My brain and heart are heavy, I miss cayde so have this.
Fem!guardian reader x cayde
(gif made by me with video from kingneon2660 on tiktok)
Ghost clatters to the floor as you're pushed back with a force so ferocious, you feel empty, hollow now, your life force, the unlimited respawns leaving you for the final time. Ghost skids to a stop away from you, dropping to the floor you crawl to him, your voice barely a whisper, "n..no, gho-" you choked "ghost.." the tears welled in your eyes as you scooped him in your hands raising him to whatever God is listening, "please- PLEASE! b-bring him back.. he's just a ghost.. you raised armies! Please ... You can bring back one ghost.." rubbing your thumb against the cool metal, the tears were falling. Behind you, you felt a presence, one that has soothed and comforted you, "he sure shined bright back there huh.." cayde spoke lightly, trying not to scare you. He walked around you, taking place infront of you, a soft expression on his metallic face. You looked up at him, the tears falling heavier now, "c-cayde.." he smiled warmly at you, "what comes from the light, must return to the light," "Sundance told me that". He adjusted his stance, "she also told me we're all connected, guardians, ghosts, the traveler," he nodded towards something that wasn't visible to you, he cupped your face, "now my diamond, you tell the others this is my choice, my light, nobody makes my fate but me. " He moved his hand off your face and cupped them around yours, around your ghost, you screamed in anguish and pushed him away, "NO!" You sobbed, "cayde.. please.. no don't.. don't do that"
"Guardian, please." He sighed stepping closer to you, "no! No. I can't allow this, please.. please don't leave me again! I just got you back.. please " he softened his stance as he pulled you into him, "my diamond.. I know.. but how will you go on living for the both of us if you don't have ghost anymore..ikora, zavala, and crow need you .. the world needs you, those planets.. they NEED you" he sighed stroking your head gently. You pushed yourself off of him and reached your hand to smack him, you held your hand as it stung and throbbed, tears violently streaming down your face, "God fucking damnit cade I NEED YOU, me have you ever stopped for a fucking second and thought about how I need you, how colonel needs you?!" He held his face, pain evident on his face, "have you ever took a second and thought what this means for ME?! Guardian, getting to choose what I do with MY light?! Saving you?! I get to make that choice, I get to save you!" He was crying now. "Please.. please just let me do this guardian. He forcefully pulled you into him, wrapping his hands around yours again, cradling your ghost with you, "I love you.. guardian" he was vanishing now, "you were always my favorite.. don't you ever, ever forget that." He vanished into your ghost, it took a second but he gasped to full life, "guardian.. there you are" you sobbed with a smile placing your forehead against your ghosts top triangle, "he-here I am" you stuttered out. You looked to the sky one last time, "I.. I love you too.." you whispered.
18+ for mature themes. CW: drugs, potential kidnapping, drugging of drinks, swearing, attempted assault.
Pairings: Deacon Kay x Fem! Reader // (Streets Little Sister)
Kinda bad, but, its fiiiine, I'll do better later.
