I am a Fungi

I spill my insides and hope it cleanses my soul.

[siren-serotonin-deactivated2025]

Anyone who reblogs this post will have their user written on a poster saying "We Stand With Palestine" that I hope to put up somewhere in the village I live in, or the town that the village is next to.

[vengtshroom]

Sometimes in my nightmares I see worlds and lives I've never experienced. Feelings that couldn't be mine. Experiences that are horrifying and all too real. Some nights it's war. Some nights it's watching loved ones I don't recognize but know are mine die horribly. Last night a school that certainly has to be mine but I do not recognize from my life being bombed. It felt so real like so many of these dreams. The screaming and running. Whoever I was was scared and shaking. Blaming themselves somehow for making a silly joke hours ago about school violence when they couldn't have known. Whoever I was in my dream it wasn't me. Their parents had long been dead. They were standing outside the building clutching a basketball like their life depended on it just thinking that their parents would never come because they couldn't.

I can't help but wonder why in the nightmares I have I seem to experience horrors even I can't imagine. My life is pretty shit but it seems even in rest I must experience what others suffer. Maybe they're not real events in this world (most of them certainly can't be) but they feel so real in these nightmares I wake up feeling truly shaken and unable to forget any of these nightmares. Like they become part of the horror. Every other dream I forget. These become part of who I am.

[vengtshroom]

Is this hell?

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

you are not hard to love

you are not hard to love

you are not hard to love

whoever made you think otherwise was not worthy of your love

[ss4368]

One day I really hope I believe this

[risski25]

you will, I will, we'll know just how lovable we are.

[vengtshroom]

I mean I know most people I've met would disagree considering my continued inescapable isolation. If not for my partner I would be completely alone in the world regardless of effort on my part.

[vengtshroom]

Sometimes I wonder if I'm already dead. If I never escaped that car crash and I've been trapped in a torturous afterlife of some kind.

[vengtshroom]

Sometimes I wonder who I once was.

[vengtshroom]

Sometimes I wonder if this is some version of hell. Life has been a torturous experience.

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Have you ever had a near-death experience? ("it's unlikely but I could've definitely died" counts)

Yes

No

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[vengtshroom]

Multiple. Two major ones include almost drowning and an active shooting.

[vengtshroom]

Existing as I have to is suffocating.

[vengtshroom]

Human existence is a cosmic horror.

[lindagoesmushrooming]

[only-tiktoks]

[vengtshroom]

E N T E R T H E F R O G B O G.

[fallandfloat]

As a witch who does not have a lot of visual artistic capabilities, I want to ask witchblr/ witches of Tumblr/pagans/ magick practitioners

How can I draw my own deck of tarot cards? I live in India and have limited money I can spend (right now) for any supplies. Any suggestions? Please hmu!🙏🏼

May you be blessed🖤

[vengtshroom]

Fun fact a regular deck of playing cards all have tarot correspondences. If it becomes too stressful making your own you can learn and practice with regular deck. It's a bit more difficult to grasp without images in my opinion but with the right resources it is actually a great base to start learning tarot if you have no rider-waite.

If you're still set on making them get thick set paper around the length and height of your hand (probably a little smaller) and I would suggest just doing your best to capture the general idea and feelings of the deck you feel most connected to or the rider-waite.

Like for face cards you can go more avant-garde so long as you're able to understand what they mean. Studying the original meanings/having a reference book or two will be important for making your own so you accurately capture the energy of each card.

I would recommend these if you can afford them or find a PDF:

- https://a.co/d/3NFc1iv

- https://a.co/d/1UqDBP2

I am by no means an expert on the subject but I hope this helps a little. Just remember it doesn't have to be perfect as long as you can understand and use them with accuracy and capture the energy there-in.

[murray-wrathbard]

Some good news among all the bullshit

Hell yeah kings

[yourboykurt]

Hell yeah

[homochadensis]

go dads go

[vengtshroom]

Damn. That's 200% more than I've seen of my father.

[vengtshroom]

I really hate one of my partner's friends.

[vengtshroom]

I coughed up more blood today.

[vengtshroom]

I want a better life than this. I hate being alive like this. I get scraps of necessities and when I dare ask for better I'm reminded of the burden I am to everyone around me. I just wish I were dead. I'm tired of fighting so hard to stay alive just to be fucking miserable.