Request for when requests are open! :D Can I have the RFA + Saeran and V who hurt mc kinda badly(mentally and/or physically) and they feel absolutely horrible and she just smiled and said shes not mad and then they feel so much worse and just want you to break up with them cuz they feel so bad but she just refuses and I have no idea where I'm going with this I just want some angst that dosen't end angsty so a happy ending please uwu thank you in advance!
RFA + Minor Duo with a Mc who is feeling horrible because of them but is just smiling it away (TRIGGER WARNINGS)
Woah, this hit me hard, haha. Don’t misunderstand please, hahah.
Like, Mc is totally me. I like this kind of angst with a happy end, hehe. Okay, now, please enjoy!
He knew how unsure and bad you felt going to business parties with him.
Your husband knew perfectly well how uncomfortable you were between all those women who were dressed as if they’d never seen comfortable clothing.
You simply didn’t fit in, but you still gave your best.
With the presents he gave you, you always tried your best.
Your hair and make up was always done by a stylist to look the best and your clothes were only the finest.
But still, you didn’t fit in. You and other wives of high businessmen noticed.
And so it came that you stood in around a lot of gold diggers while one of them laughed at you.
One of the most powerful wives.
They hurt your feelings and made you feel miserable.
Your head began to spill as you thought about her words.
A panic attack was rising inside and you felt your breath becoming hastier.
You just waited for Jumin to defend you, something that never happened, making you feel even worse.
Why didn’t he defend you like he always did?
The horrible feeling of betrayal came over you.
,,Mc, I’m sorry for earlier-’’ Jumin began, but you cut him off immediately and smiled at him.
You thought that you were actually good at lying to people, but you weren’t good at acting.
The trembling lips, watery eyes… everything showed him that you were just lying.
Days passed and you were slowly losing yourself in solitude and pain.
You wanted to talk to him and build your relationship again but you were hurt.
You weren’t mad, but instead hurt.
And even though he asked you about it and you kept smiling it away, you wished that he would care about you a bit more.
,,Let’s divorce,’’ Jumin’s deep voice made you look up from your black screen on your phone.
,,I hurt you. I caused you pain and I noticed. And since it’s my mistake and you don’t seem to trust me anymore, I want to make you happy and free you from myself… I-’’ Jumin was stopped by you hugging him and looking at him with teary eyes.
You didn’t want to make the mistakes you kept repeating.
You kept losing connections because of your feelings.
You began to explain what made you feel hurt and that there was no need for a divorce for that. You told him what you wished for.
You explained the issue to him and he understood.
,,I promise, I will stay loyal… I’m sorry that it hurt you so bad…’’ Jumin said on the couch and stroked your arm.
You kept pressing the heart on your phone on the bottom right of your phone.
Your handsome boyfriend was live on Instagram at the moment and you were more than proud to support him.
Suddenly everything went way too quickly.
A fan asked something mean about you and Zen laughed it off.
More fans began to add something mean and Zen just began to read them out loud, without trying to stop them.
Your heart was aching to the point where dizziness overcame you, making you feel cautious.
You turned off the phone and tried to control your breathing.
With all your might you tried to stay calm.
With your head pressed in your pillow, you tried to swallow your tears.
Days passed and you began to act more distant towards him.
Zen tried to approach you a few times in a row, but you always smiled at him and turned away.
All you did was your job with him and cook.
Afterwards, you fell asleep next to him, not making him feel any affection or love.
,,Mc, is everything alright between us?’’ he asked you.
You nodded without saying anything and walked into the kitchen.
,,You sure? Are you mad?’’ he asked you, following you to the kitchen.
Now you could tell him about your problem.
But all you did was smile at him and shake him off.
However, a few days later, Zen began to feel bad.
It was as if it wasn’t right anymore.
,,Mc, let’s just stop it… I can’t handle it anymore,’’ he whispered, tears in his eyes.
,,No…’’ you tried to tell him.
