Stay with Me, My Blood

You’re alive. Make the most of it.

[valesyn]

Introduction

Greetings, fellow traveler. I figured it’s time for me to introduce myself. 

You can call me Valesyn. As of now, I am using tumblr to share my art and see others art. While you can find my art on this blog, here is my art archive blog as well.

If you'd like to make a request, please feel free to! I can't promise I'll draw it just based off my free time, but I would love to get requests. Obsessions on this blog? Twenty one Pilots, Ace Attorney, Supernatural, Baldur’s Gate 3, and truly whatever catches my fancy. Expect chaos. I don't know what's going on half the time.

Feel free to message me anything Twenty one Pilots related, I would love to see it!

I did finish Supernatural, and while I am not currently active in that fandom, I do have some pieces of art for it, and view the show with fondness. I’m a Cas fan, but I love all of TFW. They all hold a super special place in my heart, and each one of them means something else to me. (I’m not a shipper of anything)

For BG3, once again not active in the fandom, but I am 100% a Wyll supporter. Again though, that doesn’t mean I dislike any camp companions! I

I absolutely adore seeing other people’s art (any kind! Drawing, painting, writing, ect.), so if you make something and want to show someone, feel free to mention me so I can see it <3.

Also, if you just want to rant about anything too, (a spn episode, your favorite character and why, your OC, ect), my messages should be open! I do write too, I’m on both fanfiction.net and Ao3 under the same name, Valesyn. (Here's the fanfiction link: Valesyn)

I’ve got three works right now, one of which on what will probably be indefinite hiatus.

Ace Attorney:

I have to be strong.- Summary:

"Maya’s hands trembled at the note in front of her, scrawling words and rumpled pages. Panic thrummed in a kick drum beat in the dark and frigid chambers. She was shaking, from adrenaline or the cold— she couldn’t tell. Come on Maya. It’s going to be okay… it has to be okay." (An exploration of Maya's experience in 3-5.) (COMPLETED)

Supernatural:

Fading Light- Summary: He should never have thought that all he had done could be forgiven, glossed over and forgotten. The reality of it all was that forgiveness wasn't what he deserved. OR In the aftermath of the confrontation with Dean, Castiel finds himself grappling with overwhelming emotions of rejection, self-doubt and remorse. (Set immediately after the events of S9 E3) (COMPLETED)

Blood Red Ink- Summary: As Castiel grapples with the burden of Sam's Hell visions, his sanity begins to crumble, blurring the lines between reality and delusion. An encounter with Lucifer was a given, however a lot more than the Devil visit Castiel. But how do you determine what’s really in front of you, and what is just in your head? It doesn’t help that a dark book holds a pull over Castiel, its pages whispering secrets and driving him deeper into the abyss of his fractured mind. (Set after the events of S7 E17) (on hiatus) I think that wraps it up for now. Feel free to talk to me, and remember that you are loved; there’s a place for you.

[valesyn]

I have joined art fight after some convincing, so hopefully I stick with it!

Feel free to come fight me!

[sunkissedliterarylightofchrist]

Eliora is one of the main characters from the story The Apocalypse of Luminé! 

The Luminé Islands are a fantasy world, where there are massive connected floating islands in the sky, some rural and some with a dense urban population. It has sci-fi elements where technology has developed to support magic, because its too raw to use on its own! Magic is from these special tattoos that give you certain powers :D Also there are dragons absolutely everywhere that range from the size of a teacup to a 90 pound dog. But then OH NO out of nowhere there is a monster outbreak with some strange twisted dark magic that corrupts your soul and turns you into a monster! Everyone is scrambling, trying to figure out what the heck caused this, and how to stop the apocalypse before it can spread to the world below.

Eliora is one of it not the most traumatized people you'll ever meet, and nobody knows how bad off she is, because she is the queen of masking. She should not be on active duty for anything whatsoever until she heals more but she is.

Eliora is a bright, bubbly, excitable, funny girl who grew up on the floating island of Xanthos, the most rural island of the Luminé Islands, in a large family that ran a dragon sanctuary! When she was eighteen, she went on what was supposed to be a brief trip to the awe-inspiring capital city island of Mermada with her sister, when the worst happened. Out of nowhere, there is a monster outbreak with some strange twisted dark magic that corrupts your soul and turns you into a monster! Her sister dies and from the destruction, there is no way that Eliora can get back home. She's stranded and alone.

Fast forward a few months, she's developed every mental illness ever and is a completely different person. Hurt, jaded, sad and angry, with the worst trust issues you've ever seen from the horrible time she's had while alone in an apocalyptic world, and being burned by people she tried to team up with over and over again. She ends up at a settlement by mistake, and decides to stay because she's just so exhausted and has nothing left.

