athena

TW: ED pro recovery block don’t report sw: 101lb cw: 98lb gw: 85lb ugw: 80lb minor she/her

[sotiredsthings]

I'm stuck between wanting to get better, wanting to be thin, and wanting to get so sick people get concerned.

[velvetvirgo]

i started a new birth control and it gives me an INSANE stomach ache if i don’t eat til i’m full. now how the hell am i supposed to restrict in these conditions 😟😟

[velvetvirgo]

now tell me why i just walked in on my mom watching to the bone…

[velvetvirgo]

i’m back bitchessss

listen i was in recovery but then i started reading a book called paperweight and that shit has triggered me so now we going back to old habits

[velvetvirgo]

i’m getting put on a mood stabilizer and a very common side effect is weight gain… istg if it makes me gain i’m gonna be so upset

[elliott-is-spinning-deactivated]

My ass is like " I will lose weight, I will get back on track, I will restrict and get to my gw", while simultaneously stuffing food down my throat👍

[ruby126968]

no matter how fucking deep you are in an ED, that doesn’t give you the right to be a dickhead about plus-sized people. keep your nose out of their business and get some help.

[velvetvirgo]

okay so i’ve been not restricting for a month or so cause i was trying to recover. i hoped on the scale today because i went swimming yesterday and looked like a goddamn whale, and i think my scale is broke. it says i’m 92 pounds??? there ain’t no way i’m 92 pounds 😭💀

[velvetvirgo]

bro istg im the worst ana ever 😭💀 like i’ll promise myself not to eat when u get home from school and then i binge on the whole kitchen

[velvetvirgo]

guys should i go vegetarian so for meals i can eat lower cal foods without drawing suspicion to myself???

[velvetvirgo]

im terrified i won’t be able to fit in my bridesmaid dress for my brothers wedding in june. ive gained 6 pounds since ive bought the dress due to binging, i don’t know what to do.

[velvetvirgo]

my gf asked me to write something down in her iphone notes and when i opened it i saw a weight log for theirself. they know i have an ed and im scared i triggered them to feel the need to loose weight in a short amount of time. idk if i should ask about it or not, i hope she’s losing in a healthy way and not harmful like me. i really don’t know what to do.

[velvetvirgo]

i hate when i tell myself i’m gonna recover and it’s literally just a binge 😭💀

[velvetvirgo]

my grandpa visited yesterday and he said “you’ve lost a lot of weight” and it made me really happy that someone noticed my progress but then my dad said “actually she’s gained a lot recently” i am going to kms.

[velvetvirgo]

bro i’ve been eating low cal for the past 4 days and i haven’t lost any weight. the universe hates me istg

[velvetvirgo]

guys my parents are starting to make me pack a lunch because they somehow found out i wasn’t eating at school… wtf do i do

[velvetvirgo]

one thing my ed will never take from me is putting sweetener in my coffee… like how tf do y’all just enjoy black coffee that shit is rancid 😭💀