just studying :)

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[vayz-is-studying]

Hello!

This is an attempt to be productive and stay consistent. I have been slacking on my studies lately, so I wanted a place to track my progress and keep myself motivated throughout this process.

Hoping this helps me stay on track, and maybe I'll also find people who are somewhere along the same path :)

main blog: @windowseatdreams

[vayz-is-studying]

Wednesday | 24.06.26

⏱ 06h 35m | 10:02 ▸ 23:28

tdl

modern history lec - ○ 18/22 (10:02 - 12:47) ○19/22 (13:22 - 16:54)

⊘ current affairs lec

○ answer writing (23:10 - 23:28) ◌ mcqs

○ icw - ch 7 ↷ ◌ ml - ch 6 ↷

○ revise modern history module 1 ↷

anki

⤷ add - ○ polity ◌ modern history ○ ca

⤷ review - ○ polity ○ modern history ○ ca

haven't studied this much since the exams ended so that's nice 😭

but somehow 6h 35m = 1.5 lectures + one answer??? i genuinely thought i did more than that 😭

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔰𝔲𝔫𝔡𝔞𝔶 | 21.06.26 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

⏱ 04h 45m | 05:29 ▸ 20:42

◉ ml - ch 5 (05:29 - 06:13)

◉ modern history lec - 17/22 (10:10 - 15:09, way too many breaks 😭)

◉ anki - add polity (06:13 - 06:30)

◉ review cards (19:42 - 20:04)

◉ answer writing (20:26 - 20:42)

◌ mcqs

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

my study schedule was a mess this week. i was pretty bummed after seeing the results and didn't really feel like doing much.

studied a little today... not much tho.

anyway, i'm done moping around. can't really change the results, so i might as well get back to studying. hopefully i can get back on track tomorrow and stick to my schedule this time 🫠

[also, i'm not really sure what to do about the 50 days of productivity challenge now 😭 it kinda feels like i broke the streak. i know the whole point was that not every day has to be productive, but missing an entire week makes it feel a bit weird 🫠

for now, i'm just hoping i can start posting consistently again.]

[vayz-is-studying]

my results for one of the unis came out today... its bad and i'm not taking it very well. the exam wasn't even that bad, which somehow makes it worse because i can't help but think it's my fault.

tbh, i don't think it's just about this one exam. for the past 7-8 months it's been exam after exam, hoping that maybe this one will work out. but right now it feels like nothing is.

sometimes, it feels like by attempting these exams, i am just trying to ease the guilt of these drop years, trying to justify things... coz it had started to feel like I was doing something... rather than wasting all the time and money.

and now i'm stuck in this loop of questioning everything. i mean, if i can't even do this... upsc really does sounds like a far fetched dream everyone makes it to be.

atp i feel so tired of it all... i don't really know what to do ahead, and feels like i'm getting nowhere.

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔡7 - 𝔡10 | (𝔱𝔲𝔢) 09.09.26 - (𝔣𝔯𝔦) 12.09.26 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

did not study anything other than reviewing anki 😭.

the last two days just went in applications and i've only applied to 2 universities 😮‍💨. site crashes, internet issues because of the rain, and me procrastinating until the last few days definitely did not help.

tbh i'm so done with forms at this point. all the portals are basically the same, but every university wants you to fill out a separate form and enter the same details again and again 😭.

still have 4-5 universities left to apply to. hopefully i can get done with most of it tomorrow with no new required document suddenly popping up so i can get back to studying.

[freak-a-lick]

you don’t need perfect conditions to start. you just need to start. five minutes of focus is better than waiting for motivation to come.

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔡6 | (𝔪𝔬𝔫) 08.06.26 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

☀︎ 5:00 | ☽ 00:12

⏱ 5h 07m | 10:00 ▸ 23:38

lectures:

◓ modern history - ◉ 15/22 (11:50 - 13:11) ◓ 16/22 (21:50 - 23:38)

◉ current affairs - 08.06 (10:00 - 11:00)

anki:

○ review

◉ add polity lecture notes (14:00 - 15:06)

○ add modern history lecture notes

studying this week (08.06 - 14.06):

○ polity - preamble + union & it's territories

⤷ preamble - review lecture notes (08.06) (14:00 - 15:06)

⤷ ncert xi - icw (08.06) - ○ ch 1 ○ ch 10

⤷ ml - ch 5 (09.06)

⤷ union & it's territories - review lecture notes (10.06)

⤷ ml - ch 6 (11.06 - 12.06)

