear earbuds / earphones I actually have IRL. I'm gonna add this beautiful piece to my favorite WR art (it's a collection I've been building over the years).

Thanks Marge~ ✨❄️🤍✨

@fillmargarin ❤️❤️

[bbybluemochi]

[OC] having a bad day? just draw your ocs kissing.

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

Terminal brainrot here because I just see bootleg Whiterose everywhere.

(Jokes aside). Thank you for gracing us with these wonderful gays OP, these are some trying times we're in. 🙏✨🌈🤍

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Sleep is for the weak. I have lost my mind. I have work tomorrow. Wish me luck on 3 odd hours of sleep.

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Also, happy Whiterose in Bloom Week 2026. This is my entry for the AU Day(s) 1 and 2.

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*flops dead*

@whiterose-fans-blog

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

Who's this s*xy beast? She's a s*xy bish! Uwu (/jk, fr! Please don't murder me)

Upholding what I put in my bio on this alt blog: occasional IRL pics, fanfics, RWBY and Whiterose material shall be posted here. This is more-so the former rather than the latter- with me cosplaying as Werewolf Weiss from my WR fic (Beating the Curse) ... In slightly more anthro form because feral fursuits / quadsuits are hellishly expensive and difficult to make.

---UPDATE---

Nearly forgot:

Head is by PinkPawParadox on Etsy (but the paint job on it is mine)

Paws originally by DreamEdgeDesign on Etsy, but 50% of them / the pattern got ripped out and modded so heavily by myself that they've become their own thing (posted the whole modding process on Bluesky) as I replaced the paw pads and added dew claws

Tail by AniMagicka on Etsy

[y0urnewhyperfixation]

she likes her rose baths

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Yup. It's out. We are getting closer to finishing this!

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Here is the NSFW version of that one scene in Chapter 5 (FOR ADULTS ONLY).

OK. I will go collapse now, so that I can feed my new baby seagull chick in the morning and die at work when I wake up again. Have a good night and happy pride month y'all.

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Yup. It's out. We are getting closer to finishing this!

[astertimberwolf]

*sighs*

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Inching close to 8 years without an IRL, physical relationship...

It's not just my stupid ass suffering from loneliness anymore...

... It's starting to affect my writing as well.

I'm stuck at the first of 3 intimacy scenes in one of my WR fanfics where I legit cannot imagine Ruby and Weiss showing a more soft, loving and tender form of love to each other... Maybe because I never got to experience that myself, since nobody I loved ever loved me back that way.

I'm too weird, fucked up and complex to be loved by anyone. I know I'll grow old and die alone... but I'm getting too old to spill any more tears over it.

Nobody I'm compatible with- wants me... and that's just it. Really. If I can even find anyone I'm compatible with to begin with.

Dating apps didn't work.

Meeting people through hobbies didn't work.

The internet and social media didn't work.

Nothing worked.

It's sad.

I have a lot to offer... and no one to offer it to, who would appreciate it.

So I just end up existing in a world I've felt disconnected from, from the very start.

It doesn't matter if I'm 6, 8, 13, 14, 16, 17, 19, 21, 23, 24, 25, 27, 29 or 30. All the memories I carry from those ages are of being misunderstood, not understood at all, ridiculed... or rejected.

At which point, do you just stop trying? Nobody understands my autism, my trauma- and how it shaped me. How much I've healed from and overcome, all on my own... Or how this insane universe has driven me insane as well.

Nobody's ever respected me.

I have maybe a handful of friends I still keep in touch with- many of which don't even know that I'm otherkin or plural. Those that do... Well, they have their own problems and lives. I don't want to add to that.

One of my self-care apps really hit the nail on the head with this one. It's a personal callout, through and through.

And I have tried (I'm still trying) to love myself despite everything. Despite how isolated ... and old ... I've grown.

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I don't know who would love a human who's made this many mistakes in life, with too big an imagination, too ample a spectrum of feelings (with them being too intense or rendering me too sensitive), with a Grimm for a shadow that's wanted to redistribute all the pain inflicted on her; an idiot wolf that causes her to act impulsively, without thinking- or inappropriately; and a misanthropic, distrusting dragon that either roasts people, acts like a sh*thead, has a vein of sadism and an equally problematic sense of humor without filters- all while said human is a bit of a prude, snobby princess and dies from second hand embarrassment at every turn these other two... Or three, take at fronting. A human with a perfectionism complex that cannot ever live up to her own standards, yet expects them from others... Who has had to run from her own blood relatives and a good chunk of humanity continuously. Who wanted to change the world for the better.

Too many good intentions and ambitions- too few / very little opportunities to do anything at all. Too many chances to fuck up... And fuck up I / we did...

... and now I'm faced with the ultimate test of isolation- the most insanity-inducing of them all: will I be able to complete the projects I've always started but never finished...? Will I survive not being able to freely access the few online friendships I have left anymore?

Will I lose whatever is left of my sanity by being cooped up inside my flat, surrounded by my WIP / fanfics, plushies... and myself / my selves?

I will only be able to use the internet for work.

This is officially the last post I'll make on my socials, outside of posting fanfic updates before I go radio silent.

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Wish me luck / good fortune.

I really need a miracle... Or a bunch of them, for things to turn around...

