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𝐫𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐞 ♱ welcome to my secret vampire castle, if you're mean, you're gonna be my next victim. pls don't share my hideout, i can't have vampire hunters coming after me.

#yap + personal blog bc main is too much for me sometimes

writing x reader fics used to be something i did to make myself feel better when i was down but now if i try to write it when i have a bad day im just like 😭 get this bitch out of story she shouldn’t be there

#she as in me 😭😭😭#idk when this happened sob #if the writer is distant enough from me it’s nbd otherwise i’m like 😔😔🤢🤢

i do not mean this in a rude way but i think posting abt one piece has scared me so far bc the selfshippers are very intense in that fandom and everything is 10x more serious in selfship tumblr land than regular x reader land </3 and being someone who is a very slow watcher of literally everything + probably will take my entire life to catch up to one piece, it's been a very isolating experience and has made me actively not want to even watch it at all until recently

#i just feel there is a certain amount of knowledge needed for people to take you seriously in that fandom lol #and i get it !!! people are passionate and thats perfectly fine and obvs thats not exclusive to one piece #but it does make me upset when people in fandoms isolate or ridicule an entire group of people for having less knowledge #esp when its a long series like that #but anyway !!! i am finding myself getting back into it now hehe <3 i just think i need to stay away from the selfship side atm lol #even though i do enjoy selfshipping its just been making me miserable on here for the past 2 years and that sucks #also i do not mean this to be mean !!! i thinnk im just a much more casual watcher than most people on here #which is fine <3 there is just def a divide i feel

yeahhh i'm literally never getting another comm, i have been ghosted by 3 different artists after they agreed to do them, and one of them said she'd give me a refund 2 months ago and still hasn't .

#i'm literally so annoyed i don't even know what to do #i paid her months ago and she said she had a health scare so i was understanding ofc but she said she'd give me a refund for the art.#but now it's been 2 more months and i'm like. girl just give me my money back pls #thankfully it wasn't too expensive but like. are you kidding lmfao #and then i reached out to two others in the meantime #they said they'd do it and then ghosted me after i asked to pay them like ??? it's ur loss do you not want money HSDFHSDH #i'm not getting anymore this has literallyyyy ruined the fun for me LOLLLL #and all the artists i used to use that are reliable are too popular now i can't get on their waitlists anymore el oh el #im over it

i got the stranger things care bears 🥹🥹🥹 i could not resist, they are so cute and i loved care bears as a kid sobsob

#i was just gonna get one but….. i could not decide between mike and lucas bc they were my og favs so i got them both hehe #i wish they had a max one though 💔

one recent development i hate on here is that everything is viewed thru a selfship lens now. and while i do write almost every fic about myself i don’t… want people to read it like that lol. i want it to be a SELF INSERT, i want it to be a story. bc i do very much struggle with emotional vulnerability, so even the thought that ppl might be reading it like that has made me uncomfortable and has taken away a lot of my excitement about posting.

#it’s just hurt my writing a lot i think bc i’m overly cautious of how the readers/their relationships are going to be viewed #idk #i just miss when writing was writing and not just selfshipping #and sometimes i just wanna write things for fun and people not assume something about me #not to be bitter #wtvr #not hating on selfshipping btw i just wish they were as separate as they used to be

the concept of having discourse over how to proceed if you like a figment of someone’s imagination and someone else also happens to love that imaginary being

#not to be a hater but i’m starting to think i may be too offline for tumblr #i need people to start being so serious like actually 😭😭😭

i love texting my childhood friend who i used to write spn fanfic with every time i start watching supernatural again bc i’m like omg i loooveee dean did you know that i love him i love him so much and she’s like 🫩

#jk she thinks it’s funny HAHAHAHA #literally everyone i know irl knows i love that man even my coworkers it’s sooo 😭#bc its like the one i cannot keep to myself people say they’re watching spn and i’m like #😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰❤️❤️#ruining my nonchalant image </3

was starting to tell my irl about tumblr and how i was mad and i was like …. unreal girl pls get a grip 💀

#trying to even explain put into perspective how fucking stupid it is i’m crying #never this serious

i need to leave tumblr for like 2 months

#that would be for the best but then everyone would forget who i am LOLL

tbh my motivation to finish this event is kind of dying :/ i still have 3 unfinished, but it's the fact that i'm putting so much effort into them and they all get <100 notes, when some of my fics on that same blog have 15k notes .... bro

#i dont feel that excited about it anymore bc i know no one but my mutuals cares which sucks lmfao #maybe they'll do better on ao3 </3

whenever i see people who just finished iwtv and they’re like i need s3 NOWWWWW. imagine how tired i am 😔

#ive been here since the beginning me and the three other watchers HAHHAAH #which is fun but at what cost #i’m always waiting. 😔

there used to be a time tumblr used to make me feel less lonely and now i think it just makes it worse

#idk oh well #i’m in a mood today 💔

lost followers after my iwtv spam as i intended

#thank you <3 you have no business here

nobody has to say anything to this btw it’s more of a observation. but since i don’t post about selfships, it is kind of hard to feel like i have value in this space, like. i have nothing to offer to people and sometimes (often) being a nice person isn’t enough, i have to provide them with something to be appreciated.

#and i thought it was about fandoms but i’m not really in any fandoms that my current friends are so like 😭 it’s not that #i think it’s more the selfship thinf #which is wtvr oh well i really dont care as much as i used to #i suppose i can only think of others trying to enter this space fhat arent swlfshippers #which makes me wonder how many writers or multifandom people have left bc of this feeling #idk ! anyway it is what it is <3 i’m on my own island and that’s okay

me and my interview with the vampire quotes against the world

#the one in this bio is from the vampire lestat #the one in my main bio is an armand quote from the queen of the damned #and the one that’s my title is a lestat quote from the tv series <3 #there’s just soooo many good ones i cry

the amount of fics ive been seeing lately that have 50 notes and would’ve gotten 500 back in the day makes me extremely sad

#let me see how my fic does tmrw and i’ll confirm or deny my theory

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