by Alli M.A.

♡ Her name is Allison Rose McAllister (pseudonym) and she's a seventeen year old ambivert who loves to express herself through the magic of words ♡ ✩ stardust, moonlight and elegies ✩ ✩ all posts are mine ✩ ✩ created 11-28-16 ✩ ✩ the one and only ✩ ✩ Written word chains: ✩ Sad Series (18) ✩ ✩ Her (14) ✩ ✩ About a Boy (7) ✩ ✩ (Upcoming) Open Letters ✩

[sheisatragicstory]

“She’ll knock on your door, asking you to let her not only into your home, but also into your life—and you let her in. She’ll make you feel whole again. She’ll promise the stars to you. She’ll kiss you senseless. She’ll consume your whole being—and you let her eat you. She’ll start to get cold. She’ll let you feel that she’s slowly slipping away. She’ll want you on your knees. She’ll let you beg for her once more. She’ll laugh at how pathetic you are. And when she’s done with you, she’ll discard you like a rag doll—and you, you let her destroy you.”

— the beast behind her beauty

[olearypoetry]

[roses-andtheir-thorns]

{5/14/18} Questions

Why do I constantly avoid my problems? I tell others to face what they fear head on, but I can’t ever follow my own damned advice.

Why do I keep ruining things? Why couldn’t I just be happy? Why am I the way I am? Why do I keep asking myself why I’m alone when I damn well know the answer to that?

Why am I always in denial? Why can’t I ever keep my mouth shut when it should be and speak up when I need to? Why am I fucking like this.

- a

[vanillascentedrose]

I swear to God, I'm about to break.

[vanillascentedrose]

“i try to remember the way you’d smile, talk, laugh i don’t ever want to forget these memories are all i have left of our time together and now we’re apart separated only by space and time and a trail of stardust you left behind”

— Alli M.A. ~ kiss the moon for me on your way up

[heartial]

lais·sez-faire

/ˌlesāˈfer/

noun a policy or attitude of letting things take their own course, without interfering.

[heartial]

lim·er·ence

/ˈlimərəns/ 

noun the state of being infatuated or obsessed with another person. (usually involuntary)

[heartial]

moon·struck

/ˈmo͞onˌstrək/

adjective unable to think or act normally, especially because of being in love. 

[heartial]

a list of soft, pretty words 🕊💐

astral (adj.) of, connected with, or resembling the stars. paradisaic (adj.) of or belonging to heaven or god. empyrean (adj.) belonging to or deriving from heaven. seraphic (adj.) characteristic of or resembling an angel. sublime (adj.) of such excellence, grandeur, or beauty as to inspire great admiration or awe. svelte (adj.) slender, graceful and elegant. (describing a person)

[roses-andtheir-thorns]

11/23/17

Another day, another problem

[wordsnquotes]

Sometimes, home has a heartbeat.

Beau Taplin, “Home” (via wordsnquotes)

[olearypoetry]

[heartial]

sau·da·de

/souˈdädə/

noun

desire to be near someone or something distant; a feeling of longing, melancholy, or nostalgia

[wordsnquotes]

Love when you’re ready, not when you’re lonely.

Unknown (via wordsnquotes)

[vanillascentedrose]

She hurt me A lot She was also the only friend I could turn to When I had no one else I could trust She mocked me Every day She was also the only one Who could make me laugh And bring a real smile To my face She liked to hit me When I was smaller and couldn’t defend myself I didn’t mind it then And I think If she were back I wouldn’t mind it again She was a constant in my life Back when people Always left And I want her back Even if it means Losing more of myself I’d compare her to roses Say how pretty she looked But she made bleed Many times With her thorns And I’d say I don’t mind But I’d try to defend her Say, maybe, She was hurting too And needed someone else to feel What she felt How much harm could a child do? She was my bully And my best friend You say you can’t understand How I could like her? I don’t know either But I do, no matter how far she is now

Alli M.A. ~ A little insight on who “her” is ~ Her {14}

[vanillascentedrose]

i wish you would just talk to me one on one like we used to say it straight to my face; don’t sugarcoat your bitter words to ease my pain look me in the eye and tell me exactly what you have to gain tell me when it all began; tell me when your feelings started to change tell me instead of going to them and stabbing me in the back i thought that we were more than that i thought that you would stay

Alli M.A. ~ you’re not who i thought you were

[vanillascentedrose]

Everyday is a bloody battle and I have never won.

Alli M.A. ~ Sad Series number 18