"and I am the devil you forgot."-Deacon
You smiled at the bartender as she poured you another drink, the team decided to go to the bar after a particularly stressful day, hondo was hanging with Chris, deacon and street, Luca and tan couldn't make it unfortunately. You were hanging and bonding as a team, you downed your drink at the bar and signaled for another, you took that one and joined your team, engaging in conversation and bantering with Chris over her misstep on the mission. "Okay, but what skilled swat officer falls down two steps-," Chris laughed and shoved you playfully, "I twisted my ankle! Y/N, you cannot hold it against me!" You chuckled and eyed her ankle, "where's your brace then- huh?" She glared playfully, "didn't need one !" You laughed again and caught Deacons eye, you smiled and hid your face, you heard him laugh and strike up a conversation with hondo, you dragged yourself back to the bar, the mental mind games between you and Deacon were exhausting, ever since him and Annie got a divorce, he's been off, and different, but he doesn't spare you with flirting, but also acts cold too, you shook the thoughts away and asked for (your favorite alcoholic drink), the waiter smiled kindly at you and set the drink infront of you, you took a sip and sat it back down circling the rim with your finger, the man next to you said something unintelligible and you turned to look at him, taking your attention off of your drink, "pardon?" He smiled and spoke more clearly, "what's a girl like you doing in a place like this" you cringed and shrugged, "just trying to drink in peace." The guy scoffed, "don't gotta be so bitchy" you muttered an apology and took a swig of your drink again, it tasted a little funny but you ignored it. The guy on your other side was side eyeing you a little too much, you tried to ignore it and focus on your drink. You started to feel woozy, your thoughts were blending together. You started panicking, unsure what's happening to you as you couldn't form coherent thoughts, or sentences, the guy who was side eyeing you, "come on baby, you've clearly had way to much to drink, let's get you home" you felt his arm on the small of your back, your anxiety kicking up worse, he started leading you through the crowd, your heart rate speeding up as your vision was blurring, you were nearing the door, all hope of being saved was almost drained when you heard street yelling.
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"hey! Hands off my sister!"
Street came running through the crowd deacon on his tail, "who the hell do you think you are"
The guy looked at street, then at me, "you two look nothing alike, you don't know her, my girlfriend and I are leaving"
The sinister laugh that came out of street made the kidnapper shutter, deacon smiled at the guy, "your girlfriend? No no, she's spoken for"
"by who?"
"me" deacon launched himself at the guy as street caught you before you hit the ground, deacon landed a few good blows before hondo made it through the crowd and pulled deacon off of the guy, hondo handcuffed the man after forcing Deacon towards you and street.
"street is she-"
"she's out cold"
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It's been a week and you've been avoiding deacon and street, you've been avoiding your job for that matter. Hicks said you get 2 weeks max to recover. You were lounging on the couch when your apartment doorbell went off, you groaned and walked to the door, opening it only to try to shut it immediately seeing deac.
He forced the door open and immediately pulled you into a hug. You felt your tears start to fall and your breathing becomes labored, he shushes you running his hands through your hair, "I'm so sorry"
You nuzzled closer to him, loving every minute of this, "deac it's okay" your words were muffled and barely audible
You pulled you closer and you could feel him melting into you, that you two were meant to be.
He spent the whole day with you at your apartment and you slept in the same bed that night.
Content: you found out your daily member died to a demon and you couldnt take it anymore so you took your anger out on your car that you loved to bits.
[This ones been hiding in my Google docs lol]
“Woah sam.. Calm down bubba what happened??”
“This stupid fucking-” you huffed pulling yourself out from underneath your car. You were trying to fix her after an accidental crash.
you smile remembering sams call about your poor baby akandra a 1969 dodge charger, you and your fathers prized possession. “y/n im so sorry! I - she- she came out of no where, fuck im so sorry!”
“I was driving because dean was asleep and i crashed aka, this ghost woman came out of no where, im so sorry!!”
The memory is bitter sweet now that you have to fix your car alone. Tears started streaming down your face as you remembered your father, a kind sweet old hunter that adored the winchesters. The yellow eyed demon went after him and killed him mercilessly. you stare at the crowbar in your hand, and smashed a window to a car behind you, before slamming it repeatedly against aka’s trunk, guttural screams escaping your body, dean coming out just in time to see whats happening and the pain in your body movements, “i didnt even get to say good bye you fucking monster” you screamed slamming the crow bar harder, your hands sore and tired. Dean came up behind you wrapping his arms around you, making you drop the crow bar before you could swing again and breaking down in his arms.
“Its okay! I promise, ill fix her, she's just a car, im not mad i'm just glad you two are okay”
"just- just a car?! Y/N she's all you have left of your dad!"