⤷ notes (13.06 - 14.06)

○ modern history - advent of the europeans and expansion of british

⤷ review lecture notes (08.06 - 10.06)

⤷ bipin chandra - ch 2 (11.06 - 13.06)

dailies:

◉ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ⊘ answer writing

others:

◉ journal ◌ go on a walk ◉ review internship & apply if possible ○ membership application

○ must do ◌ not a must do ◉ done ◓ half done

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

feels like i did most of the tasks today 😌

got a call from a friend and it went on much longer than i expected. also realised i'm not eligible for the internship because i'm not enrolled in a university yet... which is kinda annoying because i'll be enrolled in like a month 🫠 it was a really good opportunity too.

i was hoping to finish the lecture before going to sleep, but i kept dozing off while watching it 😭 so, decided to call it a day instead.

not everything went as planned, but i somehow feel good ✨️

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔡4 | (𝔰𝔞𝔱) 06.06.26 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

☀︎ 07:12 | ☽

⏱ 3h 46m | 09:40 ▸ 15:54

lectures

◓ modern history - 15/22 (13:30 - 15:54)

◉ current affairs - 06.06 (10:36 - 11:16)

anki

○ add current affairs cards

⤷ ◉ 05.02 (09:40 - 10:15) ◌ 06.06

○ review polity

studying this week (05.06 - 07.06)

○ polity - constitution

⤷ review lecture notes (05.06) (05.06; 01:00 - 02:18, made anki cards from the notes too!)

⤷ ncerts (06.06): ○ ix - ch2 ○ xi - ch1

⤷ anki (07.06)

⤷ pyqs (07.06)

dailies

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others

◉ journal ◌ go on a walk ◌ review internship info & apply if possible ○ membership application

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

couldn't study much coz i wasn't feeling well 😮‍💨

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔡3 | (𝔣𝔯𝔦) 05.06.26 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

☀︎ 05:08 | ☽ 04:55

⏱ 05h40m | 21:30 ▸ 04:19

lectures

◉ modern history - 14/22 (21:30 - 00:28)

◉ current affairs - 05.06 (02:55 - 04:19)

anki

○ review current affairs

studying this week (05.06 - 07.06)

○ polity - constitution

⤷ review lecture notes (05.06) (01:00 - 02:18, made anki cards from the notes too!)

⤷ ncerts (06.06): ○ ix - ch2 ○ xi - ch1

⤷ anki (07.06)

⤷ pyqs (07.06)

dailies

⊘ read newspaper ⊘ mcqs ⊘ answer writing

other

◉ journal ◌ go on a walk ◌ review internship info & apply if possible ○ membership application

○ must do ◌ not a must do

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

pulled an all-nighter somehow and still got only a few things done, but it felt like a very productive night 💀.

i have no idea how i'm gonna fix my sleep schedule after this tho.

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔡2 | (𝔱𝔥𝔲𝔯𝔰) 04.06.26 | 𝔱𝔡𝔩 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

lectures

○ modern history - 14/22 ○ current affairs - 04.06

anki

○ add current affairs cards - ○ 03.06 ○ 04.06

○ add modern history cards - ○ 12/22 ○ 13/22

readings

○ modern history (ncert viii) - ○ ch3 ○ ch4

◌ polity (ncert viii) - ◌ ch3 ◌ ch4

dailies

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others

◌ go on a walk ○ journal ○ read ○ apply for admission

○ - must do ◌ - not a must do

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

hello!

idk what happened 😭 i went to sleep feeling motivated and somehow woke up with none of it. even woke up later than usual, which definitely didn't help. looks like i can't do much about it now 😮‍💨

anyway, i really need to finally apply to at least 2 universities because i've been procrastinating on that for way too long and the deadlines are getting close 🫠 hopefully it won't take up too much time and i'll still be able to finish the rest of my tasks as planned.

wishing everyone a productive day ✨️

[vayz-is-studying]

didn't do any studying today other than current affairs 😮‍💨 admission registrations took longer than i expected.

why is the documentation process never-ending 😭 every time i think i'm finally done, there's another document to upload or another form to fill out 🫠.

