––– disa;
As she knelt next to her sister, DIsa felt Friđa tremble beneath her. It was not fair. When were things ever fair for Friđa? Disa took everything in stride, but even she could not imagine the pain of having lost a child. Children were supposed to bring joy and hope into the world, and instead her sister gets…this. This is why I shall never bear a child, Disa thought bitterly. The risk of heartbreak would be too much. Looking at Friđa as her tears finally made tracks down her face, Disa resolved to steel herself. Kristoffer was not here - to offer comfort, or something else? - although she was. She pressed her own cheek to Friđa’s hair. “I know. I know, my dear. You have done nothing to deserve this, do you hear me? Nothing. This was…an unfortunate accident. Please, sister, let us clean you up.”
an unfortunate accident. she wanted to know why ––– why god so willingly caused this? was there something wrong with her? was she not to ever bear a child? it was the one task she had been entrusted with and yet, she still managed to fail. “ he is going to hate me, disa. ” she did not specify who she spoke about but between sobs, it was clear who she referred herself to. “ he was finally accepting of me and now - ... ” though she was never able to finish her sentence, hand still getting hold of the small hints that she ever was with child; her small belly. the tears were difficult to stop and vision blurred even thinking of what his reaction would be.


