I giggled, "I know, but you and Dean are more important, I can fix the car, or I can retire her, I can't do that with you and Dean"
“Hey baby, breathe honey, im right here.. I'm right here”
You were inconsolable, crying and yelling, the pain just hitting you like a train. Sam and bobby came outside hearing the commotion seeing your car smashed and you crying. They watched in sorrow, dean finally calming you down, you flipped your body to hug him fully instead of him hugging you from behind.
"what happened sweetheart?"
"I couldn't get a bolt loose.. and usually my d- m-my d-dad helps me, and I just.. spiraled.. and I didn't get... I didn't get to say goodbye .. and now he's not here to help me.."
"Oh honey.." dean hugged you, squeezing you into him. Trying to regulate your nerves and emotions.
Dean let go of you shortly after, "you okay sweetheart?"
You nodded at him. He kissed your temple and picked up a ratchet.
Don't read if you haven't played or don't wanna spoil it for yourself.
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"c-cayde?!"
You- purple
You're the chosen guardian to help the traveler...
Fluff // hunter guardian y/n pov // short ish post? // swearing // hatred.. witness.. influence?//
Ghost- pink
Cayde- blue
You entered the clearing, colonel at your side, zavala was not happy you wanted to bring her. But he relented and allowed you to bring her. Colonel clucked excitedly at your side as ghost appeared, "this feels familiar.." ghost chirped And looked around, you smiled at the serenity of the clearing, all three of you stopped in your tracks as a familiar metallic voice came from the railing. "Whose there?" Your heart fluttered at the voice. He reached for ace and whipped around aiming the gun at your head, you stumbled back and his eyes immediately softened. "G- guardian?!" You removed your helmet dropping it next to you, careful of the chicken. Cayde barely had time to put ace back in her holster before you were jumping into his arms almost toppling you both over. Colonel clucked excitedly behind you. You laughed releasing cayde and stepped aside so the chicken could see her dad.
Cayde picked her up and hugged her excitedly. "I never thought I'd see you again" your heart fluttered. The site of your mentor and his chicken, ghost sat on your shoulder observing silently. Cayde took his attention off of colonel, still petting her feathers of course, he coughed slightly and looked at you, "guardian. I'm.. I'm so happy to see you" you laughed quietly and nodded, "it's really good to see you too cayde." The awkwardness was tense and cutthroat, you didn't know how to feel, of course you were happy your boy was back... The last thing you heard over comms was his dying breath.. his ghost getting smashed, grieving was an every day battle for you, everything hurts and felt fresh all the time. Knowing your best friend, your hunter vanguard, the one person who makes you complete... The one exo hunter you're in love with. You couldn't process the fact he was standing in front of you. He gestured vaguely, "Being in the traveler has been.. serene." He chuckled. Unsure where to start the conversation. You scoffed slightly. "Don't.. don't do that" he looked at you weirdly. "Don't act like I haven't grieved your death.. and like youve been alive this whole time" he looked at you a little surprised, "y/n you don't have to do this.." you growled slightly and looked at him, a tiny bit of hate in your eyes as everything came crashing into you again, "n-no cayde.. I have to say this.. I hate you, for dying the way you did. It wasn't fair. It hurts. I'm so angry with you. I just wanted to love you.. I'm in love without you! Yet you left me.. you left us!!" You gestured to colonel. "You don't get to just waltz back in here and think everything is hunky dory ay-okay, just because you're alive again. I grieved! I'm still grieving you. It hits me every fucking day! You don't understand-" you choked on a sob again, he pulled you into him. Kissing your head. "I'm so sorry, y/n. I never meant to hurt you so much.. I never meant to hurt the person I love.." you nodded into him, and released him, he never stopped holding eye contact he stepped forward and gently put his hand on your face, pulling you into him again, he gently pressed his Metalic lips onto yours, you smiled into the kiss holding it for what felt like forever. He pulled away again as his radio came to life, a colleague summoning him, you chuckled softly and nodded. "Duty calls guardian" you laughed in response. He waved at you as he left the clearing. You straightened yourself knowing you had a job to do.. and couldn't let cayde being back deter you from what you're here to do.
