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Personal Diary Height: 5’7 Sw: 228lbs Cw: 178.4lbs Ugw: 130lbs

[vearraarcade]

Anybody ever notice how nobody ever draws cute happy big anime girls unless their fetishized? Idk that tells me all I need to know

[lilit1hst4rv]

me trying to sneakily look at the back of a nutrition label but my family/friend is next to me

[roseforviolet]

[mentallyillkidd]

So tired of my body id wholeheartedly would rather d¡e than l¡ve another day in this sh¡tty f@t vessel. It doesn’t even feel mine at this point im so detached from my body I genuinely cant l¡ve in it anymore. It betrays me day after day, i want another body🎀🎀🎀

[vearraarcade]

Unless the world ends tmr, Unless war breaks out and ruins trade, Unless you die tmr, food will always be there.

McDonald’s will always open and the cafeteria at school will always open to serve the same things. It will never disappear. So there’s nothing wrong with waiting until you’ve met your goals to metabolize. Food can wait, Your Goal weight cannot.

[vearraarcade]

It’s been a minute but I’m back, I’ve got a lot of progress to make and events that I want to lose weight for coming up. I’m starting at my highest weight I’ve been in awhile 217lbs, I know, disgusting. Here’s to the restart 🥂

Cw: 217lbs

1st Gw: 190lbs

2nd Gw: 170lbs

3rd Gw: 150lbs

4th Gw: 130lbs

Ulti Gw: 125lbs

Height: 5’7

Gym Schedule: Everyday let’s be fr 💀

[peachiier-deactivated20240530]

i have so much potential. i will not ruin it this time

[wintergirl1mdna]

reblog if may is gonna be your. month.

[vearraarcade]

Just weighed myself today and it was 209.6lbs. I feel like such a pig. I was doing good until this weekend where I partied and got drunk. But when I really think about it, I haven’t been doing good since this whole year started because I’ve been sitting at the same weight and eating over 1,000 calories every single damn day.

I’m tired of being stagnant and losing hope when I step on the scale. I need to commit fully, I need to accept this as my lifestyle and not temporary. Or else I’ll stay a whale forever. No more day ones.

Stay disciplined guys you’ll immediately regret falling off when you can’t get back on. Resist.

I need to succeed, it’s my only option.

[brokenteensypieces]

I swear to god my favorite +h1nspø is people with their knees to their chest, I wanna look like that when I sit like that so bad, I hate how I look like I'ma pop when I do that

[vearraarcade]

I just wanna be thin

[skinishangels]

✨Why to do it✨

To not be a joke

People caring for u

Boys helping u when u pick up stuff

People would not ignore u

To get invited to parties

To wear pretty dresses specially bodycon and not feel like a blob of fat

To look good without trying

Outfits would be cuter

Never having to wory about meeting relatives

To have people notice my weight loss

People would not be disgusted by me

I will have friends

For benches to not creek

My uni life would be enjoyable

Be able to do physical activity and not get tired

My dad would be proud

People would be concerned

To walk and move gracefully and not feel like ur weight is crushing the floor

To finally have the life I want

To be the happiest

Yo know what to do... just follow it!❤️

[vearraarcade]

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

I WILL HAVE MY DREAM BODY IN 2024

[vearraarcade]

Tonight’s the night. I’m gonna stand on business and stop the binge cycle I’ve been trapped in.

I’ve also decided to go vegetarian for the year :)

This will be a year of self improvement. 2024 is our year

[idontlikedicktionaries]

REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

[breakmycollarbones]

Always ♡♡

[weightlessgothgirl]

PLEASE DO IM SO LONELY

[starvbitch]

always

[vearraarcade]

Ofc :)

[vearraarcade]

I messed up bad these past two days and binged. Got assaulted while drunk at my own dorm Friday. And it’s finals week. I’m speechless.

But regardless I’m gonna get back up on that horse and fast for the next 36 hours :)

Wish me strength cause this is stressing me out

[miathinaf]

real lol

[vearraarcade]

I need to fast until I don’t feel hunger anymore. All I want is to not be hungry in my head. I don’t want to think about it. But it’s literally the only thing ever on my mind. Eating. I hate it.