Utter Desperation

they/them, late 20s ~ mostly star wars, some dracula daily and batman

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AO3 - star wars sequel trilogy (kylux, jedistormpilot and adjacent)

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Star Wars rewatch

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[utter-desperation]

There’s an incessant heat in Rose’s gut, ready to boil over. She wants more than this. She’s been craving this contact for so long. Her fists are balled tightly against her thighs and her back is rigid. She tips her head and forces her jaw to stay as closed at Rey’s. Gentle, simple kisses.

‘What’s wrong?’ Rey finally mumbles.

‘Wrong?’

‘You’re tense. Is this not okay?’

Communicate. You have to communicate. One-night hook ups might not like it, but it’s still important. That’s why Rey is a safe option. A friend. A friend who can sense emotions.

Or perhaps Rose looks like a manic right now, still as a statue, breathing hard. ‘It’s good,’ she assures. ‘It’s nice. It’s just… I wanted a lot more.’

‘Like what?’

‘Like I wanna get off.’

Rey’s brow furrows. She processes for a moment. Then smiles again. ‘Of course.’ She pauses and sheepishly adds, ‘You can lead.’

~~~

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Rey/Rose Tico Characters: Rey (Star Wars), Rose Tico Additional Tags: Vaginal Fingering, Kissing, Character Study, Rey Needs Therapy (Star Wars), POV Rose Tico, Rose Tico Needs A Hug, Rose Tico Deserves Better, Minor Kaydel Ko Connix/Rose Tico, literally one reference lol, Lesbian Rose Tico, Post-Star Wars: The Last Jedi Series: Part 4 of My dearest love, I'm not done yet Summary:

‘Okay.’ Rose takes a breath. ‘We won’t talk about that. Any of that. No sad pasts. No terrible enemies. Something else entirely.’

‘What then?’

‘We could kiss.’

~~~

Rose needs stress relief. She tries her luck with Rey.

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Finally building up the strength to check my ao3 and reply to comments and find someone leaving a comment like this on their bookmark that I can see is frankly so rude. Don't do this.

I know it's not that deep but I checked my ao3 because I was inspired to write some more and its a bummer to see.

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‘Why do you want to stay?’ Hux asks, desperate now for answers. ‘Why do you plague me? You don’t like me. You’ve made it abundantly clear you think I’m inferior.’

‘You are mine.’

Hux checks his jaw hasn’t opened. ‘Are you out of your mind?’

‘Don’t fret. This is not a love confession.’ Ren scoffs at the thought. ‘But you are mine. You are the only one close to my superiority. You are almost entirely void of the Force,’ he concedes, grimacing, ‘but you have great talent and intellect.’

‘You flatter me.’

‘Perhaps a little.’

~~~

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Armitage Hux/Kylo Ren, Armitage Hux/Original Male Character(s) Characters: Armitage Hux, Kylo Ren, Ben Solo | Kylo Ren Additional Tags: Shore Leave, Hook-Up, Clubbing, Glory Hole, Blow Jobs, Bottom Armitage Hux, Top Armitage Hux, Top Kylo Ren, Vomit Mention, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Sub Hux undertones, mild alien xenophobia, Drinking, Pre-Star Wars: The Force Awakens Series: Part 2 of I wanna do bad things to you Summary:

‘I am to do the work of two while you disgrace yourself on the shores of a pleasure planet?’

‘I will resume my duties when I return. You don’t have to pick up my slack.’

‘What can you possibly do for five whole days?’

~~~

Hux goes on shore leave, desperate to debase himself. Ren follows and upturns all his plans. Hux knows Ren will ruin him.

*

The 4th and final chapter is live!

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Hux needs to fill the awful silence so he says, ‘You could go out, enjoy yourself.’

‘I cannot.’

‘You can. I’ve seen you when you relax. You’re… ordinary when you want to be.’

Ren snorts at that, gives Hux another look. How can his eyes be both bleary and smoldering? ‘We’re alike, you know. You put off your shore leave because you worry your vices will consume you.’ He pauses a moment, almost hesitates, then continues, ‘I know ordinary. I know comfort. I lived it. It’s easy to miss.’

Hux pets Ren’s hair because he doesn’t know what else to do. It’s rather miserable to see Ren so despondent. Hux prefers the fiery passion. At least it’s thrilling.

~~~

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 3/4 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Armitage Hux/Kylo Ren, Armitage Hux/Original Male Character(s) Characters: Armitage Hux, Kylo Ren, Ben Solo | Kylo Ren Additional Tags: Shore Leave, Hook-Up, Clubbing, Glory Hole, Blow Jobs, Bottom Armitage Hux, Top Armitage Hux, Top Kylo Ren, Vomit Mention, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Sub Hux undertones, mild alien xenophobia, Drinking, Pre-Star Wars: The Force Awakens Series: Part 2 of I wanna do bad things to you Summary:

‘I am to do the work of two while you disgrace yourself on the shores of a pleasure planet?’

‘I will resume my duties when I return. You don’t have to pick up my slack.’

‘What can you possibly do for five whole days?’