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔡2 | (𝔱𝔥𝔲𝔯𝔰) 04.06.26 | 𝔱𝔡𝔩 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

lectures

○ modern history - 14/22 ○ current affairs - 04.06

anki

○ add current affairs cards - ○ 03.06 ○ 04.06

○ add modern history cards - ○ 12/22 ○ 13/22

readings

○ modern history (ncert viii) - ○ ch3 ○ ch4

◌ polity (ncert viii) - ◌ ch3 ◌ ch4

dailies

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others

◌ go on a walk ○ journal ○ read ○ apply for admission

○ - must do ◌ - not a must do

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

hello!

idk what happened 😭 i went to sleep feeling motivated and somehow woke up with none of it. even woke up later than usual, which definitely didn't help. looks like i can't do much about it now 😮‍💨

anyway, i really need to finally apply to at least 2 universities because i've been procrastinating on that for way too long and the deadlines are getting close 🫠 hopefully it won't take up too much time and i'll still be able to finish the rest of my tasks as planned.

wishing everyone a productive day ✨️

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔡1 | (𝔴𝔢𝔡) 03.06.26 | 𝔱𝔡𝔩 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

lectures

○ modern history - 13/22 ○ current affairs - 03.06

anki

◌ psych - history and schools ○ add current affairs cards (03.06) ○ add modern history cards (12/22)

readings

○ modern history - (ncert viii)

○ ch 3 ◌ ch 4

○ polity - (ncert viii) ch 3

dailies

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others

◌ go on a walk ○ journal ◌ make a drink ○ read

○ - must do ◌ - not a must do

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

good morning \(^o^)/

it's been raining since i woke up. i usually love rain, but it's been thundering too. hopefully it won't get too hot later.

i was really motivated to study when i posted last, but somehow that motivation disappeared and i ended up lazing around for two more days 💀. anyway, i'll try to be more consistent from now on.

have a good day everyone! ✨️

[vayz-is-studying]

☀︎ 4:30 | ☽ 00:15

⏱ 5h 18m | 10:17 ▸ 22:16

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

lectures

◉ modern history - 13/22 (18:30 - 22:16)

◉ current affairs - 03.06 (10:17 - 11:49)

anki

◌ psych - schools and history

◓ add current affairs cards (03.06)

>> add modern history cards (12/22)

readings

>> modern history (ncert viii) - ch 3 & 4

>> polity (ncert viii) - ch 3

dailies

◉ read newspaper ⊘ mcqs ⊘ answer writing

others

⊘ go on a walk ◉ journal ◉ make a drink ⊘ read

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

was a good day :)

studied better than I expected to. also the weather was cool and calming, so that was a plus. lazed around quite a lot too... a 30 min break somehow turned into an entire afternoon rest 🫠.

ah well... same routine tomorrow, i guess.

[vayz-is-studying]

𝔡1 | (𝔴𝔢𝔡) 03.06.26 | 𝔱𝔡𝔩 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

lectures

○ modern history - 13/22 ○ current affairs - 03.06

anki

◌ psych - history and schools ○ add current affairs cards (03.06) ○ add modern history cards (12/22)

readings

○ modern history - (ncert viii)

○ ch 3 ◌ ch 4

○ polity - (ncert viii) ch 3

dailies

○ read newspaper ◌ mcqs ○ answer writing

others

◌ go on a walk ○ journal ◌ make a drink ○ read

○ - must do ◌ - not a must do

⊹ ࣪ ﹏𓊝﹏𓂁﹏⊹ ࣪ ˖

good morning \(^o^)/

it's been raining since i woke up. i usually love rain, but it's been thundering too. hopefully it won't get too hot later.

i was really motivated to study when i posted last, but somehow that motivation disappeared and i ended up lazing around for two more days 💀. anyway, i'll try to be more consistent from now on.

have a good day everyone! ✨️

[vayz-is-studying]

hoping to be more consistent this month ✨

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𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𝔧𝔲𝔫𝔢 𝔱𝔡𝔩 𓆝 𓆟 𓆞

modern history

○ lectures: 12/22 ◌ bipin chandra: __/14 ○ ncerts: __/14

polity

○ ncerts: __/56 ◌ m. laxmikanth: __/12

psychology

○ ncert: __/18

dailies

○ journal ○ workout ○ wake up early ○ read a book ○ newspaper: __/30 ○ csat sundays

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

○ - must do ◌ - not a must do

also, gonna try 50 days of productivity :)

[vayz-is-studying]

may 2026

feels like i haven't studied much this month... but i know i did (coz of exams 😭).

i guess i spent most of the month trying not to lose my mind between all those entrances, revising the same topics over and over again, and the fever.

please be kind and more productive, june 🥹✨️

[oh-phoenixx]

"how's your psychology course going?"

[vayz-is-studying]

entrances finally done 🫡

now we go back to studying 🙅‍♀️😭