ranting lolz

um a place where i am silly or such i guess?

[vanilaz]

there’s something about my dad telling me about all the things he does with his other kids that makes my heart sink. like oh thanks for telling me, did you forget you were absent most of my childhood?

[dolitaz]

you ever unconsciously bite your lips so much to the point the top layer of your lip is gone?….. no?…… just me?……

[authenticity2025]

[vanilaz]

Today i tripped and fell BOTH knees first, onto my hands into rock hard pavement. In front of a group of teenage boys. Who proceeded to go “oooh 😬” and chuckle. I don’t know what pains me more. My bleeding, now bruised, knees or the embarrassment of falling like a slapstick comic in front of a group of men. I hate it here

[vanilaz]

eid was actually… enjoyable for once and i didnt sit around bored out my brain with a hundred people telling me to do stuff. success??

[vanilaz]

it’s really a struggle being undiagnosed for ADHD but the undiagnosed ADHD stops you from making the effort to get a diagnosis. i need to be committed.

[vanilaz]

this isn’t meant as a “nice guys finish last” type of thing but I’ve been told many, many times I’m way too forgiving of people and I’m not really sure if thats a good thing or bad thing. I guarantee you could be a horrible person to me and I will always forgive and continue to love you because I think ‘well at least I still have them’. Hm.

[vanilaz]

um first post i guess. i am deeply sorry to whoever stumbles across this blog because it WILL just be my thoughts