#vanillascentedrose

[vanillascentedrose]

I never knew what it felt like to have my heart broken until you. You didn’t stop once you had my heart, you just had to have my soul too.

Alli M.A. ~ Part of growing up ~ Her {13)

[vanillascentedrose]

All I am are pretty words spewed from an ugly soul. Roses bloom from this rough patch of thorns.

Alli M.A.

[vanillascentedrose]

Your words are laced with sin and the intent to kill.

Alli M.A.

[vanillascentedrose]

It’ll start out slow And small You will barely even notice it But it’ll be there — the warmth It’ll spread like Water on a flat surface You will see her And feel a sense of fondness You will think of it as the sort you feel for a friend Until you realize it’s not Then You’ll blush Whenever she comes close You’ll want to get even closer You’ll want to be near her always But then, you can’t Because you’re a girl And she’s your friend And friends don’t think of friends That way It will hurt Watching her get close to others People who aren’t you — boys Your heart will ache As she becomes more intimate with them You’ll be selfish and get all her attention You’ll convince yourself that your little conversations On boys, love and life will be enough But it won’t be Because you’re attracted to her And then it builds up Again and again you remind yourself No — you can’t have her But you want what you can’t have She’s like art in a museum All you do is stare But you can’t touch Until eventually All your pent up emotion becomes confidence (stupidity) You’ll want to confess This is how it’ll end The words will spill from your mouth She’ll stare at you after you lay your heart out Bare and naked You’ll know the answer soon enough But not from her lips, but her eyes You’ll know after moments of silence too long You’ll know at the pained expression on her face Your heart would continue to beat on the floor Until she grabs ahold of it Then crushes

Alli M.A. ~ the reason why it’s called a crush

[vanillascentedrose]

i don’t know what i ever saw in you — or continue to do so. but i am drawn to you like a moth is to a flame. i tried to stay away, i really did, but i’m caught in your web and i can’t break free. your poison smells like honey to me and i can’t help but crave it. my heart skips a beat every time i see you; my heart dances ferociously every time you’re near. and my heart feels so heavy when you’re gone. i want you back but i know you’re not good for me. i miss you so much. i miss what we used to be. i read our old messages constantly but we haven’t even spoken in what feels like centuries. god, how i miss your smile.

Alli M.A. ~ Her {12}

[vanillascentedrose]

You tore my heart out but expect me to apologize for the mess it made on your hands.

Alli M.A.

[vanillascentedrose]

Maybe I’m not so dead inside, maybe this is what it’s like to be alive. Maybe this is me just trying to understand what these feelings mean.

Alli M.A.

[vanillascentedrose]

You’re the smoke in my lungs The high in my veins I want you, but you’re killing me I need you, but you’re not right for me At least that’s what they say I keep coming back for more But we can never be You’re nothing but a dream Something I’ve conjured up in my misery

Alli M.A. ~ toxic dream