riss!!

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[risski25]

introooo ♡

#wearingmyheartonmysleeve

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✧ riss ✧ vi/vim, they/them, one/one's ⁺₊ en.pronouns.page ✧ neurodivergent ✧ crazy music enjoyer ⁺₊ last.fm ✧ risski25 on discord! frq if you wanna ✧ check out my graphics sideblog @risspng

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✧ hobbies: listening to music, producing music, band/marching band, video games [specifically roblox], sleeping, making spotify playlists, meowing, poetry and writing, makeup, drawing ✧ music: weezer, shauna dean cokeland, solya, mitski, yazida, pinkpantheress, mother horse, aphi tenza, gurldoll/ylliy, alexis munroe, maretu, ayesha erotica, dazey and the scouts, elita, femtanyl, jack off jill, scarling, jazmin bean, violent vira, deco*27, kairikibear, yuyoyuppe, yuchaP, the backseat lovers, mcr, ptv, slipknot, grimes, poppy, creepybuggirl, vial, ennaria, america, rory in early 20s, 2003 toyota corolla, days n' daze, beabadoobee, yazida, kero kero bonito ✧ fandoms/etc: vocaloid, project sekai, needy streamer overload, class of 09, umamusume, death note, animal crossing, minecraft, dnd, winx club, songs from the black hole, demon slayer, the summer hikaru died, horimiya, you and i are polar opposites, orange

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✧ i have gad, depression, likely adhd and maybe autism (avoiding self-diagnosing) ✧ if topics like suicide or self harm are triggering please filter tags #tw suicide or #tw sh as i try to tag my posts as necessary ✧ i dont have a specific dni but i will block you if i dont like you or you're being an asshole ✧ i have a lot of anxiety around social situations and it's difficult for me to keep a conversation going without it feeling forced, so please be patient!!! i am working on it and am trying to interact with my mutuals more!!! ✧ feel free to send me an ask or dm me whenever!!! i'll try my best to respond :3

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see you!! ♡

[skidfarts]

I feel revolting but i must vacuum

[risski25]

feeling like im bugging you.. bugging out over this..

[risski25]

[risski25]

in agony.

[risski25]

funny how isolating yourself impacts how the people around you feel about being friends with you. unfortunately its a collection of bad habits that are hard to break....

[risski25]

fucking things up with my self-isolating tendencies

[risski25]

haters call me anemic the way i fall back. when i stand up

[skidfarts]

Dont complain that i dont tell you stuff that's happening in my life When you dont even seem interested when i actually tell you

[beaft]

i am not a psychiatrist but i do find it really weird how autism checklists are so often focused on "outward" signs of autism rather than what is going on internally. i don't know how to explain it but "do you make eye contact with other people" feels like a much less relevant question than "how does it feel when you have to make eye contact with other people?"

[beaft]

while i'm here, the other one that always pisses me off is "do you interpret idioms literally, for example 'bull in a china shop'?"

well, no, obviously. i know what "bull in a china shop" means because that is a popular phrase with a clearly defined meaning. and if i hadn't heard it before, then i would still not interpret it literally, because it has the cadence of an idiom and i would probably be able to work out from context what it meant. what is the point of this question

[beaft]

third and final complaint: "are you good at noticing subtext?"

i feel like the problem with this question is best illustrated by a conversation i had with a friend a while back, where i said something like, "i feel very safe with you because you don't do subtle hints and you are always very straight-up with me about what you are thinking and feeling."

and he laid a hand on my shoulder and was like, look dude i'm gonna be straight up here. i am subtle with you constantly and you simply do not notice <3

[beaft]

@luckyybones hope you don't mind me screenshotting but you are actually so correct

[risski25]

all these things up with me but i dont know what's wrong with me

[risski25]

one step closer to my gyaru debut

[lochnessieart]

Final design is Olruggio as a barn owl! I’ll probably revisit this eventually to draw beldaruit, easthies, tartah, and custas, but I have to switch projects for a little bit! These will be available as stickers, keychains, prints, and tshirts on my shop!

[pawpotato]

Buddy….

[lakemojave]

I have you blocked because I don't like your blog at all but I hope you're doing well. ok blocking you again adieu

Hello???

[lakemojave]

Anon bb come back i can change for you

[wickedsick]

[risski25]

i dont have any disorders . i dont know why i 'm this way

[cowpokeprose]

You hate yourself so loudly. You hate yourself at the top of your lungs. Your loathing for yourself permeates your speech. “Sorry I’m just rambling.” “Don’t worry about it.” “Just ignore me.” “Sorry if I’m annoying you.” “Sorry I don’t make sense.” “Sorry about that.” Sorry, sorry, sorry. You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you. You clapped your hands over your ears and shut your eyes and balled yourself up so that you’d never have to experience people’s loathing for you. And it meant you never heard their love. You drowned it out. You screamed your hatred over it. And you never got to hear it.