without you.

i don't know what i thought i'd be by now

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@divisiim owo

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ok so here’s the Rub. - i’m thinking that im going to move caleb and rich to a different blog where i treat them as fandomless ocs? i’ll still keep a dbh verse but for all intents and purposes they Are ocs so i’m gonna just. use their human verses as their mains maybe? idk i feel like im not really welcome here anymore which is probably my own fault for being so absent for so long but. that’s the Vague plan until i figure out. if i can manage a blog again lmao also im always up for rping over disco if anyone wants my discord!

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might fuck about and put my dbh muses on one big multi fandom multi muse blog but also might fuck about and just never come on tungle again at this rate so u kno. thats the Vibe rn

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might fuck about and put my dbh muses on one big multi fandom multi muse blog but also might fuck about and just never come on tungle again at this rate so u kno. thats the Vibe rn

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send me things/write me starters for human rich maybe? i’m gonna try and write on here tomorrow after work if i can get myself out of dnd oc brainrot for long enough. i miss this kid

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if richard could taste/eat things he’d have a really sweet tooth

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ah

[rp-memes-musings-blog]

Panic Attack Starters:

“Calm down, I’m here now.” “Stop panicking, you’re only making it worse!” “I can’t breathe-“ “Are you having a panic attack? Wait- let me help, just breathe.” “Oh darling, no one cares about your pity act. Gasp for air all you like.” “It’s just a panic attack, I’m fine, I’m used to it just- give me a moment.” “Give me space I can’t fucking breathe!” “Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god-“ “Why are you shaking so much?” “You look pale… sit down.” “Are you all right?” “D-don’t come in- I’m fine-“ “Look at me, okay? Everything is fine, just breathe, in and out. In and out.” “I think I’m going to throw up.” “Stop crying, I’m so sick of you pretending to be scared.” “Did something happen? Are you okay?” “I didn’t know you suffered panic attacks.” “I thought you stopped having these…” “Have you taken your medication?” “Okay, sit up, watch me, and breathe. We’ll do this together.” “Don’t panic like that! You’re going to give me a panic attack too!”

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fallcnx· / elijah.

   ❝ Because it embarrasses him and I live for causing Gavin to blush. ❞   He shrugs and takes a step toward Richard, reaching his hand out to catch the others wrist.   ❝ I’m not going to hurt you, just take a look through it with me. ❞ 

          gavin blushing? a blink as richard softens at the idea - only for hand at his wrist to snap attention away from the mental image his processors supply to him and instead back to the book in his creator’s hand. “is this some kind of human... bonding ritual i haven’t learnt about? while i enjoy causing my... gavin to blush, is there not... another way to do that?” voice comes as richard tugs oh so slightly against elijah’s grip. testing the waters.

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Panic Attack Starters:

“Calm down, I’m here now.” “Stop panicking, you’re only making it worse!” “I can’t breathe-“ “Are you having a panic attack? Wait- let me help, just breathe.” “Oh darling, no one cares about your pity act. Gasp for air all you like.” “It’s just a panic attack, I’m fine, I’m used to it just- give me a moment.” “Give me space I can’t fucking breathe!” “Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god-“ “Why are you shaking so much?” “You look pale… sit down.” “Are you all right?” “D-don’t come in- I’m fine-“ “Look at me, okay? Everything is fine, just breathe, in and out. In and out.” “I think I’m going to throw up.” “Stop crying, I’m so sick of you pretending to be scared.” “Did something happen? Are you okay?” “I didn’t know you suffered panic attacks.” “I thought you stopped having these…” “Have you taken your medication?” “Okay, sit up, watch me, and breathe. We’ll do this together.” “Don’t panic like that! You’re going to give me a panic attack too!”

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fallcnx / elijah.

  ❝ Is that a yes or a no? I’m very confused. ❞   Richard was like that though, he confused Elijah a lot simply by existing. It was even worse by the fact the other wouldn’t let him play with his indies and Elijah desperately wanted to see inside the RK unit.

          concrete hues find elijah’s visage again, expression softened oh so slightly but still held in a deliberate frown. led flickers from cool blue to amber and leans towards red as he watches the look in kamski’s eye. “i am.. also confused.” a simple answer, voice measured. “why would i want to see gavin as a child? i like gavin as he is now... he’s no longer a child, now.” he takes half a step backwards.

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fallcnx· / elijah.

   ❝ Elijah hm? I like the way you say my name. ❞   Of course he has to make this weird right before he holds up Gavin’s baby book.   ❝ You want to see Gavin as a baby? ❞

         expression falters, richard frowning at elijah before attention is captured by the book offered between them. richard likes books, they’re relaxing-- “gavin... as a baby?” a pause, vision shifting from the book and back to the ground between them. “i had... not thought about that...”

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   ❝ Richard come here! I have something to show you. ❞

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          led spirals softly as android crosses the distance between the two of them with little in the way of hesitation. “...yes, elijah?”

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                 “he took you to see denise?” said over a computer terminal, elijah sifting through line after line of code to try and find the program basics of the thing richard is most troubled about. weekly meetings seem to be the best way to dismantle and rebuild ‘amanda’ and the rk900′s zen garden, as it will take time and he can’t seem to get the unit to agree to prolonged stasis while he sorts it out. he’s still not sure why. 

                 as much as he hates small talk, it does fill the silence. 

                 a soft tutting sound through his teeth, elijah doesn’t take his eyes off the screen despite speaking to the bot connected directly through an access port behind him, “i suppose that’s a ‘step’, isn’t it? will you be getting married next? i imagine it will be legalized in time.” with elijah, it’s always incredibly difficult to determine if he’s sincere or mocking. 

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          it takes a moment, before the android knows exactly how to respond. he still can’t quite figure out how he’s meant to take elijah’s words or mannerisms - isn’t quite certain in the way he would be with gavin or connor; or even hank for that matter. but, he supposes that’s why he’s a fast learner, he can adapt. sooner or later. led spirals somewhere between cool blue and worried amber as grey hues fix themselves somewhere between the back of elijah’s head and the screen before him. “he did... you are correct,” a pause, searching for what to say as he watches elijah’s vitals in his hud for lack of anything else to focus on. “she seems... ah.. comfortable. i’m not... certain if gavin gained what he wanted from the meeting, though.”

          ever honest, the idea of keeping something from elijah never even crosses the android’s mind as he tries to ignore the nagging anxiety in the back of his head at the idea of his creator digging around in his coding - even if they have done this multiple times before now. it still feels... off. invasive, perhaps. but he knows that it’s necessary. for gavin’s safety. for everyone’s safety. 

          he smiles softly, for a second - anxiety calming if only for a split second at the thought. “i have considered... taking the name reed. i think it has something of a ring to it, don’t you? richard reed... i think i like it.”