YOUR NAME ENGRAVED HEREIN
My most favorite scene in ‘Your name engraved herein’ is when Jia Han and Birdy took a walk together in Canada. At that time, Birdy confessed his love to Jia Han. All emotion nearly exploded. It seems like loads of burdens were all put down. I can see Jia Han’s feeling through his face. He is thoroughly disappointed because why Birdy told him this when they closely turned 50. Why didn’t he say it before? Jia Han wanted to cry profoundly, but he tried to control himself for not being a person who is likely suffering such fierce grief. At that moment, I also could answer all my suspicions. I used to confuse Birdy’s feelings, whether he truly loved Jia Han or not. After all, I acknowledge that Birdy hid his love perfectly. I know he had some feelings for Jia Han, but I’m not sure if he was serious. However, when Birdy met Jia Han in Canada, according to their conversation, I admit that Birdy loved Jia Han so much. When it comes to Jia Han, it is undoubtedly that Jia Han unconditionally and completely loved Birdy. His love for Birdy was the only concern of himself, and he was willing to fight for his love, specifically for Birdy. He dared to fight against this world. In a contrary manner, Birdy knew how severe it was when they were together. He had seen how much tragedy the LBGT community had overcome. He understood how abominable it was when you were gay in the 80s. There were so many obstacles that a gay couple had to accomplish at the current time. Therefore, Birdy wanted to set Jia Han apart from his world by dating Ban Ban and hurting him. It was prominent in the scene Jia Han’s friends chasing Birdy. Jia Han tried to protect Birdy, but Birdy left Jia Han back and ran away. That spot proved that he wanted Jia Han to have an untroubled life. Birdy sacrificed his life to protect Jia Han, I guessed.
When Jia Han called Birdy after entering university, they both were crying. Jia Han was conclusively deep in pain. Birdy was torture also or perhaps even more than Jia Han. Jia Han was sad because they couldn’t be together. Birdy had the same pain as Jia Han, and he felt guilty, too. Birdy felt sorry for having hurt Jia Han. Although he didn’t want it, he forced himself to do it. Eventually, when they were old and had more freedom, Birdy confessed his love for Jia Han. At least, to me, it’s a happy ending. I especially love the scenes when Birdy said ‘wan an’ to Jia Han in front of the hotel where Jia Han stayed. As far as is known, ‘wan an’ in English means good night, but in the movie, it means Wo ai ni, ai ni. It denotes I love you, love you. Jia Han said it twice while Birdy spoke it three times. Maybe three times here means the 30-year-untold love. However, the spot is Birdy also did and still does love Jia Han. I believe that they will keep loving each other. Perhaps the feeling could not be as excruciating as when they were young; notwithstanding, the love flame is still on fire in secret. I think they will be together after coming back to China and spend the rest of their beside each other. Right now, there is no fence between them anymore.
In addition, everybody is wondering why Jia Han did not find Birdy when they were in college. I guess Jia Han wanted to, but Birdy avoided meeting him. You all know Birdy had to redo the entrance exam to enter the university. He was aware of his vague future, especially that he did not want to bother Jia Han. Then, they all graduated and had a job. Jia Han stopped finding Birdy because Birdy was married. Although many years passed, Jia Han still missed Birdy so much. He decided to find Birdy one more time to know how he was then. The situation after that happened in the movie.
To wrap up, from my point of view, Your name engraved herein is not the best movie, but it is still meaningful. It did leave a favorable impression on me. The acting of the two main actors and their chemistry are charismatic. They are good-looking, too. It is worth watching, honestly!
By the way, I love calling Birdy instead of calling his real name. Maybe because the name Birdy describes precisely his disposition. He is insane, a boy loving freedom. He is abstracted but aware of this bitter reality.