... and the biggest problem is: I don't believe in miracles. Never have... and I'm not sure I ever will.

The universe will not send a Ruby Rose my way, to save me from caving into my own darkness... or (eventually, my own) grave.

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[UPDATE - might as well rename this post "Suicide by words: the extended edition"]

IDK. Posting this crap here allows me to emotionally regulate and put it out of my mind. I have mixed feelings about my suffering being visible to everyone... Then again, unless it's an absolutely sh*tty character / individual coming across this... it won't matter. Most people don't care and scroll past- and that's probably for the best. I'd rather have that, than someone trying to hurt me with what I write when I let out my true self and emotions...

I'm real, and I'm allowed to be flawed, broken... and feel the way I feel. Same as everyone else being allowed to have their negative feelings, thoughts, pain, loneliness, etc.

Everyone is entitled to their own sorrow. That hasn't changed in... many years. Even before Weiss (from RWBY) put it into words in the White Trailer.

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

Me, to myself: "Stop being a loser and GO OUTSIDE."

(Courtesy of @amelia-yap , who inspired me to take my weight loss journey seriously and stop feeling sorry for myself)

Here goes nothing...

And also: I need rest, once again... (Yes. I'm a pathetic sausage. Same energy as "I'm an idiot sandwich"):

(Because I went from 0 to 100... Or 180... and knocked myself out cold for the day)

[astertimberwolf]

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Completely on accident, while trying to cope with autistic burnout and looking for more bootleg WhiteRose on yuri manga websites, I stumbled upon this old, comedic masterpiece: Demon (or should I say Dragon???) Queen.

...and ofc she gives her a choker to wear.

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Yeah, I'm cooked.

(Link to it, if you want to check it out: https://lilymanga.net/gl/mage-demon-queen/season-01-02-03/)

P.S.: this might be the last post I make in a while, both due to IRL problems such as my ISP cutting off my internet for no reason (I'm on a limited mobile data plan. Will have to forego social media altogether to still have internet access) and my RWBY Whiterose fanfic writing commitments (concerning projects I want to finish from last year's- and this year's Whiterose in Bloom week).

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

[Mini update on the state of things. Yeah, I'll have to work something out about my internet. When it rains, it pours... but the gay will help me survive / (get) through it all]

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

This madwoman has returned with more content for @amelia-yap to feast on.

Enjoy peeps! *dies from sleep deprivation and writing 14K in one day and night* (love to see how it just keeps getting worse)

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Ok, so- you are going to hate me. Uploaded a new chapter for The Queen of Hearts... but it's not the last chapter of the story. Decided to break a massive chapter up into 3 so I don't die from exhaustion trying to finish this fic.

Beating The Curse (My Werewolf Weiss x Vampire Ruby, Wolfwalker inspired fic) is finished if you haven't read the ending yet.

Will try to see if I can finish The Queen of Hearts over the weekend and work on other fics I had planned for this year's Whiterose in Bloom in advance during my upcoming week off.

[dreaming-paradise-dixie]

Demi Lesbians. Commission drawn by @inkrrred

[neonleon22]

YESYESYESYESYESYES

IM GOING TO SCREAM THERES NO WAYY

THERES LITERALLY NO WAY THIS IS GOING SO WELL

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

No matter how many times people make them in Tomodachi Life, they always fall for each other. This is hilarious. Thanks for sharing it! xD

@amelia-yap knows the feeling, lmao

[nebula5000]

I felt like I didn't do this ship complete justice

Sooooo....

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

(I like both the one where Ruby does this to Weiss- and this one, where it's the other way around)

[nliast]

ah yes, the good faunus whiterose

[Commission info][Patreon][Ko-Fi][Twitter]

[nebula5000]

Lost a bet against a friend, so I had to make this

Its fine tho, I love the ship

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

Sorry.

....... I- .........

Lost all sense of decency and my gay brain experienced a malfunction- Therefore this shall be reblogged.

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

I'm taking long weekends (time off) from my new job because otherwise I won't have the time and energy to finish my old WR Week fics (from 2025) before the new one rolls around in June (WR Week 2026 + extras).

There. Done.

Took Friday the 15th of May and 22nd of May off. My new full-time job's been grilling me and I'm itching for a vacation to actually finish both "The Queen of Hearts" (WR Week Derg AU from last year) and "Beating the Curse" (WR Week vampire Ruby x werewolf Weiss AU).

Might even take a whole week off for WR Week 2026 (in June). I am so so tired of all the problems and stress at work. I need my fix (Whiterose)- and I've made people wait for the endings to those fanfics for far too long.

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

Quick update before I conk out for good: I managed to write the structural draft (everything that needs to happen) for the last chapter of The Queen of Hearts, but I might need an extra week or two to properly write and flesh out all the scenes in detail, as there is a lot that needs to happen.

I'm glad I got to finish Beating the Curse on time... but yeah. I want for this story to feel less rushed. Not sure if it will have the same word count as the one I finished the week before, or less... We'll see.

There is also a half-baked idea of what happens around the ending... Still undecided what I want to do with that. Need a clear, rested mind to make a sound decision.

[useless-lesbian-weiss]

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[useless-lesbian-weiss]

11'200 words in one sitting. I cannot feel my behind- but at least it's done! (edited & proofread too). Recommend a tissue box on the go with it.

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