Enter Matt and some other people into her life! They reach out to her and become her friends and help her with so many of her problems yippie! She finds her place and is reignited with passion and purpose to fight and help and save and protect people once more. She is trained and then joins up with the fighters of the settlement who protect everyone from the monsters, and bring in resources, and try to get to the bottom of why there is even an apocalypse in the first place, and what in the world happened. Where did these monsters come from and how do we stop them?

Just as Eliora is getting better from everything, it gets worse. She catches the eye of one of the leaders, Captain Mariah, who decides Eliora will be perfect for her plans to take down a villain (evil magic scientist) stirring up trouble who had a large part in starting the monster outbreak. She forcibly takes Eliora under her wing to train and condition her into doing her bidding. Good news, the plan works! Bad news, Eliora is incredibly messed up from Mariah, but also the torture, and Mariah never really faces justice for what she did.

La-la-la, much plot later, Eliora gets traumatized a million more times, most of her friends die, so many bad things, she also gets enslaved under mind control under another bad guy and that causes more problems. And then she starts to gain a father figure! Things are looking up.

Fast forward after she has several character arcs of growing up, having her strong morals push her into action to help people, learning to have relationships and be vulnerable and when her lack of trust and intimidating prescence can help the people she loves and when she needs to grow past it because its hurting herself and them, just healing from trauma, and other stuff, she is convicted for a new mission: That everything that happened to her made her who she is, but she will not be restrained by her past. It will motivate her to make sure no one gets lost like she did. She needs to change to reach out to others, she can't forget the past if she's going to use her experiences to drive her to compassion. She's asked God to put her out there, she is asking to fight and save and serve and protect, and she's choosing to sacrifice to save people.

Then she becomes a messenger missionary character, 'beautiful are the feet of those who bear the good news', and assembles a superhero team to defeat the apocalypse and villain once and for all :D

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[arcadenoises]

My Hallucination…

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Soup Boy

[valesyn]

Why am I not chasing the life I want

Why am I watching from the audience

As if someone else is in the main role

As if someone else is making my choices

Why am I taking the easy way out

‘Not today’ i say, yet I know

Tomorrow wont be the day either

The cycle bleeds

Hours have turned to days turned to months

Time I’ve wasted on my phone

Things I dont remember

Videos that never mattered

People I’ll never know

Why am I letting myself rot?

Why am I letting myself go?

I don’t want to live this way

I have big dreams and aspirations

But I’m letting it all slip away

In lieu of the easy decisions

The easy ways out

Ignoring my vision

I do not want to live like this

I want to live something better

Something I’m proud of

Something I love

How does one reverse the cycle?

How does one undo the damage done?

I don’t know, but I’m willing to try

(Gosh, I hope I’m willing to try)

One step to two

And then we’re back to the start

How does it fall apart so fast

And when is good to restart?

Three step to four

Further this time

And yet we’re back to the beginning

As if it never happened at all

Five step to six

I have to hope I can make it

If I stumble, if I fall

I have to rise again

(there’s no other option)

Because this cycle is relentless

And I need to get out

I can’t do it on my own

But I’m addicted to doubt

I’m learning to depend

On something more than me

I’ve learned for years

Yet the cycle repeats

But I was never meant to be perfect

There was no line in the story

Nothing that commanded that

No script demanded flawlessness

I’m learning to take a step forward

Even when I feel it pulling me back

Back to old patterns

Back to old traps

I’m learning grace, not guilt

That even when I stumble

It matters more to pull myself up

Because the road was promised to be tough

So maybe I’ll falter

And the cycle will spin

And it will look like

I’ve lost all over again

But there’s air in my lungs

And fire in my chest

And as long as this heart’s beating

I’m not giving in

So I’ll pick myself up

And drag myself back

Back to that start line

Where doubt still waits

But courage does too

Even with the thousand breaks

Each step is victory

And back isn’t wrong

No more watching from the sidelines

No more throwing up the reins

I’ve been entrusted this life

I must live it right

I’m stepping into the light

Even with the ink in my ledger

And all of those times

I should’ve done something better

But the time has passed

And now the only thing left

Is this march in front

And the land ahead

The life I could build

Or the life I could waste

It’s up to me now

And the decision I must make.

[ryuko-archive]

constantly mistaken for the wrong age squad

[valesyn]

I think I want a love like this.