You looked towards the traveler, sitting at caydes memorial in the tower, the travelers light and presence helped you in these dark times, it's been a year since we lost cayde, colonel his chicken hasn't been the same and hangs with you, finding comfort in your presence, you remind her of cayde, you clutched ace in your hand as the tears rolled down your face. The one year anniversary of loosing your best friend hung heavily on your heart.
"guardian" you quickly wiped your tears and looked up to zavala.
"commander" you stood and brushed yourself off taking a more professional stance.
"at ease guardian. You're fine."
You nodded sitting back down with colonel, zavala sat next to you. "I know that today's hard.. I was hoping I wouldn't find you sitting here with his memorial again."
You sighed heavily shrugging. Cayde was the only exo who could read you without you speaking. He was your trainer ever since the vanguard found you. He was whole with you, and you didn't feel alone with him. The last thing you heard over comms haunts you still.. "I'm coming home .. Ace" his ace of spades... That you.. inherited. With an inscription carved on it, just the letter q and a diamond, it still makes you smile, "my queen of diamonds" he'd always say. He never meant to fall in love with his human apprentice, and you never meant to fall in love with your exo mentor, the only other exo/human relationship you know if is Osiris and saint. Zavala pulled you from your thoughts.
"it's been a year since we lost him.. y/n, I think it's time to move on..."
Your head snapped to zavala and your eyes narrowed. You shook your head no. "I will always grieve him. I loved him comander. I'm not gonna ignore him. Or my feelings for him, or his memorial."
Zavala nodded to you apologizing, ikora appeared and looked at me sadly before pulling zavala away.
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Leaving you with your thoughts once again, you sighed, before speaking quietly, "I miss him.." you choked on a sob you didn't know was there, the emotions getting worse, you felt yourself slipping again, it's been harder calming yourself without cayde around, you practiced what he taught you focusing your eyes you looked to the traveler once more, clutching ace to your chest as you struggled to breathe , "I.. I need you cayde.. "
so as it says in the title, head cannons i have for how some of the men in the chicago universe are in bed, ignore the fact this is gonna sound like the same for all of them, they radiate the same sexual energy and its annoying lol. but here we go,
not proof read, apologies for spelling and grammatical errors.
MDNI 18+
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mentions ddy kink, gn play, domination, ropes tying, handcuffs.
fem partner HC
men:
voight, casey, severide, antonio, ruzek, jay halstead.
Voight: A learning experience, definitely has a daddy kink, has a sergeant kink, would use an unloaded gun against you, hand cuffs, dominate male energy, praises and degrading, eats you like its his last meal, much prefers eating you than you on your knees, would make you suck his dick under his desk in office, hickeys in visible and not visible areas, gives the best after care.
Severide: hands has to be all over you, restrains you by his own hands, edging, lieutenant kink, tiny praises, teasing, dominant male, hickeys only in exposed areas others can see, likes you on your knees, has the i go down on you- you go down on me rule(would still eat you regardless), sneaky fire house sex because he needs you always, moderate after care.
Casey: aggressive sex depending on the mood, loving, would let you take control, praises, leaves hickeys all over you, wants you on your knees, after care on point.
Antonio: detective kink, hands have to be all over you, restraints, handcuffs, takes you on anything and everywhere, praises, hickeys everywhere he doesnt care, definitely dominant, major edging and teasing, eats you like hes starving and kisses you after, likes you on your knees, after care is good.
Ruzek: loving, takes his time with you and marks you up, delicate loving praises about how good you look and sound for him, loves to hear you moan, ties you up if you want, lets you take control if you prefer, loves just having this intimate time with you, needy, his after care makes your heart melt.
J. Halstead: detective kink, hickeys galore, dominant, degrading or praises whatever you prefer, ties you up, takes you on anything and everything any and everywhere prefers to have you on your knees, would eat you anyway, would prefer you on your knees though, after care is good and okay,
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