Diary Of Varvain [Lyall] Park

There's nowhere to run. Is it who I really am? Is it my destiny? or...is it just goddamn FATE that I have to face?

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I missed Lionel Kim Jong Dae @KJongdae_VA so bad ;~; </3

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Dec 1st, 2012...and Arvel officially my daddy

So...yes...Elizabeth Mommy now dating with Arvel...that used to be my so-called son *laugh* now not anymore...he's got upgraded as my little dad xD

Now I'm like...

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MY VAMPIRE PARENTS

LEFT : AELFRIC LEE

RIGHT : NAOMI HWANG

BOTTOM : ELIZABETH KIM

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Dec 1st, 2012

Dear Diary,

So...things not getting easier. Few days ago  went with Damien oppa to his hometown, Vaduz. yeah so we went there by teleport and since we arrived there, something strange already happen like...the front door was half-opened and the atmosphere around was so cold and dark also but anyway...we went inside and straight to his backyard (he told me that he killed little girl by accident when he was younger) to see the little girl grave. We sat there for second, he put a flower on the grave and then we got up to his bedroom on the second floor.

As we reached the door, I saw that the key hole seemed like...in damage. Like someone ever tried to force-open it. So he opened it and we saw a mess inside and the windows were broken. He was furious but I calmed him down and we saw some papers on his desk. We checked the papers and he found a certificate...birth certificate, taht turned out to be the birth certificate of the little girl...I forgot the name...the surname is Aiken.

Our first thought was...witches.

We got back to Academy. Into my room and I handed him my book of witches and I searched anything about it from the net. So well I picked something from his room. I found some blood so I showed him the blood and by the smell the blood has werewolf venom in it.

After a few thinking, we decide to go back there to see the girl's blood.

We got back and once we about to dig the grave, something shot Damien...on the back of his neck...it was silver arrow. I tried to look for who did that but it was gone. So I got Damien and took him to his room.

He had a terrible smokey wound on the back of his neck. Silver poison. yeah I never got hurt so I never know any poison. Then I decided to help him. I offered him to suck the poison out, well it might got a little effect on me but it won't harm me right.

So yeah I saved his life for the first time :)

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Cotton Candy Bouquet? Corsage?

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BUILT ON SECRETS - BEYOND THE SHADOW

It's only natural to be afraid I've said all that I can say You're ingrained in every memory I thought by now that you would leave Apologies they don't mean a thing (They don't mean anything) You said it would be different now You never told But I found out I'm content to be alone Please don't cause a scene There is a darkness in this light One which I cannot fight Lost amongst regret This will never be There's no sign to say That this time this is real These are the shadows of my past But I'm choosing what to feel Yeah, I'm choosing what to feel about this And everything around me Doesn't make sense But everybody knows That I'm playing for keeps I'm trying hard to believe In the one thing I can believe in, is myself If I could only believe in myself I need to get this off my chest I'm doing what I think is best Cause it's only natural to be afraid I've said all that I can say You're ingrained in ever memory I thought by now that you would leave Apologies they don't mean a thing (They don't mean anything) You said it will be different now You never told but I found out I'm content to be alone Please don't cause a scene

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Nov 27th, 2012

Dear Diary...

So well, so far my life just been ups and downs and fall over the places. Okay will give you some resume of mu life from about November 11th 2012

Yes I'm back to the Academy. With totally different life. I mean...I'm still a werewolf but things just got worse. Found out I'm the heiress. The only one who should replace my father leading the pack. So I hid in Vampire Academy. Buried all my werewolf identity. Make sure nobody from the pack can track me. But suddenly there was someone..who called me...'Lyall' yes. It's my werewolf name and he said he's my biological brother. I didn't have any memories about him so he took me to the past and showed me everything about me and him. My father...later I know he erased all my memories about my brothers (as you know I have three) So yeah Pieter brought them all back.

Well since the pack can track me, Academy was in so much danger. Alucard increasing the protections and stuffs but still my father can reach me through my head and one day he hypnotized me and kidnapped me but Pieter found me easily.

I got back to Academy and got locked up to prevent anything happen but then...something bigger and more dangerous came. Weewolves...about 100 of them. Lionel...he guarded me in the basement (where I locked up) but then demons entered the academy and there were big war from Academy to the forest. Lionel (whose half demon) then got possessed. Crimson unnie took me away and The founders were against him while my father's voice are everywhere all around the academy and it ended with Lionel took me away to my father's palace.