Not a love that’s loud

I think I want a love like this

One who isn’t performing for the crowd

It doesn’t need a raging fire

I don’t need no screams

It doesn’t need any drama

I just want to know what it means

I think I want a love like this

that’s tender and softly holds

I think I want a love like this

One that matters most

I think I want a love like this

Slow dancing in the kitchen

I think I want a love like this

Somewhere I can’t find what’s missing

I want someone who smiles

One who will laugh

When our sense is all gone

And we should sleep instead

I think I want a love like this

One where I can trust

That no matter what comes our way

He will be my crutch

And then when night is falling

He knows I’ll be there too

He knows that he can lean on me

And that we look toward You.

I know I want a love like this

Where when we’re grey and old

We’ll still be holding on to each other

And more in love than we were on day one.

I think I want a love like this

[sunkissedliterarylightofchrist]

I now possess Breath of the Wild lets gooo

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Oh also I love how I thought with the Saturday lore drop idea that there would be ‘not a sound on Wednesday’ but NOPE new album announcement. Literally the opposite lol

[sunkissedliterarylightofchrist]

I’m going to be losing my mind about twenty one pilots for the rest of the day now but what else is new

[sunkissedliterarylightofchrist]

Lydia's Favorite Albums!

You don't have to have listened to the full album, just enough to say you know the album. Yippie thank you for taking it!

I did a thing! All of this was off the top of my head, I definitely missed some but sondkddn enjoy!! Tell me how many you got and what you like hehe. This was for me liking most or all of the album.

[sailforvalinor]

I haven’t really been interested in any new MCU content since Moon Knight (with the exception of Thunderbolts*, but I haven’t seen it yet), and to be honest, I got so sick of all the shlock coming out that I wondered if any of my favorite MCU movies were ever peak cinema or if I was just twelve, but I just rewatched The Winter Soldier and no, it was peak cinema AND I was twelve

[sailforvalinor]

Things I love about this movie in no particular order:

• It just genuinely so well-crafted. The writing is tight; despite the 2+ hour runtime, it has zero fluff

• This movie is funny without obviously trying to be funny. Does that make any sense? It’s probably the least jokey and lampshade-y MCU film in the bunch (and yeah yeah I know this is partially because it’s meant to be a spy thriller), but is probably among those quoted the most.

• It doesn’t treat the reveal of Bucky as the Winter Soldier as a twist, which was insanely smart—most comic buffs (or anyone online, really) went into the theatre knowing that. Instead of plot twist-punch, they went for emotional punch—they doesn’t count on your own shock at who the Winter Soldier is to carry the movie, but your reaction to Steve’s. (Also, the reveal that SHIELD was HYDRA all along is enough of a twist as it is—the “twist” of the Winter Soldier being Bucky would have been completely overshadowed.) Steve’s arc in this film is about him feeling the ground he thought was familiar shifting underneath him and it forcing him to reevaluate his loyalties—is serving SHIELD serving his country? What does serving his country even mean?—and the sudden appearance of Bucky is another complication in that arc.

• The Winter Soldier is just so genuinely terrifying. It’s not as if I forgot about that, but watching Bucky as a good guy in later films, I think the memory of how scary he was got kind of dulled.

• Everybody give it up for Sebastian Stan. Dude is in a fraction of the movie, got a handful of lines, and absolutely stole the whole film. He does so much with so little, especially in the torture/mind wipe scene. He manages to portray such complicated and layered emotions while barely saying anything at all. Seriously, go back and watch that scene and just watch his eyes. My gosh.

• In the Winter Soldier’s theme, the wailing noise you hear is actually Bucky’s screams when he fell off the train. What sick, sick person thought of that? Genius. But sick.

• I love Sam in his movie. No other notes, I just love him.

[add1ictwithapen]

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[clawedandcute]

@artist-issues @sunkissedliterarylightofchrist

my resident twenty-one pilots experts... what does this mean?? (only answer if you want to)

[artist-issues]

he didn't take the jacket from Torchbearer, wrapped the Clancy stole around his own eyes, and led HIMSELF to the stage tonight. When Torchbearer approached him with the jacket, he just looking around like he couldn't see Torchbearer. Bishops also can't see the color yellow.

All it means is, at least so far, we were right. He's trying to kill his demons in his own power, and that's just making him nothing-but-a-demon.

Now we just have to see if that means he'll realize his mistake and break down and ask for Help, or if they'll simply say "and this is how the cycle always goes. Tragic, isn't it? But isn't it neat to keep on fighting?"

and the answer is no! No it's not! There's nothing neat about fighting a battle when you know you're going to lose, and never see victory. That's hopeless. Just like traveling with no destination is hopeless. It's vanity.

[valesyn]

I need to have a word with Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun:

Explain.

[sunkissedliterarylightofchrist]

Are any of my frens doing ArtFight this year bc I need to prepare myself

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HAPPY EASTER HE IS RISEN