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minors dni!

[sotiredsthings]

✨Intro✨

Hi! My name's Megan, I go by she/they, and I'm 20 years old.

Please don't interact if you're easily triggered or a minor!! Block don't report!

DM's are always open!

Literally just here to trigger myself and vent to strangers.

[barbieaspiration]

i’m so sick of all these ✨starving is mind over matter, you’re in control sweetheart✨ posts like. be so real with yourself.

okay so you’re hungry. but you also have to mitigate not passing the fuck out and smashing your head in the shower, not crashing your car, not having a literal heart attack, not failing out of school or getting fired from your job, not shitting your pants or alternatively getting a bowel blockage, etc etc. you can’t just willpower your way out of destroying your body

maybe i’m just too old to be here but this isn’t a fucking cutesy little experience. starving yourself to death isn’t a fun little hobby like you’re encouraging your mutuals to keep up with practicing their drawing or writing every day. shut the fuck up

[tomdisappearing]

I think this is probably why there’s the whole “honeymoon phase” and the “after” tbh. The first go round, the whole “just restrict and be in control!” shit seems ok— you have yet to experience most of the adverse effects, can go crazy low and still function (or more accurately: still assume you can function). It feels like a fun hobby bc the consequences have not hit yet.

But after X amount of time, the issues are fucking unavoidable. And after that point, you know that going too low will lead to consequences (passing out, shit motor control, not being able to function at all). Now you know that it’s not willpower, it’s the fucking human body. Someone who doesn’t is either new or has got to be experiencing some sort of mental effect of how little they’re eating. Alternatively, they’re convinced they’re the exception. They aren’t.

[blue-lil-butterfly]

I didn't know how to say it and you said it perfectly 😭

[marasxxo]

LMAO LITERALLY

[addicted2skinny2]

All I want is to be loved [and to be underweight]

[emmijhhhjjjjhgcd-deactivated202]

saving the planet by having an 3d!!! 💗💗 i dont eat or waste food AND walk everywhere!

[blackcherrybonez]

really i just wanna be so thin & pretty & alluring that it distracts from how off-putting i am to talk to :>

[sotiredsthings]

This is so real 😫

[thereisnothinghereagain]

Where are all my adult anas?

It's a different world stepping into Eds shoes again half way through life.

I don't have to worry about my parents getting mad at me

I don't have to worry about my school teachers getting mad at me

I don't have the typical teenage drama that spurred this mentality shift

I remember Ed being a call a shout for help just to be seen and cared for as a teenager. But now no one sees me, I have no watchful eyes on me. No one whispering under their breath, no parents staring at me across the dinner table as I play with a half eaten plate, no boy trouble or pubescent drama fueled by hormonal rage and indifference. I'm not doing this to impress the boy I like or try to fit in with the popular kids.

I am invisible

Except from myself.

I'm in a strange state of visible translucency. I tell people I'm fasting and they believe me, I tell people I'm too tired to come meet them for dinner they believe me.

Fuck, even my live out partner whose been here for the last 3 days who I have said the words 4norexi4 to and who has watched me consume nothing but tea for 3 days doesn't question my choices.

How different a world it is when you're seen but not seen. I am validated but I remain a shadow.

[standing-desk-deactivated202406]

I kind of hate the new slang the kids are using these days.

"Girl, you ATE"

I did what

[fw101]

“youve lost weight”yh i fucking hope so i dont do this shit for fun.

[onlyteaparties-deactivated20240]

Some 4n4 Tips if You're 16 or Younger

GET OUT!! GET OUT WHILE YOU STILL CAN!! MOST OF US WILL BE HAUNTED BY SHAME OF A BASIC NEED TILL WE DIE IN OUR 30S AND 40S!! "It doesn't matter, I'll be dead by 18," WRONG! LIFE CAN BE BEAUTIFUL, JUST LEAVE YOUR HOMETOWN! I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH THIS SHIT SINCE I WAS 14 AND ILL PROBABLY DIE VOMITING ON A TOILET! GET OUT AND GET HELP THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS "Not sick enough" THE PRO-ANA GIRLS ARE LYING TO YOU; THIS SHIT DOESN'T STOP WHEN YOU'RE THIN! NOBODY WILL LIKE YOU MORE WHEN YOU'RE THIN BECAUSE YOU'LL BECOME BORING SHELL OF YOURSELF! DON'T TRY TO GAIN THE APPROVAL OF SHALLOW PEOPLE YOU'LL KNOW FOR ONLY A FEW YEARS!

SAVE YOURSELF AND GET OUT NOW!

Stay safe.

[sotiredsthings]

This applies to everyone! If you're thinking about getting help please do! This sickness is the worst and everyone who wants to recover deserves to!!

[sotiredsthings]

I'm stuck between wanting to get better, wanting to be thin, and wanting to get so sick people get concerned.