,,I’m just hurting you. I’m not good enough for you. Yoosung… and Luciel told me what may have caused you to feel like that and… they were right. I’m sorry… how could I hurt you like that? All I just wanted was the discussion to die down so that no one would attack you, but instead I was the one who attacked you... ‘’ Zen sobbed harder.
Now the two of you were crying messes as you hugged each other.
,,I’m sorry!’’ you cried.
,,Sorry for not trying hard enough to talk about it…! I was just so hurt and thought that you needed a little payback, but the more I kept ignoring you, the more I felt hurt and actually thought about your actions and… gosh!’’ you laughed as you tried to dry your tears.
,,I love you, but you hurt me. It was a shitty thing to do!’’ you hissed in tears.
,,I know,’’ he mumbled and nuzzled his head in your neck.
,,I know, I am so sorry…’’ he apologized.
,,I will do better. I promise.’’
The soft-touch of your husband made you close your eyes as you enjoyed the loveable feeling.
Suddenly Yoosung commented something, causing a stabbing pain in your heart.
,,I wish I could see Rika and touch her like this again… why can’t Rika be here?’’ he asked you.
You felt as if you had a lump in your throat.
You tried to tell yourself that he didn’t mean it like that; that Yoosung was just missing an important person to him.
Yoosung wasn‘t in love with Rika, but amazed by her. You tried to tell yourself that his words had no romantic meaning.
However, it already happened and you felt hurt.
As if you had no value, Yoosung was missing someone else, not you.
,,I need to tidy up the kitchen,“ you spoke up and tried to get away from his comfortable embrace.
Yoosung just looked back at you.
And even though he would have liked to stop you, he didn’t do anything.
And you walked off even though you would have liked to tell him how you felt.
That’s why the two of you began to live with loneliness because neither of you dared to speak up.
With a throbbing heart and too many emotions to handle, your daily life was hard to deal with.
As you had the feeling that you couldn’t handle the loneliness anymore, Yoosung spoke up with a bag in his right hand and a sad smile on his lips.
,,Why?’’ you asked him. Your voice was trembling and your heart was breaking into pieces.
But you were still alive and you could still feel the throbbing pain in your chest.
,,I realized that I may have hurt you with my words… and I finally came to understand that I am just hurting you. I am a pain to you. I treated you as if you were the second Rika in the RFA and then I wished for her with you by my side… I’m no good for you,’’ he told you and was about to leave when you grabbed his sleeve and let a sob escape your mouth.
,,I love you. You hurt me. I’m sorry. I felt bad. I felt as if I wasn’t good enough for you, I was sad and angry. I am sorry for not telling you but… if you leave now… I won’t be able to keep going… I will smile but I will break apart from the inside…’’
Yoosung quickly hugged you and begged you to talk to him and so you guys sat on your couch and talked about the issue.
The coffee shop was her holy place.
Accidentally, you left the water flowing in the bathtub, not noticing how the water flowed down the stairs from the apartment into the coffee shop.
The accident was done and the damage was way too big for the two of you to handle.
The fire department came as quickly as possible to help you guys while you tried to save what you could.
Jaehee just kept mumbling weird things, angry about your mistake.
,,I’m sorry, Jaehee,’’ you tried to tell her, but these words didn’t mean anything to her.
,,You know, it’s really shitty,’’ she kept hissing.
,,You know, Jaehee, it’s true that it was my mistake, but talking in such a negative way won’t help with the damage. Let’s just work and then look at the damage together, okay?’’ you tried to stay positive and happy.
You tried your best to not make her angry and just calm her down.
Unfortunately, it didn’t work out at all and the two of you began to yell at each other, fighting as if there wasn’t an end.
,,You don’t know a thing! You didn’t work hard all your life! You can’t handle anything!’’ she yelled at you, making you feel deeply hurt.
So that’s what she thought of.
You smiled and nodded, picking up something from the floor and just ignoring her comment.
,,Sorry, Mc… I didn’t mean to-’’
,,Don’t worry, Jaehee. It’s okay,’’ you lied.