Days gone by and finally I can contact my brothers to tell where was I. they came with the founders and Father tortured me and Lionel but well after another bloody war, they finally got me and Lionel back to the academy.

Something different happened to me. My sign kept burning and there I saw a golden lining that indicates that I'm the leader of the pack. My father throned me before I got back for the second time.

I was really frustrated and my ability gone that time until Pieter took me to see mother and there I got the sword. Without thinking any further I went to the Germany the next day and...cut my father's head off. Well it wasn't easy though. I teleported back with blood all over my body, drained out and the sign felt like gonna wreck my skin but then all the pain gone and the scars and wound starting to heal. I got my ability back.

Well yeah that's all I think...so now, all things back to normal...I think. But no. Well the Pack has a new leader but then they not let me go that easy. The leader telepathed me and said that I'm still the heiress even though I choose my own path but I'm always be the heiress. So, even though I'm not leading the pack, I'm still owning the pack and whenever the pack needs me, they will come to me and I have to help them just like my father has done all these times. His soul is in me and yeah, I agree and accept it, he still my father no matter how much evil he is. He loves me and he trust his massive numbers of pack to me. So yeah...that what's going on with me and the pack.

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My Twin Kids

Okay well not really my biological kids though...I kinda adopt them lol I named them Ssulmon and HoonMon

Arvel Jung (Jung Ilhoon) a.k.a Hoonmon

Maundrell Choi (Choi 'Sulli' Jinri) a.k.a Ssulmon

Okay...wondering why about the nickname? Well...it's because of...

THIS!!!

LOL -.- Guess what...SALMON!!!

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He just anything you ask for a best friend and a lover...

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Him.

Yeah so...I have this guy. He's been my best friend since ever. Yeah he's a vampire too also and he was the only one who can calm me down.

But the we separated. Dad took me away. Away from everything I used to know.

So yeah, short story we meet again. In the academy and as time goes by...well...closeness leads to chemistry and strong chemistry leads to love...true love. That's what we feel. We both feel it. It's like fate to me.

Anyway...

Later I knew that it was his whole clan-whole family that my father murdered long time ago. I feelt so horrible but then again he calmed me and said whatever happened in the past has nothing to do with our relationship.

Then again he confessed to me that he's half-demon which makes everything clear why my father didn't kill him and just left him live (I will tell more about that later).

It's shocking. Complicated. Shits happen but for us...nothing can stop us being together. Even death since oh well we're practically dead already anyway.

So him...Lionel Kim (Kim Jongdae) is my true love. My diamond. My eternity. My lifetime. My everything. Everything I Need.

Do I need to explain more why I love him?

I think you all got the points already *chuckle*

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So...

Being half creature like this really confusing. I mean..it's like you never know yourself. Your true self...simple example, I'm having claws and fangs...two things that really the opposite. My blood is a mixture of hot-blooded werewolf and cold-blooded vampire. I'm technically living because werewolf is breathing and stuffs right? Okay so these some more things about me.

My eyes :

yes, it's freakin purple just like that

My Sign :

and I'm always wearing this shawl to cover it...to make me un-recognize beside this shawl is the only thing left of my mother that father allowed me to bring it anywhere

My Pendant

It's originally Pieter's but he gave it to me for my protection

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WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE INANIMATE OBJECT?

Prey...

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Me

Human Name : Park Sooyoung

Nick Name : Lizzy

Werewolf Name : Lyall Park

Vampire Name : Varvain Park

Type : half-vampire, half-werewolf

Date of Birth : July 31st, 1992

Place of Birth : Berlin-Germany (Raised in Busan, Korea)

Present Place : Vampire Academy, Seoul, Korea

Trademark : Purple Eyes (that turn into yellow in werewolf form)

Ability : Rapid Cell Regeneration

Family

Father : Adolf Ulrick Park (Park Wonjin) - Werewolf Leader

Mother : Felicia Park (Park Sejung) - Vampire

Biological Brother : Pieter Park (Park Taejun)

Half-brothers : Samuel Choi (Choi Minho) and Dovdenico Shin (Shin 'Peniel' DongGeun)

So those are basically ALL of my life...well yeah...complicated right? It's just the beginning though...I told you, before you already gone too far...you better step back and put this book away...

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Welcome to my miserable life. Well yeah these are me...both of them. It's something like multiple personalities but no...You'll see. But I told you to not entering my life because you never know what my life can brought you to but it's up to you in the end anyway...so this is me, Varvain and this is where my life goes...