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[jiangwanyin]

— mieko kawakami, heaven

[thelonerforlife]

“Burning in a hot tunnel of dismay, my humiliation complete as I shake without reason and stumble over words and have nothing to say about my ‘illness’ which anyway amounts only to knowing that there’s no point in anything because I’m going to die. And I am deadlocked by that smooth psychiatric voice of reason which tells me there is an objective reality in which my body and mind are one. But I am not here and never have been. Dr This writes it down and Dr That attempts a sympathetic murmur. Watching me, judging me, smelling the crippling failure oozing from my skin, my desperation clawing and all-consuming panic drenching me as I gape in horror at the world and wonder why everyone is smiling and looking at me with secret knowledge of my aching shame.”

Sarah Kane, 4.48 Psychosis

[mournfulroses]

Sarah Kane, from The Complete Plays of Sarah Kane; "Cleansed," first performed in 1998

[symeonae]

The Hunger Artists, Maud Ellmann

[aerithpilled]

Swan-like Embrace by Nan Goldin, 2001. Felt very butchfemme to me <3

[annantan]

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photograph by elvert barnes in washington dc 1996 <3

[petaltexturedskies]

But good God, what's wrong with me, after all? What am I missing? Why this emptiness, this nostalgia? What is this anxiety, as if I only loved something I didn’t know?

Clarice Lispector, in a letter to Fernando Sabino, from Why This World: A Biography of Clarice Lispector

[a-melin]

[mournfulroses]

Albert Camus, from a letter to María Casares featured in Correspondance, 1944-1959

[nixscriptum]

[nixscriptum]

[mournfulroses]

Anne Sexton, from a poem titled "Loving The Killer," featured in The Complete Poems of Anne Sexton

[mournfulroses]

Patricia A. McKillip, from her book titled "The Book of Atrix Wolfe," originally published in 1995

[florial]

[mournfulroses]

Georgia O’Keeffe, from a letter to Alfred Stieglitz featured in My Faraway One: Selected Letters of Georgia O'Keeffe and Alfred Stieglitz: Volume One, 1915-1933

[lunamonchtuna]

— Clementine Von Radics, from In A Dream You Saw A Way To Survive; "The Fear" (via lunamonchtuna)