You kept smiling, but you still somehow managed to lose contact.
Jaehee and you didn’t talk a lot anymore and never ever touched each other after that day. It was as if you were strangers.
This was until Jaehee really felt that she was going to lose you.
The daily request was making her sad. She didn’t want to care anymore as long as you were still lying that everything was okay.
,,Let’s break up. I’ll give you half of everything,’’ she told you.
Shocked by her words, you looked up.
Another argument erupted between the two of you and suddenly you began to cry, ,,You hurt me with your comment even though I just made a mistake! You could have done the same as me, but I would have never told you the words you said to me!’’
,,Okay! You’re right, Mc, but I apologized but you-’’’
,,JAEHEE, THE WORDS YOU TOLD ME CAN’T BE UNSAID!’’ and finally, she realized too.
,,I’m sorry… Let’s handle the issue...-’’ and you guys finally talked it out.
,,Let me see your phone,’’ your boyfriend ordered you when you once again began to cry with the phone in your hand.
,,No…’’ you mumbled, scrolling through the messages some people were sending you.
Your boyfriend was already getting pissed that strangers bugged you, but the annoyance grew when you tried to hide it from him.
He just wanted to help you.
And so he just took your phone from your hands and read your messages.
,,You know, you shouldn’t answer these things in the first place! You should have acted differently! This is your fault!’’ he hissed.
His words hit you hard as you tried to register what he just told you.
Your heart began to break into thousands of pieces as you grabbed your phone again and vanished into your shared bedroom to let go of a few tears.
Sadness was hitting you hard.
It hurt so much. It was your fault that people attacked you? This was really his opinion?
You were scared, stressed, and worried and all you did was try to protect yourself, but instead of helping you, he kept criticizing you?
For yourself, you decided to never ever share something like this with him.
You always smiled and hid your sadness just to protect yourself.
A few hours later, you smiled again and when Saaeyoung asked you if you were alright and tried to apologize, you shook your head, telling him that everything was perfectly fine.
Your boyfriend kept observing you.
You stopped talking freely, you didn’t mention the texts anymore and stopped telling him some stories.
All you did was live together with him and whenever he tried to approach you, you smiled and told him that you were alright.
One day, after Saeyoung saw you sobbing in the bedroom while you thought that you were alone, he decided to hack your phone and check all your messages, finding out that you were still bothered and that you were actually in huge pain.
It wasn’t with you, but with yourself because he knew what triggered you.
Why did he do that? Why did he say all those things…?
,,You really want to break up?’’ you asked him while he was looking at the floor.
,,Yes. I can’t handle seeing you like this,’’ he whispered.
,,Saeyoung Choi, for God’s sake tell me what you want from me,’’ you whispered.
,,You said it was my fault so I changed whatever the trigger was, but this still wasn’t enough for you? Now you want to leave me?’’ you asked him, laughing ironically.
,,No… I didn’t mean it like that… I… I’m sorry. You were in pain and I hurt you even more. I didn’t help you and I didn’t support you. I’m sorry,’’ he finally looked up, seeing that you yourself began to cry.
,,I’ll forgive you, but we need to talk again… You hurt my feelings and you triggered me…’’ you whispered.
,,I’ll do everything for you as long as you’re happy,’’ he nodded and kissed you.
You and Saeran were stressed.
Saeyoung’s whereabouts were still undiscovered and his father was still free.
There were still so many things you guys had to do or change.
But of course you guys shouldn’t leave your own health out of your eyes because of that.
And so you tried your best to take some time for Saeran and prepared a relaxing day.
You changed some things in his room, thinking that it would make him happy, not thinking that he would totally hate it.
So the time came when your boyfriend Saeran came home from Jumin’s place and saw what you did. He began to flip out.
You tried to explain why you did it and that you really meant no harm.
But your words weren’t heard.
,,TELL ME THE TRUTH!’’ he yelled at you.
You hated it when someone yelled at you.
You just couldn’t stand it.
