Im Here To Vent And Cry

Age:23 Just here to vent mostly

[vent-palace]

Desperate for Love

Every day I see a glance

Of people loving one another

Their hold hands and kissing faces

Makes me desperate for the feeling

I see their eyes full like a moon

The shines in their eyes becoming stars

And endless galaxy it becomes

When the gaze at heir loved one

I can almost hear their hearts

Together in time, like drum beats

It makes claw at my own

Desperate for the feeling

Their smiles wide

The hearts so full

Only need one another

Oh what fools to be in love

I stare at them my eyes so dull

Desperate to feel the way they do

To have another all to me

And to have another do the same

But I know love will never last

After all a heart is brittle as glass

They fight and argue to no avail

Their love has now to bitter sweet

Is it sad to say…

I am desperate for that feeling

There is a dull tug pulling at my heart as if to say

“Why not you?”

I am desperate…

Desperate for the wondrous feeling

Desperate for a bitter end

Desperate for that feeling of love

[vent-palace]

Someone out there might see this but I’m in my feels and need to get it out. It’s very putty me sounding but I can’t help the feeling it’s nagging feeling. Maybe it’s because I still like this person or how much I feel but, I feel like an after thought to some people. I ask if it’s okay we can talk they reply sure and are we talking no it feels like I’m easy to ignore. I post stuff in my group chat, they ignore it. I tell my friends I’m here if they need me, they never do. I try my best to be a good person to smile and act like I’m okay but, I’m hurting cause I feel like they don’t really care about me. That they aren’t really interested in me or my conversations that I’m no good and that I’m nothing but an idiot for even trying. My very first friend left me and didn’t say anything to me and my other friends are becoming famous in fandoms that I’m not a part of and seem to enjoy those people better than me. Seems like they are more invested in people that are like them and when I try to make an effort no one cares. Is it wrong for me to feel like I want to be thought of first not just an afterthought. Maybe it’s my fault cause I always crawl back that I always give them attention… Maybe I don’t know anymore. I could just be having a pity party for myself. Just needed to let it out.