[positivelypositivethoughts]

[ventsesh-widd-jaddaay]

He came to me when i was least expecting it; i thought nothing of it but he ended up really leaving a mark on me. He may have been one of the sweeter boys ive talked to; just really considerate. Ah,,,it was so nice feeling constantly thought about. But of course it was all just a dream, just a teaser of what i could have in the future. He tore down my walls just to see if he could and i feel,,,,,,cold. I thought i was moving differently; i was so fucking clear from the beginning this time. All i can do is live and experience. And for that i am grateful.

[ventsesh-widd-jaddaay]

Ugh seeing a pattern in my relationships.

I need to know when to let the fuck go.. like bitch get your shit together.

I be out here fighting for shitty relationships to work and woopty the fuck doo they dont.

Uh uhh im done with that.

I have to start stand up for myself. I just be out here loving too damn hard n shit.

[ventsesh-widd-jaddaay]

The bounce back be crazy, living my life and it feels great! Its crazy how long i was suppressing this beautiful beautiful radiant energy I harness thats meant to be shared and shown off!!!!! Like look at me go!!! I am and will always be that bitch ahahahaha.

Probably gonna re-delete this app for now.

Will return 🤭

[ventsesh-widd-jaddaay]

I went on a date last night, and on the way home i cried. It wasnt the date dont get me wrong. I just really believed i wouldnt have to go through the dating scene again cause i had found the ‘one’.

This guy was really allllllll about me and it felt nice! Its been a long time since i felt wanted. I deserve this.

[ventsesh-widd-jaddaay]

The clouds remind me of you. Watching anime reminds me of you. Literally just moving around my everyday life theres leftover specks of you scattered.

And its so fucking frustrating having to move on with no type of closure. I am so full of anger.

I hate you with a passion.

[suggestionsofkindness]

It’s okay if the day doesn’t go as planned, and it’s okay if you started the day later than you wanted to. The most important thing is listening to your needs. 🌸

[remanence-of-love]

[vermilionight-deactivated202302]

~ Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

[remanence-of-love]

[9710144]

[dailyglow]

*person

[javarisx-fightingthosedemons]

[mimosaapapi]

Not even going to set myself up for no shit like this, once you’ve been dealt “that one” wrong soul… it’s like you gain a 6th sense, never again.

[iambrillyant]

“december, cleanse my spirit and polish my endeavors, speak to the love i have for myself and leave less space to listen to fear. allow me to release what doesn’t serve me so i can proceed on my journey with a lighter bag and a light heart. water my intentions until i see growth.”

— iambrillyant

[nevaneed2worry]

nothing annoys me more than when someone expects you to be okay with something that they wouldn’t be okay with .

[remanence-of-love]

[thepersonalquotes]

““We cannot truly understand each other. But we can be understanding of one another.” - Stacie Martin”

—

[ventsesh-widd-jaddaay]

Not a day goes by without you crossing my mind. Re-reading old texts, all the broken promises you made me. Our love was something i have never experienced…it was beautiful.

I put so much effort and patience into this relationship and he just…..threw it away. Threw me away.

I just deleted all our photos and burned any physical copy. I cant bare to see his face. How could someone love so deeply but also be so ugly.

I deserve security, stability, consistency. And i was willing to wait for his growth. But he romanticized pain, he wants to be alone. And so be it.