,,Tell me the truth that you’re trying to sabotage me!’’ he hissed.
You felt hurt by his assumption.
,,Why should I?’’ you asked him, shocked by what he was trying to tell you.
,,Because you didn’t want me to find him. You want me to stay alone with you! Tell me the truth! That’s what you’re trying to do!’’ he hissed at you.
You opened your mouth to say something, but stopped and instead closed it again and smiled at him. ,,That’s not true. This is all inside your head, Saeran… Let’s calm down, mh?’’ you calmly asked him.
When Saeran finally calmed down and realized what he told you, he tried to excuse himself. However, it wasn’t necessary.
,,It’s okay, don’t worry,’’ you lied and patted his shoulder.
He actually trusted you the next three days until he heard you sighing in another room.
,,What did I do to make him say that?… I… Am I really so mean that he makes these assumptions? Am I really such a bad person?’’ you mumbled to yourself and got on your knees to lay down your head on your knees.
Saeran observed how you desperately tried to find a reason for him to say those things.
And while Saeran observed you, he realized that he was the mean one all along.
He realized that he was the bad guy in the story who held you back from living your life.
It wasn’t you who was holding him back from finding Saeyoung.
Thinking of what to do next, he opened the door and entered the room, making you shriek and try to dry your tears.
,,Oh, Saeran, what’s up?’’ you asked him and smiled at him.
,,I hurt you again… can we break up?’’ he asked you.
Your eyes stayed glued on him until you began to tear up again.
,,Why…?’’ you asked him, sobbing a bit harder.
,,I’m no good for you, I didn’t mean to say those things and you said that it was okay even though it wasn’t,’’ he told you and grabbed your hand.
,,I am… you’re in pain again because of me,’’ he finally told you.
But you quickly hugged him and sobbed into his shoulder.
,,Yes, your comment hurt me deeply, Saeran. Why did you say it? I just wanted to help you, why did you hurt me so much…?’’ you asked him again.
,,You hurt me again. It hurts, but at the same time I love you… that’s not a reason for me to break up…!’’ you told him over and over again until he began to cry too.
,,Okay, I’m sorry… I was just angry and stressed out… I said that out of rage. It’s okay now… I’m sorry…’’
You couldn’t remember the reason for your behavior anymore.
All you knew was that Jihyun, your husband, said something hurtful to you in front of your adopted daughter.
And all you saw was black.
You saw your daughter looking at you and then going to her own room while you stayed back with Jihyun who acted as if there was nothing wrong with what he said.
Ever since it happened, Jihyun apologized to you three times.
And even though you accepted his apology, you were still off.
You were smiling, but at the same time you were in pain.
Whatever you did, whatever you were about to say, you thought back to that moment and tried to think about whether your action was okay or would lead to something bad.
But instead of telling him, instead of telling him that you were in pain, that you weren’t sure how to handle everything, you stayed silent and smiled at him.
Whenever he asked you how you were feeling, you just lied.
At some point, you and Jihyun both noticed that something was off between the two of you and after two weeks of lies and pain, you finally began to talk to each other.
,,I want to break up or at least take a break for a bit. You aren’t feeling well because of me,’’ he spoke up first.
,,That’s true. I’m feeling bad because of you at the moment, but I believe that if we take a break now, nothing will get better… Instead, we should talk. Now,’’ you firmly told him, trying to stop your lips from trembling and your voice to crackdown.
Well, when you looked away from Jihyun and then glanced back at him, you already noticed that you failed.
Suddenly, you were sobbing uncontrollably and you couldn’t stop yourself from panicking.
Jihyun suddenly hugged you. Tightly in his embrace, he whispered some comforting words and begged you to calm down.
,,I love you… I’m sorry that because of me you feel like that… I know that it was my mistake… I don’t know why I said these words. Please forgive me… I am sorry… but please don’t be in pain because of me anymore… okay? I really need you… I need you to stay happy…’’ he whispered, letting you cry all the sadness away into his shoulder.
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