~~~

Hux goes on shore leave, desperate to debase himself. Ren follows and upturns all his plans. Hux knows Ren will ruin him.

*

Chapter 3 is up!

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Ren catches his arm, uncaring of boundaries. ‘I don’t believe you’re supposed to be so shaken up after this.’

‘I’m not shaken up. I’m drunk,’ Hux repeats, because it’s the less embarrassing answer.

‘You should eat.’

‘Ren, I need you to fucking leave.’

‘No.’ Ren tries to touch him more. ‘I want to hear about your night.’

~~~

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 2/4 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Armitage Hux/Kylo Ren, Armitage Hux/Original Male Character(s) Characters: Armitage Hux, Kylo Ren, Ben Solo | Kylo Ren Additional Tags: Shore Leave, Hook-Up, Clubbing, Glory Hole, Blow Jobs, Bottom Armitage Hux, Top Armitage Hux, Top Kylo Ren, Vomit Mention, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Sub Hux undertones, mild alien xenophobia Series: Part 2 of I wanna do bad things to you Summary:

‘I am to do the work of two while you disgrace yourself on the shores of a pleasure planet?’

‘I will resume my duties when I return. You don’t have to pick up my slack.’

‘What can you possibly do for five whole days?’

~~~

Hux goes on shore leave, desperate to debase himself. Ren follows and upturns all his plans. Hux knows Ren will ruin him.

*

Chapter 2 is live!!

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‘You are excited for your shore leave,’ Ren says, like the sham clairvoyant he is.

‘It has been a long time. Six standard months.’

Ren continues to look through Hux’s bag, as if this is his bag, in his quarters. As if not a single rule applies to him. And they don’t. Hux can’t report Ren—Snoke doesn’t care. Supreme Command can’t intervene. Hux is powerless against this infuriating man. He has quickly learned that the best course of action is allowing Ren to do as he pleases, and subtly course-correcting him. Shouting and ordering leads to the igniting of laser swords and up-turning of furniture.

~~~ Read the fic here!

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/4 Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Armitage Hux/Kylo Ren, Armitage Hux/Original Male Character(s) Characters: Armitage Hux, Kylo Ren, Ben Solo | Kylo Ren Additional Tags: Shore Leave, Hook-Up, Clubbing, Glory Hole, Blow Jobs, Bottom Armitage Hux, Top Armitage Hux, Top Kylo Ren, Vomit Mention, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Sub Hux undertones, Prude kylo, POV Armitage Hux Summary:

‘I am to do the work of two while you disgrace yourself on the shores of a pleasure planet?’

‘I will resume my duties when I return. You don’t have to pick up my slack.’

‘What can you possibly do for five whole days?’

~~~

Hux goes on shore leave, desperate to debase himself. Ren follows and upturns all his plans. Hux knows Ren will ruin him.

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Ren gives Hux another kiss and pushes him back down on the couch. Hux falls for it because he likes kissing more than he should. He embraces Ren and invites his hot tongue into his mouth. He thinks they work best when they aren’t speaking. Unfortunately, they both like talking too much.

Despite his slight outburst, Hux is the one to pull away first. He turns his head and Ren moves to his jaw. ‘I’ll make a deal with you.’ He groans at Ren’s eager mouth. ‘Mm. Are you listening? You are welcome to view these recordings of us at your pleasure if you don’t mention them to me.’

~~~

Read the fic here

[utter-desperation]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars - All Media Types Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Armitage Hux/Kylo Ren Characters: Armitage Hux, Kylo Ren, Ben Solo | Kylo Ren Additional Tags: Voyeurism, Blow Jobs, POV Armitage Hux, Top Kylo Ren, Bottom Armitage Hux, Kylo Ren Has Issues, Love Confessions, Sort Of, Armitage Hux Has a Small Dick, i love that last tag lol Summary:

‘I’ve something to show you, General,’ Ren says.

Hux’s stomach rolls. Ren is up to something devious.

His unease is warranted when the holo bursts forth in front of him—it’s them. Very specifically, it’s he and Ren in bed, undressed and entangled.

~~~

Ren shows Hux a holo of them making love to prove a point. Hux is mortified. Blow jobs ensure, of course.

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