Written for @dicktimweek 2023
Day 7: Batman!Dick and Robin!Tim | Incest Kink | Mutual Pining
Words Count: 1708
Title: The loss
Pairing: Dick Grayson & Tim Drake| Dick Grayson/Tim Drake
Warnings: Murder| Character Death| Dick Grayson adopts Tim Drake| Blood and Gore| Underage| Platonic Yandere| Implied Age Regression
Part 3/3
Dick liked when Tim had nightmares at night he would tuck in to his room with the plush toy they got after he was adopted in his hand
A tiny body, slightly flushed around his blue eyes, wiping his nose on the sleeves of his sweater, would enter by lowering the handle of the door and put his head towards the point where Dick's chest was
Usually, before approaching the room, the squeak of his slippers would be heard in the old mansion, and this would be a harbinger for Dick that his little baby was approaching him. Sometimes he would open his eyes, which had just begun to fall asleep, to the boy who was trying to get up with his little fingers moved on his chest, to this image that made his heart feel warm
Either way, Dick would take a stroll through the silky hair, while his lips would drop little kisses on every spot he found. Tim gradually began to calm down with the feeling of security provided by his touch, and after a while Dick would let out a slight giggle at the trail of saliva flowing down on his T-shirt because of him
A few months after the adoption of his little baby, he began to call him dad, causing him to become overwhelmed with excessive love. Tim was so innocent, and him giving Dick the strength to take care of him with this way of calling was like completing a missing part in his soul
Everything felt so right, and Dick would watch Robin's back when they were on patrol at night, and when he was injured, he would dress his little baby's sore spots, hold him in his arms and show his love with soft touches on his back
He also knew that Tim especially enjoyed Dick's treating him like the child he already was, his biological parents had deprived him of this right, so sometimes Dick could see him as younger than the age he was
This could sometimes lead to babyish movements that started with a slight blurring of Tim's eyes, which Dick was definitely not bothered about helping his increasingly defenseless little one
They continued to live in this order a few years, however, as always, at one of the moments when he felt that everything was falling into place in his life, everything got mixed up
Joker, who has not been able to get out of his cell where he has been locked up in Arkham since Bruce's death, Dick had made certain expenses from the Wayne inheritance that he now has to make this situation permanent, he escaped by taking advantage of a problem that occurred during the security exchange
Since Dick received the news, he has been doing laps around his room at the manor, sometimes taking slightly wavy tufts of his hair on his hands out of anger and pulling hard
He couldn't bear to go through the same thing. He could not allow one of the family paintings that colored the pale walls to be painted with a blood-colored crimson again
He took a deep breath and tried to calm down. He should have spoken to Tim and stated that he would not be on patrol while these events were happening
There shouldn't have been a flight he didn't know about, like with Jason. Dick should have had the opportunity to install the safety net
He put his decision into practice. A few days before Tim's twelveth birthday, and nearly two years after adding his own surname to him, Dick put the still small body on his knees and told the story of the first Batman and Robin after himself, whom Tim did not remember
And he wanted only one thing after that conversation, Tim would stay safe while the Joker set the streets of Gotham on fire once again
During the first three days, that promise worked really good. When Dick returned to the cave, Tim had a first aid kit in his hand and a smile that he knew would comfort him, even though he was so nervous, he tried to dress his wounds and sometimes gave directions over the coms
As time progressed, his distress was increasing and his desire not to stand still was surging, but he was still doing everything in his power to keep his word
But right now he grabbed his oldest friend by the collar and moved her wheelchair, hitting the wall, forcing himself to open his lips, wanting to vomit poison, even though his eyes were full of tears
How would she did this to him, Dick stated that he would only cooperate with the police or the other heroes if necessary to catch the Joker, and said very precisely that Robin would not be in the field
That was a fact, Tim liked to disobey Batman's orders like every Robin before him did at least for once. Especially if he believed that the outcome would be better in his all-thinking brain, sometimes he wouldn't even feel the need to warn Dick
But Batman wasn't the one who banned Robin from the field. Dick Grayson-Wayne had asked his adopted son Timothy Grayson-Wayne to stay at home and be safe
Tim was not a boy who rejected what his father said. Sometimes he even understood what he wanted from the body movements without even waiting for the young man to say anything and tried to help with everything he could
Tim would listen to the words, while Robin would dive into danger
Barbara decided on her own and woke up Robin, who Dick had put to sleep before leaving for that case, and sent him into the middle of danger saying Dick needed help
And now his little baby was dead
Just like what happened to Bruce and, in a sense, Jason, a single psychopath took away his entire family, and now he was trying to spread his celebratory music around the city
He let go of the hand on Barbara's collar he had placed and started walking towards the exit without a word
He ignored the shouts coming from behind telling him not to be like him and the red-haired woman asking for help, possibly by calling the police
It was too late for everything...
If the Joker wanted to laugh so much, he would draw a new smile on his body for the sake of the years they spent together
He broke all the traffic rules whether he knew it or not, squeezing the steering wheel of the Batmobile until the knuckles in his hands turned white and driving towards the cathedral building where he knew the Joker was found
If he didn't manage to arrive before the police, it would be very difficult for him to take revenge, so he had to be fast
For a moment, even though he heard Bruce's voice in his head telling him that killing wouldn't do anything, he kept stepping on the gas. He fulfilled his wish for his death and was never became the reason why the psychopathic clown took his last breath
The point to which these words brought him had resulted in another desire for revenge...
He angrily closed the door of the car he got out of with a firmness that caused the windows to shake, and took a deep breath outward over the empty street view
Then he started walking with fast steps, not caring about one of the Joker's employees who invited him in
For a moment, he wanted to think that Tim had left his life between his fingers, at least without suffering and tears, with a death that he had not expected Dick's help for in the previous hours
But now when he saw the body holding Robin's torn costume in his hands with the cut smile under the eyes covered by the green hair, he clenched his fist without uttering a single warning sound and passed it to the face that continued to grin
The booming sound of each fist made Dick laugh. The body that started to fight for his life after a while under was bringing a question to his mind 'Was it really so easy?'
If it was something he could have done before, why had he lost so many people?
He started to put his fists harder. No, he was refusing to have an easy death for him. He would physically reflect every single one of the pain he had caused himself to him
Although after a while he felt that he began to completely lose the perception of time, he refused to stop and continued his process until he was distracted by thin fingers touching his arm and then his ears started hearing again
'Dad, dad, please stop now...'
His baby boy, who was wearing nothing but a singlet and a mask, was holding the end of his upper clothing and sobbing, trying to stop the tears flowing from his blue eyes
His body was shaking and he was looking at Dick as if he was afraid of him
With quick movements, Dick threw the pieces washed with Joker's blood over and lowered the cowl from his face, knelt down, then began to wait for his tiny baby to arrive to him with open arms
Seeing this scene again, which they did in the first days after the adoption, will have ignited something in his emotions, because Tim quickly curled up to his chest and squeezed his T-shirt, starting to cry
Dick muttered something to calm him down, dropped little kisses on the places where he could touch without disturbing him and tried to prevent his own fast-beating heart and the curling of his lips
He knew that just a one-time acceptance was not the solution to everything. Tim was probably afraid that Dick would return to being someone like his biological parents because he killed, but they would find a way to deal with it somehow too
Because now there was nothing left to make him afraid of losing...
And if it would happen, Dick will do everything necessary so that him and his baby can be together forever













